beeboy - you definitely aren't rambling!! LOL!! Take a gander around our lovely forums and you'll see what rambling is all about! Not even close yet!
You're describing classic ADHD symptoms. Like the Jimmy Durante song "ever get the feeling that you wanted to stay? Ever get the feeling that you wanted to go? Stay or go? Go or stay?" we are very much two people when it comes to being around people. We can get lonely to a very high level yet crave the solitude when stressed. Very very common.
And the intelligence is again very common. I can't count the times I have been told "you are such an intelligent person - I can't understand why you do the insanely stupid things you do!".
Therapy and meds helped me. I now can be around people much longer than before which is a wonderful bonus. I still crave the "me" time but much less than before.
It gets better from here my friend. Just hold on tight - it's a bumpy ride but well worth it!! Just make sure to get therapy with whatever treatment you do decide upon.
i'm new to these forums and in fact, have only recently been diagnosed with ADHD; i hope this topic hasn't already been covered.
i find myself to be two, almost totally different people, depending on whether i'm all alone or whether i'm with other folks.
when i'm alone, i tend to be more relaxed, whereas when i'm with people, i often find that my stress level or ability to become irked, is quite high. i get this way with my family and the best thing i can do at these times is to retreat somewhere by myself or at least take the dog out for a walk. i love my family and it's really not them at all. i jusat find that sometimes i get so overstimulated by external stimuli, that i can't contain myself and i need to leave before i start to go batty.
does anyone else feel this way or get like this?
someone in one of the posts had said to never confuse ADD/ADHD symptoms with plain ol' bad behaviour and I couldn't agree more.
i seem to crave more time by myself than i suspect many non ADD/ADHD folks desire.
i think another thing i'm grappling with is that i'm acknowledged as being a VERY bright guy and have been since day one, yet i've never felt like i've amounted to much or enough...now i sometimes feel like i need to tell myself constantly, that my lack of scholastic success (ie. completion of at least ONE of my post-secondary attempts) is not the measure of who i am.
is it just me, or did anyone else upon confirmed diagnosis, say to themselves, "Aha! so THIS is likely why all those bizarre things in my life took place."
it's as though i am re-visiting many situations and decisions from my past, not to be regretful of them, so much as to help myself understand them. there are very few folks with whom i can express this without feeling like they think i'm some sort of nut or hypochondriac. i myself, never fully understood ADHD and used to parrot the comments of others in saying that it's all in that LAZY person's head.
now i know the truth and feel as though things can only get better from here on is due to my understanding and taking steps to alleviate the symptoms for myself.
i think i got to rambling...sorry.....
Noel