| Posted: 25 July 2005 at 11:52am | IP Logged
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For nearly 6 years I had been treated for bi-polar disorder, and had tried every known method available to my doctor, a psychiatrist in the Metro-Deroit aria. After a barrage of medications, monthly trips to the Rehab 3 psychiatric ward in Wyandotte Hospital and two series of ECT-(Electro-Convulsive Therapy), suicide began to look like the best option for myself, and for those I had put through hell with my illness. In six years, I went from; "I don't want to lose everthing"...to... "I ain't got nothing to lose".
On the day I had planned to sleep with the fishies, I was in my doctor's office. I told him all my feelings except for the suicidal thoughts. That kind of disclosure always led to the hospital, and after the ECT gig, I wasn't going there. I told him I was tired all the time. I couldn't focus mentaly on things, and forgetting things like orders at work. He gave me a perscription for Adderall and said try this and let me know how you do.
WOW! I could not believe what was happening. It was as though I had thrown a switch on it was so quick. I was listening...even to my wife! And whats more it was all registering. I actually began to be motivated, finnishing projects I had abandoned and implimenting new ones with ease.
One day several months ago, I began to question whether I needed to continue taking prozac for my supposed bi-polar condition. While studying on the matter, I began to research on the internet where I found this forum, and learned for the first time the symptoms of ADHD and it was as if I were reading my own chart. I took my findings to my doctor who just smiled and recomended I continue taking the prozac. I left his office like a defiant school boy and within 4 weeks had weaned myself off prozac.
Its been over 3 months now, and the only effects from stoping prozac have been improoved vision, much, MUCH improoved sexual functioning.
So if you are being treated for ADHD and depression, it may be that ADHD was the reason for the other malady. I do not recomend that anyone use my method of self-diagnoses. I took a chance. Looking back now, I think I would have done better to consult another doctor, because a person who treats his own afflictions has a moron for a doctor.
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