Don’t Look

I would love to be lite hearted and playful like others here on the forum...BUT I'm so pessimistic.

Soooo many times I start to post and then I delete it because I'm afraid I will say something wrong, or be misunderstood, and / or misunderstand.

Ltc1- it's o.k.  go ahead and cry. it's a good healthy release.

the 'bad news just keeps on coming' is kind of where i'm at too. it sucks. i cry a lot too.

but what i also do is keep telling myself all things are temporary. add'ers know this just from trying to keep track of our own brains. the only thing permanent in my mind is change!

here, you are amongst people who know you like noone else can!

here, you are connected to people that know first-hand the things you think and feel.

don't worry about your posts. nobody is required to read them, or like them, or agree with them.

in the unlikely event you do offend someone, you will hear about it, or more than likely, not.

this the absolute best place to open up. we don't know anything about you except for what you tell us.

any posts critical of you- which i can't really imagine, you don't have to read or even take seriously.

besides, those things you want to share are eating you up. they lose power over you when you let them out in the open.

I 'm not sure where to start....

My boy friend an I are having problems...

I don't have any $...

I don't have a job...I applied for SSI...and just found out I was denied...

I'm stopping smoking...I only have 1 cig. left...

I'm ADHD, Major Depression, Anxiety, DPD/ OCD features

Unmedicated...

hugs to you and i hope things get better for you soon.  if ever you need to vent or need advice this is definately the place to go to.....i am going through the similar situation only i am married.  i can relate.  you will make it....you soon will see a light at the end of the tunnel that is dark right now.  anyway that is what i am told. 

dont give up we are all here for you

[QUOTE=chjones]hey LTC--- we luv ya here honey.... Thank you, I need luv.

can i just ask some boring questions --- Yes.

why are you unmedicated?  Caching Caching   $$$

what is SSI? Social Security Income...for people with disabilities that keep them from being able to work.

hey it's a good thing if you're stopping smoking to only have one cig left, right   Stopping is not easy...But, I can DO IT!

and where are you living right now  With my boy friend.

and ya know --- the past doesn't necessarily dictate the future right?  j k rowling was a broke, unmarried, jobless single mother when she felt her only hope was to try to write and sell a children's book idea that she had had for ages.... Harry Potter ring any bells with you???

you've got billions of things to offer this world you just aren't letting them out yet.  GET OUT, GET OUT, PLEASE GET OUT!!!

and the world would like to see them.  so we'll make them come out, together --- with this board and a small band of addled add-ers contra mundum.  solidarity and support for add-ers!    THANK YOU!!!
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Thank You All for the support 

<<<Hugs everyone>>

I hope things will be better for you tomorrow LTC1.

~cYNDI~

You just post anything you feel the need to post. If anyone here has a problem with that, they can just not read them.

Have you tried to get medicaid? If you have no money, you should be eligible. Its worth a tr,y and then you can get counseling and an antidepressant and whatever else you need.

There is always hope. That is what keeps us all going!

Most of us post that we don't know how we can go on at some point. The ones who don't post probablyl feel that way and have someone to support them at home.

Hang in there honey!

You just post anything you feel the need to post. If anyone here has a problem with that, they can just not read them.

Have you tried to get medicaid? If you have no money, you should be eligible. Its worth a tr,y and then you can get counseling and an antidepressant and whatever else you need.

There is always hope. That is what keeps us all going!

Most of us post that we don't know how we can go on at some point. The ones who don't post probablyl feel that way and have someone to support them at home.

Hang in there honey!

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LTC  barb is right you need to go to your local departent of social/human ervices and apply for medicaid and food stamps, they should also have  program to help you locate a job and if you have kids they will help with daycare til you get on your feet.  my family of 5 is on medicare and we wouldnt be on our meds without it.  take the help it is out there for people who need it like you and most of us here.  dont be ashamed for asking for help, i was at first but am glad i did it. 

we do all love you and please continue to post.  if people dont like what you post then screw them.  you are a great person and i admire you for asking for help.

lots of hugs and prayers for you from the B club

Thank you all, for your concern...sometimes, I feel so alone and misunderstood.

