embarrassed that i didn’t graduate yet | ADHD Information
well..i'm 23 years old..still at my sophomore to junior year still not sure yet. went to a community college for the past 5 years!! just recently got my associates or 2 years of school in.
i need to get into the teaching program but it requires me to have a 2.75 gpa, but mine is about 2.5 gpa wanted my psychiatrist to give me adderall or something to help wit my focus but she's been putting me on strattera for the past 5 months..i was just recently diagnosed by the way at the university that i'm goin to..and i dont think me and my doctor click too well...i just get this feeling from the 1st time that i meant her that she will never understand me. i kept seeing her and crying to her that my meds arent working each month and she keeps giving me hopes that she will switch me into something new...well..seen her for 5 months and nothing has happen..i decided to switch to a new psychiatrist (the free clinic one) since i don't have insurance any more and i'm withdrawing 4rm the university since i was so close to be placing on academic probation.
my family's bugging me like crazy..asking me when the hell i'm goin to graduate, i feel ashamed VERY ASHAMED...EMBARRASSED AT THE SAME time. damn i just want to go out there and show to people what i can do!!!!
i get bored at everything...i quit EVERYTHING i do...i went through 8 jobs in one year and i'm just talking about THAT YEAR. i went thru 15 jobs in my life time, been a manager before ( i don't know how the hell that happened) jumps school 2 school, like i jump men to men.
no nice guys can stand my ass since i talk so much sh*t...wonder if i will ever find a good man sometimes..the only people that can take my crap is the bad boys and the most thuggish guys maybe cuz i'm exactly like them, but i have a good heart.
i know i have some good qualities...i'm funny, i have a good heart, i could sing, but i'm not sure if that makes up for the negative side of me, i act too much like a kid, im impulsive, i swear to damn much, i get bored VERY easily...damn!!!
asianaries,
Please don't feel embarrassed by your circumstances. IT WILL ALL WORK OUT. Most of us here have had similarly bad experiences with school to one degree or another. You will HAVE to stay POSITIVE about your future. YOU CAN DO IT. You might take a few more years, you may need the help of family/friends/doctors or whoever, but you will make it through!
Over the past couple decades I have had to overcome feeling like a failure, low self-esteem, and bad relationships with guys (people with ADD have notoriously low self-esteem because of our repeated failures-- easy fodder for guys that only want to use you). Eventually, I had to stop beating myself up for my faults. I made a point of encouraging myself, finding and depending on my strengths, and simply learning to love and accept myself.
I know that I sound like some sort of horrible self-help book, but you really have to do this. Know that you are worth the best in life, that you are capable, and that you have real strengths that will see you through the worst of times. You will have to ignore the people who are trying to bring you down and depend on those who will support you.
Does your school know about your ADD? Colleges/universities usually make accomodations for people with ADD. My university had a whole department geared toward people who had learning disabilities or needed some remedial help. Make sure that you use EVERY resource available to you. There is no shame in asking for help-- that's why they are there!
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You're 23 and just got your AA degree? Oh, boo-hoo for you! 
. Well, I'm 44 and just got mine!!
Does that make you feel any better?
I did get my associates but just went back for my BA. And I'm 40 something. And I don't have ADD or at least don't have it bad. I don't care what anyone says, you should be proud of how far you gotten. I think switching docs was the smart thing to do and hopefully you will get the right meds. I hope we hear back from this person.Well I started a new job again...and its workin wit kids again...I'm a little worried because my attention is not that great! And GOD those kids are adorable ..I work wit kids from kindergarten 2 sixth grade..I was a substitute before and have gotten in trouble for NOT following directions that effected me a lot last year because I didn't even know I had idea that I have ADD
Now I'm a little worried starting this new job because I get bored...so BORED to the point where people are noticing that I look drained and tired....I know the kids LOVE me cuz I'm just like them!! Even though I only worked wit them for only 2 days!!
I feel emotionally drain even though I only work 3hrs each day!!! I know my meds aren't workin....I'm seeing a new psychiatrist in 3weeks or so and hopefully he prescribe me something that will help me wit my brain so I don't get so f**ckin bored at everything I do...I really don't want 2 screw wit this job and end up quitting cuz this is my career...I love kids! And I enjoy being around themWell I started a new job again...and its workin wit kids again...I'm a little worried because my attention is not that great! And GOD those kids are adorable ..I work wit kids from kindergarten 2 sixth grade..I was a substitute before and have gotten in trouble for NOT following directions that effected me a lot last year because I didn't even know I had idea that I have ADD
Now I'm a little worried starting this new job because I get bored...so BORED to the point where people are noticing that I look drained and tired....I know the kids LOVE me cuz I'm just like them!! Even though I only worked wit them for only 2 days!!
I feel emotionally drain even though I only work 3hrs each day!!! I know my meds aren't workin....I'm seeing a new psychiatrist in 3weeks or so and hopefully he prescribe me something that will help me wit my brain so I don't get so f**ckin bored at everything I do...I really don't want 2 screw wit this job and end up quitting cuz this is my career...I love kids! And I enjoy being around themIf you REALLY want to feel embarrassed, try being 33 and unable to finish your AA degree because you're on academic suspension for dropping/withdrawing/failing too many classes over your 10 years there.
paritthead,
LOVE that AHDH determination 
Keep going, you'll get there!!