phsycgirl | ADHD Information

I take natural sleeping pills as needed. I have a neck/ shoulder injury that causes pain. This takes care of both issues at hand. I wanted to add, that I just read your post about smoking, nail biting etc...That descibes me as well!! BTW, adderal made all that worse, if you take it -stock up on smokes and coffee

Hey, I know what you mean about the "half-way everything". RIGHT NOW, I'm suppose to be paying the other half of our bills --- paid the "first half" yesterday morning, but forgot to mail them!!!!!!! Thing is, there is no "first half" as far as due date, they all due at the same time. My husband gets SO mad at me because we always have late charges, or we get late notices in the mail about important things like INSURANCE!!!!!!!!

Welbutrin didn't even phase the smoking thing, it didnt' lower my appetite and it didn't help with depression. Helped with energy a little, thats all I noticed. I was very disappointed. It caused worse anxiety, which I didn't need. I was on it about 6 months.

Keep me posted as to how you are doing, we may can help each other figure out the best way to deal with all this, what med works, etc.?

yeah- i'm a 42 yo burly lookin' guy, and i cry most every day. it's only sometimes depression.

frequently it's over a tv show, or the news, or an emotional scene in a movie. it is difficult to watch anything but comedies or action flicks with anyone else around. it's a good thing the theatre is dark- it's easier to hide my tears and sniffles.

sometimes even a commercial can get the tears started. and yes, it does exhaust me some.

i don't know why. am i extra empathic?  is it related to adhd? is it an expression of unhealed psychic wounds?

as for chaos! it is overwhelming too. i know i'm not ocd because of the piles of papers etc.that grow and grow, and migrate around the house but never disappear. ever. even after major cleaning/organising efforts.

 it's a good thing i am easily distracted. they disappear to my consciousness due to lack of interest, or rather, because something shiny catches my eye.(so to speak).

at work i frequently stop to organise so i can keep my mind on the task at hand, be less distracted by all the peripheral stimulation. but at home.....

Hey, your post about being tired, disorganized, empathetic, etc. is excactly, EXCACTLY, like ME. With the house thing, I always feel like if I could just get my HOUSE organized my MIND would feel such a relief and I wouldn't feel so anxious. I feel like my house is a reflection of whats going on inside of me............I try so hard to make it look clean and uncluttered, and it "looks" like it usually is, but there is so much CLUTTER unseen. But I know its there, and think about it constantly. And as far as other people go and how they feel, I seem to feel their pain as much as they do. Whether in real life or on tv. Sometimes I feel emotionally exhausted after a dramatic heartfelt movie. I also have the ADD with depression and anxiety. Big time.

As for the cymbalta, I hae been on it for 2 weeks. Seems to have helped the anxiety slightly, can't tell a difference yet with the depression. BUT I am always so sleepy!!!!!!!!!! All day, pushing myself to get things done because I just want to lay down. In the evenings, the sleepiness seems to let up some, and then I have a hard time going to sleep. My mind won't turn off. I usually take the cymbalta around 9:00 pm, when my dr. suggested. Said it would help me sleep, but like I said, hard time going to sleep, then tired and sleepy the next day. I took it in the morning the other day to see if that would be better, maybe I would get sleepy in the evenings, but, it made me nausous during the day. Do you find that the cymbalta makes you extra sleepy???? That seems to be the only side effect so far. wondering about the sexual side effects, but my husband has been gone for a month on business, so, will find out about that tomorrow!!!!!!!

Oh, and I have hardly any appetite, which is good since I've gained a few pounds over the past months. I want the cymbalta to work, as other anti-depressants make me gain weight. I didn't lose weight on Welbutrin, either.

--Hey, you sound like my long lost twin!

Ditto on the sleep thing at night, I have to rock myself to sleep, sometimes it takes me up to an hour to get to sleep, then I end up waking up in the middle of the night with a thousand worries, thoughts, and senerios running through my head. I think during the day its not so much "sleepy" as it is just totally energy drained, unmotivated and exhausted! I thought at one point it was chronic fatigue-who knows maybe it is.When I was on wellbutrin, it helped tremendously for about six months. I lost some of my depression weight--sometimes I zone out in front of the T.V. and become engulfed in the misery and suffering of the world, munching down my feelings I suppose--I'm 5ft 2 and at one point weighed 147, so the wellbutrin helped me get back down to about 115, but since then I'm back to about 135. Wellbutrin also, helped me quit smoking for a while, and gave me the energy and motivation to clean and organize. Since it quit working though, things are back to the way they've always been-Cluttered/chaos. I try to motivate myself--Peptalks and the like. I feel like I live in a world of "half dones", EVERYTHING is half done, my house is always half-clean, my bills are always half-paid, I'm a half-way good wife and a half-way good mom. I'm half-way a whole person!Sometimes I cry so hard about the suffering in this world that it physically hurts. Like i said I've only been taking cymbalta for about a week, I feel a little better, not sure if it's the med or not. The only real side effect for me so far is some gastric problems. I take mine in the morning, and I haven't noticed being more tired so I don't think it effects me that way. I took provigil(to keep me awake--HA-It put me to sleep!!!) I have a really high tolorance to meds and alot of reverse effects.

Sorry this post is sooooo looooong-But I'm glad you wrote, looks like we are trying to navigate through the same dark water!

  psychgirl

Basketcase--

OK--here's an semi-stupid idea to kick around in your head--If your are like me you probably don't need another one but here it goes anyway-

What if we turn house cleaning into a friendly game?

Something like, list the rooms in our house and assign points to them and then extra points for items tossed and items given away. Honor system of course--NO CHEATING!!!Then we can add our points and see who wins, either daily or weekly--whatever!

I'm a scorpio and like a good challenge(CRAP how do you spell that stupid WORD???)Anyway, Think about it- maybe it might give us a iota of motivation!!!