Stress is hard to deal with at the best of times but my step-dad has just passed away suddenly and my mother needs me there.. my older brother would normally be around to help ease the situation but is away on holiday and is not back for a week and mum doesn't want to spoil his vacation.. I did not get on with my alcoholic step father and my mother was the only one that would put up with his antics. I have to stay bias but after coming away the past few days have taken their toll on me and as usual i end up feeling like the worlds out to get me and end up shouting and swearing smashing things up in a release of frustration and anger at not being able to deal with the situation Ives been thrown into.. now the guilt of having put my son and wife through my stupid Adhd moments which i hate so much.. i just wish i could deal with the situation and not feel like iam such a burden to the ones i love...
Ugh Coiled...that does sound like a miserable situation. Have any Xanax or other prescription to help you through? Now I sound like a pusher. Anyhow, it does sound like a rainy day, so maybe pull out some chemical backup? Just trying to help even though I should probably say something more healthy like, "this too shall pass" "count your blessings" "count to 10" "count sheep" or something totally annoying like my aunt would say, "you need to find the gift or lesson in this" which always makes me want to punch her in the head since she is wealthy and many things in her world can be massaged away.Are there any other family members that can comfort mum while you get it together? Are there any that you can take to a gym or a pub? maybe a close park you can exercise in?It sounds as if you are REALLY stressed more by this than you yourself realize. I'm not an expert but taking out anger on a leather bag should be better than nothing, it's all mental stress and may be helped if your body felt the same instead of being pent up in the situation. my recommendation is beat toe bloody he** out of a bag, so you can get some kind of respite from the situation, get some sleep(i know thats hard, but if you don't sleep , it won't make it any easier on family members), and then decide tomorrow morn the next move. The pub and darts may be the easiest if you're discussing events with a family member, just try not to offend like I usually do in this kind of situation.
daniel