What the hell is wrong with me??? | ADHD Information
Hello, I'm John and I'm 18 years old. I don't know what I have or what is wrong with me, but there's definitely something messed up in my head. Ever since I was in 4th grade, I was the one who got up during class, danced around, and was constantly being told to shutup (which I never did). It's frigging hard even typing this up because I have a VERY hard time explaining itself. I also jump around from hobby, to hobby, to hobby, I just cant stick with things or make a commitment. I've also only had 5 girlfriends in my entire life, which I only spent about 1 week with each. When I went out with them I never called them or anything, which is not because I'm an asshole or anything, but because I always forgot to. I also lose every job I get within about 2 months because I forget what Im doing. I actually did very well in school (straight A's) up untill junior year, when I actually had to study. I started to do drugs recently (everything from pot to cocaine) which gave me severe social anxiety. I have promised myself many times to quit drugs, but again I can't stick with the commitment. I always fear that I wont amount to anything in life, not because I'm depressed, but because I have no motivation to do anything. Whenever I get good at something, I start to do something else and forget the skills I previously had at my last hobby. I want to go on meds, but I'm afraid that I wont be able to explain myself at the doctors office because I have a very hard time explaining myself. Someone, please help me diagnose myself. The only reason I think I might not have ADD is because I got good grades in school, and I hear that ADD kids cant have good grades. Someone please help!!!
P.S. I used to bite my nails (even my toenails, ewww) until my grandpa gave me to stop. But now I bite my cheeks rigorously.
streetsk8er79438207.7302430556Hey John, if you explain to the Dr just like you did in your post, I'm sure he will try to help you. They're paid the big bucks to do the testing
My husband CANNOT sit still either- (he's a leg jiggler) It drives me crazy. I have to leave a list on the fridge for him to do, so he knows what needs done. Or else he starts something.....then he'll see something else that should be done ...and so on.
Good Luck keep us posted
John,
You have severe hyperactivity. I used to do this same dance. Exercise helps and so does certain medications. It's the hardest part of ADHD to deal with (in my opinion), it can make academic success nearly impossible.
Cheekydeeky
Streetsk8er,
Chances are you can get a med which will work for you and be able to quit the others (with willpower).
You got through school so easily because you are very intelligent and apparently have the type of ADHD which is predominately hyper. Only your dr can diagnose it though so you need to go to him.
Keep us posted.
Is it possible that I developed social anxiety from having ADD for all these years? Because in elementary school I was the lead role in a school play and had absolutely no anxiety about that.