Last day of my med vacation

Good luck on your meds again, Glen.  Let us know how the vacation from them worked for you.

Keep us updated Glen - this is interesting. 

I don't know about the light thing - but when I was in therapy we did a lot of work with visualization, and anyway, every time we did it I would feel so happy and clear-headed afterword, and I noticed a very strong reaction to colors and light for several hours - like yellows and greens would almost be glowing.  Everything was brighter and more vivid.  The therapist said it was a common reaction...something happens in the brain...I wish I could remember more of what she said about it.  BTW I was not on any medication at that time.  So maybe there is some sensory thing going on...

coffee??  cheating on vacation

hahahha

coffee is cheating?!? No way!!

I've drunk coffee since I was a young young man.  If you cut my veins Juan Valdez weeps for me.  My sweat smells like dark roast.  Women who kiss me deeply always wonder what the buzz they feel is ... LOL!!

I kept it to a minimum though - just for the taste.  I loves mah coffees!!!!

interesting glenw

i just came off a 10 day med vavay myself, after 5 striaght months on 54 mg concerta..

1. craving desire - non

2. did things start to "pile" up again - absolutely

3. did i see myself slipping into behavior which  

    mademme seek treatment -- absolutely

4. did i promptly pick up refill or put it off till pharms were closed & couldnt fill - yup

5. back on concerta takes im sure ill be back on track 

    by wends (monday now)

get your eyes check, add is a cognitive function...

meds + coffee = clear mind & production

happy new year

ray

Well - I'm back of the vacation (it was a necessarily short one - 4 days).  I feel so much better only 2 hours into my return.  Aaaahhhhh... control returns.

Actually rayray I have my eyes checked thoroughly every 2 years - and it's definitely not in the eyes.  I have described the "fog" of ADHD - the yellow seems to be part of it.  It's like a blurring - my eyes don't focus as well when ADHD hits and I always knew that.  Only with 20 cups of coffee do they clear up and only then for half an hour best.

The light is already clearing up.  The white was certainly a yellow tinted white before - now it's returning to white again.  I waited WAY too long to go off them this time.  But it seems to be back to good old me.

The snap back after abstaining makes quite a difference.  Just this short time my mind is back to sharpness.  By after work I should be better than it's been in months. 

Well there you have it folks.  I felt that since I speak about it all the time it was a good way to show that it both doesn't hurt and can be very effective.  And it kills the whole addiction idea.  Hell if the naysayers wish to come to me and pay their own way - I'd CHALLENGE them by going off the meds and having a physician gauge me for any sign of either physical or psychological dependence.  There isn't any and I"m that confident.  Just message me - we'll tape the whole thing. 

Any takers? LOL!!

Seems fair as I'm always mentioning the "med vacations" - where I go 2 months with meds every day and a week without - that I give a view of what this is like.  So I shall.

I knew I had gone too long without a med vacation this time - over 3 months and the dose of dexedrine has become inadequate.  I have had to move up to 30mg dosages more the last while so come whatever I had to flush my system to allow it time to rest and come back stronger. 

So, this xmas when I found out I had 4 straight days with no work I dropped the dex cold turkey.

The main thing I go through is a physical feeling of being tired and lethargic.  That happens day 2 usually and was right on schedule.  I felt half-asleep and very much in my ADHD fog.  Not a great feeling.  Not many positive thoughts - though thankfully not many negatives either.  Very much a "limbo" - where I feel no highs or lows.

An important point I need to make is there are never any withdrawl symptoms like desire for the meds.  Although I am tired I have no desire to go back to meds until tomorrow - and never feel that way.  So much for addiction.  The only thing I desire is not to feel so much in this fog as it's hard to make the words form the way they do when on my meds.

I'll be chattier most likely after work tomorrow.  Thankfully we start up work later in the morning tomorrow as I always take time to "get into gear" on the first day back on meds. 

Well here it is - the med vacation.  I meant to go through it before but it's hard when on it - but felt it was important to show that it is not so bad.  Just tiring.

Oh - one thing I was going to mention as I was at first thinking it was nothing but now see it.  During this break I find that all the light around me - natural or incandecent - seems "yellow" and dim.  I have trouble seeing clearly and at first thought it an illusion but now I can feel it.  I am wondering if others have light troubles without meds like this? I always thought the fog was internal but now I wonder - can some of it be sensory in nature?

Well I'll talk more when back on meds.