effed up again!!!!! | ADHD Information

i hate myself --- i can't believe i did this again. i had a meeting on the 19th November and just completely forgot it. how can i do this again and again. argggh! i hate myself.

i need people to phone the NIGHT before or i just won't remember. i just don't remember. i effing well hate myself right now. they postponed the meeting so i would be back from the states --- just for me, everyone had to re-arraange their schedules and then i don't turn up. i have another on 28th (this one i won't forget) and will have to face them all having effed up. i am SO USELESS. i am SO IRRESPONSIBLE. i can't be trusted. i am not responsible. i don't deserve these positions that i am given. i am useless.

i can't believe i did that. and yet, is it any surprise? how can i be surprised? because i always do it. so no surprise. i deserve to be exactly where i am in life because i am useless and therefore i should suffer the consequences of being useless, irresponsible, untrustworthy --- why anybody would consider employing me.

my ADD is fine when i have nothing vital or responsible to do. maybe i should resign? i don't want to resign - it is a trustee position (ha! how ironic is that) i am a director and i am useless... i should not have this position. i give up and give in i am not capable. urrgh! i love this charity though - it helps refugees and it is such an honest and proactively working to change things for the better and help people. i hate myself.

anyway enough venting. all well in France. now have to rush back to London so don't miss second meeting - therefore letting down people here. stupid. stupid. stupid.

ADD sucks bigtime sometimes. i should bang my head into a wall fifty times over. stupid. stupid. stupid.

hey Heidi Marie --- sorry to read about your mitral heart valve (was it??) i hope they can sort it for you.... let us know more. big kiss.

I'm sorry. I understand the beating yourself up. Try to be gentle with yourself. You are not a big F-up. You don't get where you are by being a huge f-up.

Pick yourself up. Find a pen, one that won't wash off very easy and write on the back of your hand (not your palm) 'Meeting 11/28'. And be careful not to wash the back of that hand too much.

It's a coping thing that I've done all my life. People will see me making notes to myself on my hand and they try to hand me a piece of paper. I tell them no thnaks I'll lose the paper, I can't lose my hand. I've made grocery lists, to do lists, important dates. It's a wonder I don't have some sort of disease from all the ink that I've probably absorbed through my skin.

CJ - MY MY! Don't be so harsh with yourself! Know how you feel tho. I was nominated to serve on a 2 year committee, this is my 2nd year of being on that committee and I've yet to make a meeting. Recently, I have purchased a SideKick phone. It does everything but make love. It reminds me of meetings, parties, when to take my medicine etc. Helps a lot keeping me "together". Don't beat yourself up! Ok CJ you have thougherly beat yourself up. Now it is time to move
forward. Maybe you could hire yourself a None ADHD assistant....

chjones

reading your post i grew a little dissapointed in you, or should i say for you.

those feelings really suck & when you suspect your peers think your a clown

that stinks too. you dont medicate or took a long break from meds right?

well i know how crappy you must feel.

well im sure u know about calendars and all that crap, only help when you use them or can find them.

this unit has kept me from missin appointments for about a year straight

Organize your entire world. With Calendar, Contacts, Tasks, Memos and more, the Treo 650 smartphone lets you organize and simplify your business and personal life – all in one place. You can synchronize your calendar and contacts with your computer, so everything’s always up to date. Plus, if you already have a Palm Powered™ handheld or smartphone, you can transfer your information with the touch of a button. Best of all, you can expand the functions of your Treo smartphone by adding any of the thousands of applications available for Palm Powered™ devices.

a little kid could operate it & you CANT LOOSE it like a normal PDA

b/cuz you call call it!

well itas helped me as much as meds i call it my 1 - 2 punch

tell santa about it!