I take 300mg once in the morning of wellbutrin and 10 mg of adderall twice a day.
I was prescribed wellbutrin for depression, I have been on it for about a month now, and have seen no dramatic change in my basic outlook. I do have moments of peace but this is never constant. I all ways return to my pisted off negative outlook.
The adderall is working like it should, just the negative self talk has hijacked my brain so i can't concentrate for sh*t anyway.
suggestions, comments...
kibbles002 thanks for your responce...I do know what has to be implemented. I have to manage my self talk into positive things. but it is soo damn overwhellming, if ya know what i mean?
Right now i'm trying to pin point with my therapist what events might of caused this as a child. (when i was living in my parents house)
I have the medical counselor (M.Ed., LPC) and i go to a ladie (Psychiatric clinical nurse specialist) that can pescribe for all my med needs, and they keep asking me if i'm feeling better and i can never give them a straight answer, and they ask well how do you feel, the whole thing seems to be a variable, it's like a roller coaster. I've dumped a sh*t load of cash into this because i have no insurance....plus this thing can't go any longer than it already has, it is so interfering...schedualing appointments with the counselor or nurse around work, sneeking out of work to make the appointments.
gosh I remember those days
Have you tried fighting the self talk behaviorally as well as medically?
I always felt like there were 2 "me's" inside, the one that would tell me all that negative crap and then the more concious me that would fight it with something else positive. I would get so pissed at myself for thinking negative and then come up with something to argue .
My biggest thing was how ugly I was... I started telling myself that I was "wonderfully and fearfully made" and God don't make ugly. That one was a LLLLOOOOOOONNNNNGGGGGG struggle!
My point is that I really believe the antidepressants can help but you still gotta do the work to get out of the funk. There is also the possiblitly that the welbutrin is not for you, but either way -- don't forget to fight those negative tapes.
BTW, this is all just my opinion.. I have no expertise, OK?
Sherry
[QUOTE=acrouse]kibbles002 thanks for your responce...I do know what has to be implemented. I have to manage my self talk into positive things. but it is soo damn overwhellming, if ya know what i mean?
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I know exactly what you mean. Just know you are not alone on this journey, others have gone through this and have gotten through it. You can too. One step at the time... Good luck!!!
Sherry
wellbutrin -antidepressant- is it SSRI?
Maybe not but if it is then this might be -possibly- why you are stil in the same place on that. http://medicine.plosjournals.org/perlserv/?request=get-docum ent&doi=10.1371/journal.pmed.0020392
kibbles idea of fighting thoughts and the way to do it sound a very good system.