Bored With Life
Im so bored with life & having ADHD. Im 18 next week & so fed up with everything Im stuck in a relationship with my boyfriend who dont really care for me is the impression I get & there is a 27yr old painter that I like but he lives in Bedfordshire Im in Hertfordshire UK. I can't tell if his messing me about or not as I seem to be the 1 chasing him 24/7 & it should be the guy who chases the women.
Having ADHD does not help matters as its bad enough my feelings are all over the place & having ADHD just makes me more angry when I can't get my own way
but, I was lonely, and I didn't want to be. It led to me doing things that I really had no desire (on my own) to do, just to keep this guy passified, so that he would want to be around me, and I didn't have to be alone. 
The truth is that neither of us really cared that much about the other. It is like DR Phil says, what's the pay off in this thing. 
I didn't have to be alone, and he didn't either, but neither of us were finding what we were really looking for. 
I would say that you first need to decide what it is that is truly important to you, and then set your affection toward that, not some guy who will leave you empty hearted and still searching.
Having successfully messed up a large portion of my young life - I dont know what advice I could offer. All I can say is dont let your heart rule your head as the heart is a treacherous thing - and when you are an impulsive type - whoooosh. In hindsight, what I think I lacked was the inability to love and forgive myself and do what was right for me - I felt hyperdriven towards finding the approval of a man because I felt nobody including myself approved of me. I suppose one very good advice is always use condoms, and dont give any man any money - apart from that when I was 18 I never listened to much more. - Good Luck - remember you have a long life ahead to regret what you do now so listen to your mother. 
I wish someone had gotten that through to me when I was younger.
Oh well, live and learn.
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