i’m such an idiot at times!! | ADHD Information

Brookelea ::::: Deadlines are such a pain in the bum,aren't they.

I'm always forever emptying my pockets with doz. of pieces of paper with names and book titles and other things, and never do anything with them. I think we're all as 'normal' as we can be at the time. I'm trying to learn to not beat myself up to much {negative self talk } but it's a life long habit that's TUFF to brake.

Hang in there. You can do it. Do one POSITIVE action today-now.

Hey, I said now -what are you waiting for ?

i registered my interest for three teaching jobs a month ago..
i had a whole month to fill out the selection criteria..
naturally i left it till tonight..
i had around 3 hours in which to complete 3, 8 page, applications..basically essays..
as i go to send them, the server on the other end drops off, and finally when i tried to send them, it was past the deadline and the server would not accept them..

i'm doomed to work forever with naughty children
but thats not going to happen because i am leaving at the end of the year..

why couldn't i just be normal and fill out the criteria earlier?? why haven't i saved my log in details in my computer instead of leaving them on a scrap piece of paper that i constantly lose and forever calling the department to get me a new log in??

i need a job for next year but am too lazy to type a generic cover letter..

seriously i think its the forum thats driven my brain around the bend

its 1:40 am here.. i can't sleep, i'm watching billy elliot..

i'll drink some coffee, that always helps me sleep..

but you must admit, the bold and the beautiful has gotten raunchy

danke pilgrim..

actually doing something very important now..
checking out the updates on the bold and the beautiful..

brooke and nick heat up even though nick is engaged to her daughter bridget!!

wow!! so ridge chose taylor after all

That's not what I meant and you know it ! Now turn of the #@&%$ and do something POSitive. Don't make me get out of my chair and do it myself . . . !

B&B was raunchy way back when it started! It got me hooked way back then. I had a terrible time weaning myself off it and even years later, I can watch it and figure out what is going on with whom in less than one episode. Ah, the wonder of soaps!

Why don't you fill out an application and save it on file? That way you can copy much of it with a few basic changes or updates. Its much faster and less frustrating. Do the same with the cover letter.

Now, if I would only take my own advice. I have a resume around here somewhere and if I ever need it, I hope I can find it.

hahhahha i know what you mean brookelea --- if it isn't procrastination because it seems complex work which is far better done tomorrow than today then
it's kinda the decision-making process that is faulty with me. i thought i might do a UCLA extension course here in LA but i'm not sure if i can afford the one i want to do -- so then i think well, do a cheaper one, but then i think "what's the point of that??" do the one you want to do and find a way to make some money... and then i think well, maybe i shouldn't do a course at all and should just try to think about making money etc. etc. etc.

and then suddenly it's the day before the course date starts and i STILL haven't decided on anything. i have a HOPELESS inability to simply make decisions and get on with it.

i think i have decided to go for the more expensive one (but trouble is they expect payment up-front and i don't have the money yet so i will have to try to persuade them to take some form of deferred payment --- i hope they go for that) and then i worry that after all that it will be a horrible waste of cash/useless course... humph! decisions eh? i am spoilt for choice - that's my trouble.
jonesy > I thought you said a deformed payment !
I can't image what that would look like . . . . oh, hold it
-yes I can.
Take the class anyway, you'll never know what the
out come will be. You could make some contacts in
the film industry. What's the class called anyway ?

jonesy > WAY TO GO ! ! You did it gurl . . .

What are you editing anyway . . .they have fall in LA
LA land-did not know that.

ok - i'm gonna phone them right now. cross your fingers for me re. deformed payment....

trouble is i'm just speaking to admissions and so it's slightly 'more than my jobs worth' for them to make exceptions. if i could talk more directly with the course teacher i would hold out some more hope of being a bit persuasive.... but one never knows one's luck. they might take pity on me or offer up a solution of their own (it can't be the first time someone has said i want to take the course but can't pay it all upfront - that seems very unlikely to me!)

its a cinematography/dp course --- which is something i have had an interest in for a long time and would love to do - it is expensive however because of the equipment and film processing involved (plus as i leave on Nov 14th i don't get to finish the last two classes which means i can't get a credit --- which doesn't bother me too much as i am happy to get the knowledge but my brain keeps on trying to think of better or cheaper ways to do it --- i'll be seriously jacked if it turns out to be a crap course with little practical/hands on time with the camera but then maybe i can get a refund...)!!

oh well, here goes. hahahaha i have made a decision (with pilgrim's help

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seriously i think its the forum thats driven my brain around the bend

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oooohhhh pshyt, we sank the ship...

Sorry Broke alalaland, didn't mean to interrupt last night. Oooooh, it's all our fault!!!! Oh why, o why o why!!!

I feel soooooooooo guilty.........

And it feels good!!!

I am not alone...

DavidoProcarastintorAdo
Ā woo-hoo i did it!

i'm all signed up and the administration woman was lovely.... she said listen if it doesn't go through it's gonna take them at least a week to get back to you so as long as you have managed to get the extra by then you'll be fine and if not just delay for a while....!!!!

super cool! so now i better get back to getting that damn editing done so i can get some payment.

hahahaha ---

gotta say it is a BEEE YUUUU TI FALLL day here today in LA. gonna go for a quick walk in the hills and come back and edit to the death!

c ya - wouldn't wanna be ya! (hahaha stupid thing we used to say in high-school).

congratulations then - you must be very talented!!!

oh i am editing a couple of music videos --- it should be fast and easy but i am (final cut)PROcrastinating.

still i am glad i signed up... woohoo christine jones ASC!

they don't have fall here really it was just a beautiful blue sky hot day - that's all.

ok - gonna go back to hediting....
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because every simple public school job have their own insane selection criteria..

i wonder if brooke will end up with nick??? hmmmm
asc??? whats that exactly chjonesie?? american society of cinematographers (actually i should have said bsc - which is the British version, and the one i would be signed up to --- if anyone were to offer to sign me up). you have to be asked to join i believe --- so it means that they like your work enough.

well as long as i can make a living out of it. and could do it every day or rather maybe four/five films a year or so - i like film for the very reason that it is more a 2/3 month project work then a break - than every day routine --- that'd suit me fine.

cj
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[QUOTE=Brookelea]congratulations then - you must be very talented!!!

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Oooooh, she is!!!

well no, i think there was a misapprehension there. when i wrote christine jones, asc ---- that was more in terms of drum roll.... my future! i am not an asc or bsc member yet. but thanks for the vote of confidence, guys!

luv ya both