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I'm STILL drowning in My TEARS

why, what happened???

I 'm not sure where to start....

My boy friend an I are having problems...

I don't have any $...

I don't have a job...I applied for SSI...and just found out I was denied...

I'm stopping smoking...I only have 1 cig. left...

I'm ADHD, Major Depression, Anxiety, DPD/ OCD features

Unmedicated...

hugs to you and i hope things get better for you soon. if ever you need to vent or need advice this is definately the place to go to.....i am going through the similar situation only i am married. i can relate. you will make it....you soon will see a light at the end of the tunnel that is dark right now. anyway that is what i am told.

dont give up we are all here for you

I would love to be lite hearted and playful like others here on the forum...BUT I'm so pessimistic.

Soooo many times I start to post and then I delete it because I'm afraid I will say something wrong, or be misunderstood, and / or misunderstand.

Ltc1- it's o.k. go ahead and cry. it's a good healthy release.

the 'bad news just keeps on coming' is kind of where i'm at too. it sucks. i cry a lot too.

but what i also do is keep telling myself all things are temporary. add'ers know this just from trying to keep track of our own brains. the only thing permanent in my mind is change!

here, you are amongst people who know you like noone else can!

here, you are connected to people that know first-hand the things you think and feel.

hey LTC--- we luv ya here honey....

can i just ask some boring questions ---

why are you unmedicated?

what is SSI

hey it's a good thing if you're stopping smoking to only have one cig left, right

and where are you living right now

and ya know --- the past doesn't necessarily dictate the future right? j k rowling was a broke, unmarried, jobless single mother when she felt her only hope was to try to write and sell a children's book idea that she had had for ages.... Harry Potter ring any bells with you???

you've got billions of things to offer this world you just aren't letting them out yet.

and the world would like to see them. so we'll make them come out, together --- with this board and a small band of addled add-ers contra mundum. solidarity and support for add-ers!

and and and --- misunderstood?????? have you read any of davidornado's posts honey...... that's the one time most brilliant thing about this board. YOU CAN SAY WHAT YOU WANT --- cos we are all add-ers and even if we don't understand we don't judge!!!!

let it all out. say what you want. be as offensive as you want. be as right-wing/left-wing/miserable/happy/insane/staid/normal /backward/politicallyincorrect or correct as you feel.....

its ok here! that's the whole point of having an add-er board. cos we are all misunderstood and everyone is always taking offence at us when we meant none and so here we can say what we want --- and boy, don't we say it. and then apologise

and if worst comes to worst - just do what i do and blame it on the ADD... (really it wasn't me speaking it was this evil add inside of me, just slipped out there for a minute)

don't worry about your posts. nobody is required to read them, or like them, or agree with them.

in the unlikely event you do offend someone, you will hear about it, or more than likely, not.

this the absolute best place to open up. we don't know anything about you except for what you tell us.

any posts critical of you- which i can't really imagine, you don't have to read or even take seriously.

besides, those things you want to share are eating you up. they lose power over you when you let them out in the open.

ltc1 - half my comments don't make sense either.. the other half ppl disregard

it doesn't stop me from posting.. its therapeutic

and honestly, most of us have gone through depressive periods and felt that there is no way out..
but eventually we climb our way back..

as brig correctly stated - you are not alone..

[QUOTE=chjones]hey LTC--- we luv ya here honey.... Thank you, I need luv.

can i just ask some boring questions --- Yes.

why are you unmedicated? Caching Caching $$$

what is SSI? Social Security Income...for people with disabilities that keep them from being able to work.

hey it's a good thing if you're stopping smoking to only have one cig left, right Stopping is not easy...But, I can DO IT!

and where are you living right now With my boy friend.

and ya know --- the past doesn't necessarily dictate the future right? j k rowling was a broke, unmarried, jobless single mother when she felt her only hope was to try to write and sell a children's book idea that she had had for ages.... Harry Potter ring any bells with you???

you've got billions of things to offer this world you just aren't letting them out yet. GET OUT, GET OUT, PLEASE GET OUT!!!

and the world would like to see them. so we'll make them come out, together --- with this board and a small band of addled add-ers contra mundum. solidarity and support for add-ers! THANK YOU!!!
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Thank You All for the support

LTC138623.8661111111

<<<Hugs everyone>>

I hope things will be better for you tomorrow LTC1.

~cYNDI~

You just post anything you feel the need to post. If anyone here has a problem with that, they can just not read them.

Have you tried to get medicaid? If you have no money, you should be eligible. Its worth a tr,y and then you can get counseling and an antidepressant and whatever else you need.

