Yes to both.
I have so little self confidence most of the time. I am always afraid of failing.
I also hate myself for letting the ADHD prevent me from trying and/or succeeding although I really don't know what more I could have done. I went to a dr and he didn't believe adults could have it.
I also deal with major bouts of depression when I don't take Wellbutrin but I didn't realize why I was taking it so I quit. Now my new dr doesn't think I need it. She wants me to get diagnosed by a psych before she treats me for it even though I took the Wellbutrin for years and it helped so much.
I also get on really big bouts of pity parties for my self. I really hate that.
One day I WILL break thru, I know...Pray 4 me all of U
[QUOTE=Brookelea]i really hope you do breedlowe!!
i have my moments but i truly believe that i am the person that i am because of what i have gone through.. and this has made me a more empathetic, sensitive human being.. i just have to remind myself of this..
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Same for me. I believe I am what I am because of where I was. I can honestly say that I would go through it all again. I wouldn't want to change anything. It has taken me a long time to say that!
i really hope you do breedlowe!!
Some really good responses to the Procrastination Topic...
Along those same lines, here is another:
Given that we procrastinate, and therefore lose out on many opportunities to improve on our stations in life, does anyone deal w/a lack of self confidence or a good amount of self loathing?
I find that because I feel I haven't lived up to my full potential, I sometimes become disgusted w/myself...Does that make sense?
It makes total sense. I get disgusted and angry with myself all the time. I know that I'm not living up to my potential. I have yet to discover just "what" I'm good at....I look at Help wanted Ads, and disqualify myself from everything. My self esteem is non existent. I am my own worst enemy.maybe you are setting too hi of standards for yourself. and maybe you need to take a step back and re-analyze the situation. are you on any meds at the current time? what have you been diagnosed with?breedlowe i am going through that right now, i should have gone to the dr right away as i am having panic attacks and in a deep state of depression. my hubby just came home from work and i had him call in instead of going back so i could take my xanax, i am in a rut and cant seem to get outta it now. thank god i have a dr appoint on monday. i feel today that i am an awfull mom as i am in such a rut that i cant give my kids the attention that they need. i just started this feeling in the last couple of hours.
and yes it makes sense. just know that it isnt you it is the depression or whatever you are going through, that is what gets me through day to day.
you are a great person, especially since you know something is wrong and are asking for help.
hugs go out to you.if you need to talk pm me.
Okay guys, this is getting depressing...but yes I to used to bash myself. At the time I was DXed with ADHD I was also DXed with depression. Just before this I had begun to really hate myself. I didn't know what was wrong with me; always forgetting things, loosing things, not finishing things, not starting things, no self confidence......ect..
The Psych. wanted to treat the depression before treating the ADHD, but I had to insist that if my ADHD symptons were more under contron that I wouldn't be depressed so she let me have my way and gave me, I think, it was Ritilin. Anyway the depression did not go away. I had to treat it first, then not long after I started on Adderal and then all was well.
I still take an antidepresant (Lexapro) it's also been approved for anxiety. I've always been a little too anxious so I'll probably always take it with my Adderal. The combination has worked wonders for me. I accomplish a lot more thanks to the Adderal, but the Lexapro helps to calm me and feel in control which also helps me to accomplish things. I'm going back to school and have a determination like never before. I'm in my 40's...it's never too late!!
yahhhh!!! congratulations, you're an inspiration
I have taken wellbutrin for years and now also Adderall
Oh boy do I get the negative "tapes" running through my head! I argue with them. gotta love a good argument especially inside your head... hee hee
For me, it was my personal spirituality and belief system that helped me get through it when it was bad....
anytime I heard myself put myself down.. I kept quoting a verse that I had memorized.... " You are fearfully and wonderfully made." I like that one.. no matter how goofy, spacy, forgetful, airheaded I am... I am fearfully and wonderfully made.. It's now my life's mantra...
I think that was part of my stress before going on meds. I argued with myself a lot... fighting the ADD with sheer will, needed more help than willfulness and perserverance could supply.
Sherry
I work in a retail commercial store. With such a judgementalohhhh