Like most of us I sit and think, until there is no time left to think.  Then I jump into action.

Yesterday morning I thought.... I might volunteer, or try to get a job...I have been fired or laid off from most positions.

I went on line to the area schools and found their was  a job opening at a school just down the street.  The job is Special Education Asst.  I have been thinking I would like to work with children with special needs, Or with elderly people.

I Printed off the application and have filled out over half of it!

This morning I called the school to see if I could volunteer for the position , so I could see if it was a good fit.  Wish me luck!!!

[QUOTE=Brookelea]ltc1 - half my comments don't make sense either.. the other half ppl disregard 

it doesn't stop me from posting.. its therapeutic

and honestly, most of us have gone through depressive periods and felt that there is no way out..
but eventually we climb our way back..

as brig correctly stated - you are not alone..
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There are things we all do and say that only express who we are and how we feel at a moment, Brookelea, Brig and Barb have put it better than i could.

It is a good way, unloading, comparing, sharing, it has helped this oldie through some Really Dark and Lonely times. I am alive and still kicking it because of unloading, comparing and sharing... Therapeutic.. that's the name.. the idea that has led me out of the Dark Place and now i see the sun more often Rise.

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thank you for the compliment.....you are too kind and a great person ya no

LTC1

Just some suggestions:

It is well known that most people do not get on SSI the first try - my niece (has MS) was flat out told by the SSI people that she should get a lawyer, otherwise she will keep getting denied. Stupid -a resounding YES, but true.  My niece did get a lawyer and did get SSI.

1. My first question is, are you really so disabled you can't find a job?

2. If you could get "some" sort of job, any job, then maybe you could afford to get the meds you need which hopefully will allow you to function better and enable you to get a better job that may offer medical insurance.

If you know for a fact you cannot work with meds or without meds then you need to get that lawyer. Period.  Start callling lawyers today and don't get discouraged.

Only you know your situation and what you are capable of at the moment.  The key here is to decide one step you are going to take to help your situation.  And do it no matter what! If it is as simple as making 3 phone calls per day to a lawyer then that is fine or putting in 1 application a day.  The key is to do one thing and then you will feel better...not so hopeless.  Please try it.

[QUOTE=Brookelea]ltc1 - half my comments don't make sense either.. the other half ppl disregard 

it doesn't stop me from posting.. its therapeutic

and honestly, most of us have gone through depressive periods and felt that there is no way out..
but eventually we climb our way back..

as brig correctly stated - you are not alone..
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There are things we all do and say that only express who we are and how we feel at a moment, Brookelea, Brig and Barb have put it better than i could.

It is a good way, unloading, comparing, sharing, it has helped this oldie through some Really Dark and Lonely times. I am alive and still kicking it because of unloading, comparing and sharing... Therapeutic.. that's the name.. the idea that has led me out of the Dark Place and now i see the sun more often Rise.

Look on the bright side. You could have all this going on AND be in New Orleans!

Maybe try focusing on doing something for those folks and see how fast a lot of your own woes simply melt away. It's odd, but often--maybe even usually--it seems to work that way. The best way into yourself is getting outside yourself.

Who said God didn't have a sense of humor!

The job at the school has been filled... They would love to have me volunteer in the library, art, or lunch room.

brig

I have applied with seniors and disabled services...I get food stamps...but, they are still investigating my disabilities...to see if I qualify for medical...

My 13 yr old son lives with his Dad.  (per his choice).

CHJONES

I didn't make myself understood...I should have said zero $$$ caching.

I want to try adderall xr.  So many posters here seem to have good results.

I'm 46 years old.  I want to enjoy life.  I have been treated, for the most part of 20 yr for depression. 

I want to stop . 

I want to have .

Thanks,

I have turned off the

I want to try adderall xr.  So many posters here seem to have good results.

I'm 46 years old.  I want to enjoy life.  I have been treated, for the most part of 20 yr for depression. 

I want to stop . 

SSI was denied because, they feel, although I can't physically do some jobs; with my education there are jobs I should be able to perform.

From what I understand it is normal to get denied, and it takes the help of an attorney to get SSI.  It will probably take another year.

I do wonder if I had the proper meds, if I could hold a job...