Hi Guys
Good to hear from you again Jimbo.
A few months ago I took a week off dex and certainly felt much lazier, less focussed and anxious. I too am afraid of being dependent on dex for the rest of my life and would really like to stop taking them but presently the benefits seem to outweigh the costs.
Often I wish I never started taking this stuff. I hope I haven't permanently altered my brain chemistry for the worse by taking dex.
I've been off mine for 6 months now mate because school closed, and I felt the exact same way. Matter of fact, I still do. I actually went out and saw a psychiatrist because I thought I was losing it, and was put on an anti-depressant Effexor XR, which is just another horror story. It wasn't long before I got off that stuff, because I wasn't alive, I simply existed on that stuff. I went back to the psychiatrist, and he put me on Wellbutrin XL 150mg this time, which worked great until it ran out, and now I feel the same way again. I don't know what the stimulants does to your body or brain, but it sure does make you lazy as hell when you get off them.I have no choice but to take it once school starts again. I can't deny it though, it does really help with my concentration, and keeping up with school, but I don't want to be dependent on it for the rest of my life.I feel the same way, Mike. Im scared i need it now to function, as opposed to a 'little help' as my psych put it. I've been 'taking the edge off' by drinking 2 cans of red bull whenever im at work, it seems to give me enough motivation to work lazily.
Maybe the conspiracy theorists were right.. :P