my tendency to keep all that 'stuff' with me, and go over it is probably got a lot to do w/ my depression.
i wish i could be the oblivious kind, and just keep on rollin' right through it all.
sometimes i'm really grateful and happy about my introspective nature.
i also spend a lot of time being resentful of it, as i see lots of negatives when i look around inside my life!
can the adhd be happy, and introspective?
I never realize when i've said something stupid. Friends have to tell me that "That was not so good to say" before I see it. And then I regret it, very much and for a very long time :-( Or sometimes it's so stupid I can acctually laugh at it :-)I just responded to something like this and it got me wondering.
Things in your life that were emotionally painful and things that you did that you are ashamed of, do or have they haunted you?
I'm much better at shooing them way now, but they used to haunt me so badly that I would feel like I was in that situation again. The hurt was so real. Or i'd feel very very ashamed and like I was a horrible person.
These thoughts would pop in my mind out of nowhere and at random.
Now I do have OCD and I've been told that is why it happens, but after reading a post similiar to my situation, I started wondering, could this be part of ADHD?
Everytime I blurted out something inappropriate in a group I would relive it and feel ashamed of myself. I often relive those times when I "open mouth insert foot." and the feeling is so oppressive.
I am also much better at shooing them away.. Thank goodness! it really is tough to live that way.. I wonder if some of this stuff is what actually causes some of our comorbid anxiety or depression than sometimes accompanies ADD.
Sherry
[QUOTE=kibbles002]I wonder if some of this stuff is what actually causes some of our comorbid anxiety or depression than sometimes accompanies ADD.
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I think that's a very good observation. I agree with that 100%
[QUOTE=Goober787]I just responded to something like this and it got me wondering.
Things in your life that were emotionally painful and things that you did that you are ashamed of, do or have they haunted you?
I'm much better at shooing them way now, but they used to haunt me so badly that I would feel like I was in that situation again. The hurt was so real. Or i'd feel very very ashamed and like I was a horrible person.
These thoughts would pop in my mind out of nowhere and at random.
Now I do have OCD and I've been told that is why it happens, but after reading a post similiar to my situation, I started wondering, could this be part of ADHD?
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Yeah, I still feel bad about things I did 12 years ago! It will just hit me sometimes, especially laying in bed at night. Or I will go over and over a conversation in my mind and realize with horror some stupid or weird thing I said and didn't mean to say, and obsessively try to use mental telepathy to let the other person know that I am not mean or weird so I don't actually have to TALK about it. Maybe I am a little weird ....