I Dont Care - On Meds | ADHD Information
Amen to that, brother. Can i get a hell yih! *Hell yih!* Im a bad mofo from da wes'side of da big downunderisle. and im in the same damn boat!
Im feeling so damn wired right now.. i forgot id taken my pills and had a sh*tload of coffee this morning. And sometimes it just happens without caffiene. Its one of the wonders of the world. I dont know why it happens. I have passive ADD, so im not normally hyperactive, just blank. The pills make me focus, but sometimes when i get over-stimulated i go off. My friends love it when i do, i just go nuts. they have a good laugh. It happens occasionally, but i get over it kinda quick. :P
I hate the rollercoaster. i want to get off. it happens worse when i try to lower my doses on the weekend. but besides that, the pills are a godsend. i can actually focus in uni. and thats hard, since normally i couldnt really give a f*** about differential equations, thevenin equivalent circuits, and all that other crap they try to fill me with.
Also, i was wondering a bit more about you Rae70.. sometimes you post like youre on the pills, and sometimes like youre the parent of someone on them. Are you both using the same account or what?
[QUOTE=Jimbo]Also, i was wondering a bit more about you Rae70.. sometimes you post like youre on the pills, and sometimes like youre the parent of someone on them. Are you both using the same account or what?
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My 7 year old son had ADHD treated with dex. I am not diagnosed ADHD, but I know enough about it to know I have it and I was exactly like my son as a child (I am 33). I have been treated for anxiety and depression and used meds for this. I have talked with my gp about having ADHD and she thinks that if I continue to use what I am on that will do. I dont know about any of this crap - so I decide to just put up with it. My family has a lot of mental illness in it, including schizophrenia, bi-polar - so I know a fair bit about it all.
I watch my other family members using the meds and I see them become zombies. I do not feel that I am that bad off to require meds, as I feel I have lived this long without them and developed my own coping techniques that work for me most of the time.
I have 4 children, only my son is diagnosed, but I worry that my 9 year old has mild ADD also, but she is doing okay too so I wont act on that as yet, but as she is developing into adolescence she is getting that clouded over look that I recognise.
My oldest child has an Aquired Brain Injury, (the unseen disability), and also has traits of ADHD, She is succeeding in school also, so if there is any probs (once again I will do something then) - I am yet to see if my 3 year old girl is going to go okay. I am a believer in being very accepting of personality regardless of ADD, I dont accept that they are disabled, as I dont feel disabled, in fact I feel a fair bit better off. I just have trouble focusing and get depressed a little easier. This is why I question medication a lot. I do feel it helps my son to educate him, that is why I allow that. But my girls are doing okay so I will not have them medicated. Okay is good enough, when and if they are really struggling in HSchool, I will re-evaluate. But generally I dead against medicating very young children unless their behaviour is way over the top.
Unfortunately I chose husbands (2 so far) with ADHD characteristics also - probably because they are the only ones that can keep up with my mind. and therefore my kids pretty much got the same genes.
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Meds are tough in the beginning.
When my dosage was first increased I felt like I was climbing the freaking walls, and I had no idea what to do. Since my first medication was methylphenidate I purchased a pill cutter and would take half the dose and wait an hour or two to take the other half. That worked quite well, however I had these gigantic peaks and valleys with the original medication.
After I went though that for about a month or two my doctor put me on Concerta, that helped level me out quite a bit.
I also admit that there were times when I would be extremely hyper and then other times lethargic and did not feel "right." Those were my biggest battles in the very beginning, you will get through them, you have to understand that when we take the medication we are now using our frontal lobe section where before we were not.
The easiest way for me to describe myself pre-meds and ADHD aware and currently is this:
1. Pre ADHD aware I felt like the ADHD commercial where the woman described her life as a television set where the channels keep changing. Ultimately that was what I described to the doctor and they knew what I was referring to.
2. After I began taking medication for ADHD... I now see that previous portion of my life as an existence in a fog or haze. The fog or haze, was or is, what I call confusion. I could not see anything clearly, or understand as much with the clarity that I have now.
I also feel like I am going through puberty again in regards to my emotional state. Sometimes I become extremely sad, and withdraw. Other times I feel extremely happy and overly happy. It really does feel like puberty again, except now I am 32 years old. haha.
It is hard but, please, stick with it, you can do it, and you will look back one day and be extremely happy that you did stick with it. I used to think about quiting everyday. I had to learn how to do everything all over again from:
1. How I ordered food at a diner.
2. How I would create or write a simple email.
3. How I would look at problems.
4. How I would interact with people.
Everything in my life changed overnight, and that took some time to make it through. You can do it though! I would NEVER want to go back to my pre Med days now. I hope that helps a little...
thanks harley man. I appreciate that. I keep putting it off because I keep thinking I mylife is not okay enough at the moment to start stuffing around with meds. I am too scared to start on that train and having to go to the docs all the time and alter and change and all the rest - maybe next year . No I am not a procrastinator, stop thinking that
- lolDefinitely check it out. If your meds are not giving you the desired
results, or close, talk to your doc about having the dosage
changed or even the meds themselves. I changed meds and or dosages
about 20 times before I found one that worked well enough for me, one
med did well for me for almost a year and then I had to change it
because It started giving me insomnia just out of the blue. I changed
again and have been on the same one for two and a half years now. Do
keep in mind that Its hard sometimes to get your meds "perfect", but
you can get them close. :)Rae, would a lower dose help you be more yourself and still more productive than not on meds at all? I wouldn't want me changed either, just my ability to focus.
maybe - i have to look into it
I am having a chronic UP at the moment - extremely hyper - but unproductive - manic even. I have tried meds before - what is avail here in Aust - but they make me not care about anything.
I hate me when I am on meds - I am boring - I have not a thought in my head and I am not interested or interesting - But I do become productive.
Maybe - I will just keep riding this rollercoaster -It will come down again.
Rae70