There is always hope. That is what keeps us all going!

Most of us post that we don't know how we can go on at some point. The ones who don't post probablyl feel that way and have someone to support them at home.

Hang in there honey!

[QUOTE=barb]

You just post anything you feel the need to post. If anyone here has a problem with that, they can just not read them.

Have you tried to get medicaid? If you have no money, you should be eligible. Its worth a tr,y and then you can get counseling and an antidepressant and whatever else you need.

There is always hope. That is what keeps us all going!

Most of us post that we don't know how we can go on at some point. The ones who don't post probablyl feel that way and have someone to support them at home.

Hang in there honey!

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LTC barb is right you need to go to your local departent of social/human ervices and apply for medicaid and food stamps, they should also have program to help you locate a job and if you have kids they will help with daycare til you get on your feet. my family of 5 is on medicare and we wouldnt be on our meds without it. take the help it is out there for people who need it like you and most of us here. dont be ashamed for asking for help, i was at first but am glad i did it.

we do all love you and please continue to post. if people dont like what you post then screw them. you are a great person and i admire you for asking for help.

lots of hugs and prayers for you from the B club

[QUOTE=Brookelea]ltc1 - half my comments don't make sense either.. the other half ppl disregard

it doesn't stop me from posting.. its therapeutic

and honestly, most of us have gone through depressive periods and felt that there is no way out..
but eventually we climb our way back..

as brig correctly stated - you are not alone..
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There are things we all do and say that only express who we are and how we feel at a moment, Brookelea, Brig and Barb have put it better than i could.

It is a good way, unloading, comparing, sharing, it has helped this oldie through some Really Dark and Lonely times. I am alive and still kicking it because of unloading, comparing and sharing... Therapeutic.. that's the name.. the idea that has led me out of the Dark Place and now i see the sun more often Rise.

LTC1

Just some suggestions:

It is well known that most people do not get on SSI the first try - my niece (has MS) was flat out told by the SSI people that she should get a lawyer, otherwise she will keep getting denied. Stupid -a resounding YES, but true. My niece did get a lawyer and did get SSI.

1. My first question is, are you really so disabled you can't find a job?

2. If you could get "some" sort of job, any job, then maybe you could afford to get the meds you need which hopefully will allow you to function better and enable you to get a better job that may offer medical insurance.

If you know for a fact you cannot work with meds or without meds then you need to get that lawyer. Period. Start callling lawyers today and don't get discouraged.

Only you know your situation and what you are capable of at the moment. The key here is to decide one step you are going to take to help your situation. And do it no matter what! If it is as simple as making 3 phone calls per day to a lawyer then that is fine or putting in 1 application a day. The key is to do one thing and then you will feel better...not so hopeless. Please try it.

Thank you all, for your concern...sometimes, I feel so alone and misunderstood.

Like most of us I sit and think, until there is no time left to think. Then I jump into action.

Yesterday morning I thought.... I might volunteer, or try to get a job...I have been fired or laid off from most positions.

I went on line to the area schools and found their was a job opening at a school just down the street. The job is Special Education Asst. I have been thinking I would like to work with children with special needs, Or with elderly people.

I Printed off the application and have filled out over half of it!

This morning I called the school to see if I could volunteer for the position , so I could see if it was a good fit. Wish me luck!!!

[QUOTE=ryan1950]

There are things we all do and say that only express who we are and how we feel at a moment, Brookelea, Brig and Barb have put it better than i could.

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thank you for the compliment.....you are too kind and a great person ya no

The job at the school has been filled... They would love to have me volunteer in the library, art, or lunch room.

brig

I have applied with seniors and disabled services...I get food stamps...but, they are still investigating my disabilities...to see if I qualify for medical...

My 13 yr old son lives with his Dad. (per his choice).

Why were you denied?SSi is social security/ disability which is very hard to get.It takes a act of God to get it. Are you living with him?This could effect your outcome cause income of the home matters.

I want to try adderall xr. So many posters here seem to have good results.

I'm 46 years old. I want to enjoy life. I have been treated, for the most part of 20 yr for depression.

I want to stop .

