I want a normal day so badly. Let me describe yesterday:
Wake up LATE
Can't decide what to wear - TOO MANY THOUGHTS
Get distracted by TV, music, anything but getting ready
Run out of door - realise forgotten travel pass
Run back
End up catching late train
Get to work LATE
Stutter as I try to explain why I am late to boss
Feel anxious
Accidentally knock over a glass of drink on my desk
Forget to make a call-a drink-send email etc...
Get distracted on lunch and forget to buy snack
Leave work in a mood
Get home don't sit down
Talk, talk,talk, dance to music, shower CANT RELAX
Boyfriend comes round I cook BURN MYSELF ON OVEN
Watch TV, flicking channels every fifteen mins BORED
GO TO BED AND HOPE FOR A BETTER DAY!! I can guarantee tomorrow will be similar...
ANYONE RELATE TO THAT????
yeah that sucksannidagostini,
I've seen you mention the book stopping ADHD a few times. I'll ask Santa for it
I think you're right about the Adderall wearing off. I know my dose is low (20mg XR or 10 regular) but that amount has always been good for me. It seems like now it doesn't help me much at all. I wonder if it's normal to have to up your dose after a while?
Sounds like the meds aren't working for you. Might want to check with your dr. on this. I don't.
What I mean is, even taking meds. I always find a way to do something...ADHDish.
Like today after I pushed two stuck together grocery carts without noticing, I went to the YMCA and on the way I took out my I.D. card so I would have it ready when I got there. But when I got there I couldn't find it. I was just sitting in my car the whole time. I searched everywhere in my car, in my purse, in my jacket pocket.. it was gone.
Also while I was searching I found an envelope underneath the side of my seat. It was the water bill with a check in it that I meant to drop off two months ago. (I new I paid that..or almost paid it.
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Anyway, see what I mean? Does anybody ever get through just one day without an ADHD glitch?
I didn't used to - except on Adderal -
I used to to the same things - I would have days like that all the time, forgetting things, losing things, misplacing items, crying because it was so silly of me. And I'm a smart person!! I could get A's in school easily, but I couldn't run a business on my own!! How infuriating!! Then I found out I had ADD. Then I took Adderal and my world changed. Then Adderal wore off for me - my piles of papers started to grow again!!! Then I found a book that has changed everything for me.
Now I go through the days and I have a couple of ADDish things happening in a week, instead of daily and all the time.
Try the book Stopping ADHD. It has really worked for me.
I am beginning to think that there is not a chance of me ever having a day that the rest of the world calls normal, even with meds. Maybe I should take a shortcut and just fill the bathtub up and drown. Probably would mess that up also.[QUOTE=sassee]Jim,
I say screw normal. Normal people who have normal days are just as messed up as we are but just in some other way that may not be as obvious. Stay out of the bathtub will ya? For all the crap that happens each day, something beautiful or funny happens too, and you don't wanna miss out on that.
Sassee
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Yeah! Go Sassee
I belive you are right!! Who says that a normal day has to be an organized one.
Awe, Jim...
Thanks David
Just a few choice words spoken (typed) from a caring heart makes all the difference in the world.
For me?!?
awmcgillicutty38703.6868518519
Jim,
I say screw normal. Normal people who have normal days are just as messed up as we are but just in some other way that may not be as obvious. Stay out of the bathtub will ya? For all the crap that happens each day, something beautiful or funny happens too, and you don't wanna miss out on that.
Sassee
You are welcome, Jim.
Here, I'll loan you my specs...
I want a normal day so badly.
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Yes, get the book and crawl crawl crawl!!!
Here was my day without the book
Get up and shut the alarm off. Get up later than I should. Find some clothes in my laundry (dirty because I forgot to wash them the night before) rush through breakfast, rush to get my child ready - in his dirty shirt because I forgot to wash his clothes too - make my lunch - hurry to the car and realize that I am ten minutes later than I thought it was. Get to school - look at my desk which is piled high with papers I was supposed to correct and file, or sort through and file, but they are all mixed up. Get work ready for the class. Begin class - forget to take roll, teach language arts, get disappointed because I forgot to type up the kids reader's theaters that I promised them a couple of weeks ago. The kids remind me to check off their homework - we check off homework. - I assign new homework - help the kids that need help - teach math - get words mized up and problems mixed up on the board. - luch time comes - realize that I left my lunch on the counter at home. think about science the next period - realize that I haven't even planned a thing for it - decide to read the next chapter - etc. etc. etc.
Here is what life is like since I've been crawling.
Get up a few minutes after the alarm goes off. Find my clean clothes that I washed this weekend and even sometimes remember to hang up IN MY CLOSET!!! CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT! Get my child ready for school in his clean clothes that I remembered to wash the night before. (amazing) Divide my time up in my mind so that I know I have 15 minute for clothes, 15 minutes for breakfast and packing lunches - 15 minutes for contacts, make up and hair. Ok I have NEVER done that before - even on Adderal. I get to school on time or five to ten minutes early!!!! NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE EVER - get to my desk and organize my day. Get things ready for the entire day. Make copies at the office for the whole week IN ADVANCE that has never happened before either - I have just never thought about it before. Teach my classes with confidence - I don't lose papers anymore - I have all the copies the kids need for their every day edits all filed in a file right by my desk with the answer key on top!!!!!!! NEVER HAS THIS HAPPENED BEFORE.
I could go on, but I think I would bore you.
I can't believe the changes I have having since crawling.
annidagostini38702.0001851852[QUOTE=awmcgillicutty]I know normal (as defined by the non-ADHD world) in unattainable, but I would just like to have a day that I can look back on and say, "Hmmm, I did real good that day!" Or at least remember if I EVER had such a day.[/QUOTE]
That's exactly what I mean..EVER.. The Adderall helps me but I still seam to run out of time and just say or do at least one goofy thing a day..Oh well, it could be worse.. We could be boringly normal.
I consider myself "normal" in that I no longer make the BIG goofs - only small ones. Everyone goofs up - just not to the extent I used to. Now the brakes go on BEFORE I hit something!!
I would never go back to being the way I was - and all I ever hope for is that all of you find the peace in living that I have.
Except for the trolls - I wish them eternity of bees in their brains as punishment. Lots of bees. Nasty stinging bees.
I know normal (as defined by the non-ADHD world) in unattainable, but I would just like to have a day that I can look back on and say, "Hmmm, I did real good that day!" Or at least remember if I EVER had such a day.