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yup i hear you loud and clear..
do i thrive off stimulation of screwing up?
ha yes you took a part of my quote from a post yesterday, where I was discussing a self-destructive trait I seem to possess, and I was wondering if other ADD'ers had the trait. I was discussing this odd fear I have of success, and I am an excellent self-sabatoger. It could come from my relationship as a child with my father, or add could be driving it. I was also discussing how I can be excellent at the first 99% of any project, but I am absolutely awful at that last 1%, even if that last 1% will only require a few minutes of my time.
have spoken to others who share this trait, and I wonder if it is related to add, or if it is sourced from someplace else like how I was raised. Any thoughts fellow ADD'ers?While I oftentimes pull out amazing things when my back is against the wall, I wouldn't say that I look for the thrill of procrastination on purpose. For some reason, my brain doesn't even engage until it's almost zero hour.
Yes, thats me. Why is it so hard to get started on stuff and then when you finally do, your rush like mad and then there's not enough time to finish? I do it pretty much daily.
Oh yeah, I need to block out and schedule my time daily on a calendar, I forgot.
wisdom1,
I completely understand where your coming from. I don't remember things unless I make a conscious effort or unless something makes a big impact on me. If I try, and review things, like for a test I can do very well (as long as it's not too much)
Also, whenever someone askes me things that they think I should know or care to know, they seem suprised that I don't know. I don't just automatically remember things like it appears the "normals" do. I remember what I want to remember.
my memory has always sucked, but I could always memorize for an exam. As I read these postings on this site it appears to me that poor memory is a common theme with ADD'ers. I can remember if I try, but many times things just dont stick unless I make them. I could probably get used to making a conscious effort to get everything to stick, but I think my hair would turn gray.
what i think is strange,is that i frequently can't remember something when asked about it.
i can remember all sorts of trivia, or facts not relevant to here and now. but ask me something i should know, and probably do, and i have difficulty retrieving it. that is, until i'm trying to remember something else.
i frequently get stuck not being able to remember a word i want to use that has very specific meaning. i know the word. it's on the tip of my tongue. it was right there in my mind, i saw it as i was putting together this sentence. but now it's gone.
Seeker,
That happens to me a lot too. Not being able to find the word I want to use or some information that I know. I know I know it but it's like I have to search in a file in my brain for it.
It happens most often if I feel presured, but not always.
I read something about this problem several years ago. I think it was in the book,"Driven To Distraction". I lent my copy out, and you know how that goes. I'll try to get a hold of another copy.
I really want to refresh my memory on this. I can't remember right at this moment (speak of the devil) 
, what the author said was the cause of it.
exactly