I want to have .

hey LTC

outta interest is there any medication here that you think might suit you better --- having looked through the posts?

my doctor wanted to put me on Ritalin but strangely enough i am strongly resistant to the idea. i feel much more drawn to Adderall. isn't that weird (having taken neither i just 'feel' adderall will work so much better for me)! and i just wondered whether you felt you might be suited to one type of medication over the other?

sorry your GP is being such a pain in the a**.

keep smiling

good for you LTC. i am so impressed you managed to get out there and
talk with the school re. volunteering... yay! three cheers for you, LTC i
hope you gave yourself a treat for being so great.

on a more boring note, i would say is that your original reason (not on
medication re.
needing to cache $$$) is flawed in my opinion. if you have the cash then
get the meds or you will still be in a similar position five years down the
line....
it is an INVESTMENT in yourself, a chance to move on and make
some positive changes, which you obviously want to do but as many
people on this board have stated it is incredibly difficult/verging on
impossible without the medication. really (i know this sounds funny as i
myself am not on meds and am having second thoughts about taking
them --- but that is my own madness and irrelevent) consider getting the
meds.

once you are on the meds --- you may well be in a position to start
earning and not be fired and the whole thing will pay itself off both
monetarily and also in a whole variety of other positive ways i am sure of
it.

it is just my opinion but i hope you go out tomorrow and get as much
adderall as you can afford, swallow it down the moment you get the
chance - to help you make the difference.
good for you, LTC. we are all here with you --- cheering you on.
sometimes we all need as much help as we can get - whether it be from
these boards or from medication overcoming the 'slough of despond' and
we all have so much to offer.

as add-ers, we just have a little more to overcome in order to be able to
do so - and if the meds make it possible - then don't lose that for the
sake of some money in the bank... if you have the cash, invest it in that.
investing in oneself is the best thing that anyone can do with their money
--- there is NO better way to spend it. it means you can help yourself
first, then others later. if YOU can function, then money will no longer be
an issue for you anyway. just my two cents honey. (kindly donated to the
LTC adderall fund!?!)

hey and don't panic if you fell back a bit today --- i know that can
happen with me. a day of great energy followed by a complete glut. the
important thing is you DID it. write again. i wish you luck with medicaid/
SSI and all the rest!

chjones38625.0576157407

Look on the bright side. You could have all this going on AND be in New Orleans!

Maybe try focusing on doing something for those folks and see how fast a lot of your own woes simply melt away. It's odd, but often--maybe even usually--it seems to work that way. The best way into yourself is getting outside yourself.

Who said God didn't have a sense of humor!

CHJONES

I didn't make myself understood...I should have said zero $$$ caching.

My GP put me on stratterra; I took it for 6 mo. It didn't help. GP won't put me on Other drugs because I would need closer supervision.

Thanks,

I have turned off the

hello LTC

I want to try adderall xr. So many posters here seem to have good results.

I'm 46 years old. I want to enjoy life. I have been treated, for the most part of 20 yr for depression.

I want to stop .

I want to have

You Go Girl....! Don't let your doctor put you off. Bug him. Phone him up five times a day and say you REALLY want to try these. Insist if you can - otherwise find a shrink who will diagnose you and put you on the meds. (in england adderall and ritalin can't be prescribed by doctors you have to go to a shrink anyway and adderall is not available in UK despite being produced there! --- look up and see if you can't find an Amen clinic or similar. if you can't find somewhere for free ask for help from your boyfriend/family if possible - why not? it is worth it. a few obstacles that need a little perseverance to overcome... but that is why we are here to bug you, right?!?).

i have a real feeling LTC that you would be turned around by adderall. i don't know why - but i do.

so try and find a way. insist your gp refer you to a psych. find out about any ADHD shrinks in your area. someone WILL prescribe it for you.

:-)

and re. the job. just look at Glen W and loads of other success stories here. Brooklea is getting her phd (and working at the same time i think). shakespeare is doing some kinda amazing degree in psychiatry and Fallen started up some kinda IT problem-solving company for which he is paid billions by the second etc. etc. and so on and so forth. (most of them i bet after having wandered in a daze from sacking to job to sacking yet again).

forget the job --- you'd likely be able to get a career. huh? being able to focus on what you want to do, be that working with special needs kids or looking after the elderly etc. etc.

it clears away all the barriers - all the fog - all the confusion. gives you energy, clarity, focus. as everyone says it is like putting on glasses for the first time, it opens up a whole new aspect of their brain you see the world in a whole new light. (ok the radical effects might not last forever, but initially it gives a whole chance for a new beginning --- so make sure that you have a good psych who can give you counselling as well as meds to really help you turn everything around).

and let me know if it works --- hahaha then you can try and persuade me (no chance!).

look after yourself now!

SSI was denied because, they feel, although I can't physically do some jobs; with my education there are jobs I should be able to perform.

From what I understand it is normal to get denied, and it takes the help of an attorney to get SSI. It will probably take another year.

I do wonder if I had the proper meds, if I could hold a job...

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