Where did I go????!!!!!! | ADHD Information

I feel like Rip Van Winkle must have felt after a 100 year sleep. I was lost before my dx and I'm still in the process of discovering me. Your passion for the things you loved may come back, I wouldn't worry too much about it, but if you can get therapy, do it.
I take Adderall xr 20mg + Wellbutrin xl 300 mg + therapy.
Lots of things have changed. Some good and some bad, but, I would never go back to the way things were before when I was asleep. [QUOTE=SparkyLu]

I no longer liked any of my decor, things I felt passionate about fizzled out, I just stopped being me basically.

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I know nothing, my opinion means nuts, but, doesn't this define depression?
No, no treatments yet.

I feel like I've lost things that I care about. I feel rootless and passionless and feel like I don't know what to do next. I used to have organizations and causes that I worked for, I used to care about my career field and making the world a better place. I'm not sure why, but I just don't feel connected to anything.

I'm not particularly sad or depressed, I am simply restless and uncertain about my future.

I'm glad you are hopeful about the future; I only have a big fat ?

I think you should talk to your doctor about your feelings. I know that you should still love the things you loved before. I am concerned, like Resistance, that you might be experiencing something like depression if you don't enjoy things anymore.

On the other hand, ADHDers can become so hyperfocused on certain things, that you might just be adjusting to the way it is to NOT be hyperfocussing on things.

I know that the things I am trying are really helping me and I no longer get involved in projects that go absolutely nowhere. I am still interested and love artwork, but I don't start projects that are never going to be finished. It's like I think ahead and can see that this one is going to go no where, so I am waiting for the one I really love and will concentrate all my efforts on it. I KNOW in my mind and in my heart that I will get it done this time.

My confidence is back!!!

I left my wonderful husband, quit my k/yr job, blew in about 2 months time........ Horrible isnt the word. All of this within the 2 months surrounding diagnosis medicating.. HANG IN THERE!!! ????? last of the big spenders, eh?

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Suddenly I realized that I didn't care about any of my collectibles (normally they are prized posessions!), I no longer liked any of my decor, things I felt passionate about fizzled out, I just stopped being me basically.

Am I coming back or do I need to learn how to sell on Ebay?

It's kind of scary! Thanks in advance for any response!

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i guess you could look at it as you are finally coming out. that all those collectibles etc. weren't you but merely a reflection of your neuroses/addled-ness --- now those neuroses are leaving you have a chance to explore who YOU are??? as opposed to being a walking diagnosis of addled symptoms (although i have to admit collectibles is a weird one... i have never been able to give a s*** about a single possesion i owned - the absolute opposite of you!)

Wow! Thank you so much guys!

Taritac, Feeling that way is so lonely and I know there is hope that you will regain your passion. Maybe you can use this time to make yourself the cause you will work for? I hope so. You're worth it!

Countrygirl, thank you so much for your kind words. I guess I'm in store for lots of changes! I appreciate you telling me what meds you're on. I'm on many....40mg Ritalin, 20mg Prozac, 10mg Lexapro and 15mg Temazepam. Still working on getting the right doses. Super drugged up!

Resistance, Your opinion is valuable and right! I am depressed! Although, this particular incident was waaaay weirder than any depression symptom since I woke up and looked around my house and thought, "What is all this junk?" Very odd. New brain doing new things.

Starri, your picture is hilarious! I love it. I'm so sorry you went through what you did during the meds trial. Are you okay now?

Chjones, your candor is refreshing. I think you're right on too. Never cared about any posession? That sounds so nice. I'm a pack rat and love tacky 50's stuff and Beatles memorabilia. Or I did?

Thanks very much, everyone. I think the weird things may be normal things? I don't know, I've spent 36 years one way and thought I was normal. Normal enough. Ah well, guess I'll just hang on and see what unfolds.

Thanks again!

Sorry so long- felt the need to address all of you lovelies.

annidagostini!

Okay, second attempt at writing to apologize for missing you in that last post. I had written it like 3 times and somehwhere in there I lost you. My apologies!

I really appreciate your words and feel hope for myself and my art as well. I have noticed my focus is starting to go in the same direction as yours. I don't have nearly as many projects sitting around unfinished. It feels good too. Thank you Ritalin!

Congratulations on getting your confidence back!

I'll definitely talk with my doc soon about the weird things going on. I need to get into some CBT too probably.

What has worked for you?

Good night for now! Back to bed!

Taritac,

Do you mean you feel that you have lost yourself as well?

Have you tried any treatment?

This all sounds so sad (and it IS rough) but once we go through the realization and necessary stages we will come out like butterflies, right?! Let's count on it!

Hi everyone again!

Since this topic is still up, I would totally welcome any similar stories and experiences. I do think it's my new brain making me see things in a different way but has such a sudden occurrance/change happened to others? I'm talking this was over night!

I am starting to like some of my junk again but everything sure is different on Ritalin!

Thank you!!!

P.s I apologize if it's a dead horse subject. I'm new in these parts!

yeah the change was pretty quick...like...whoa i can read...and i can think clearly! and whoa i got all that stuff done?! =)

Very nice! So you've had positive things happen quickly. Are you taking Ritalin?

The first day I started I slept the entire day. It was like the first time in my life I relaxed or something. Very odd but not so much here I suppose! I kept thinking leave it to me to take a stimulant and fall asleep!

I also noticed that my eyesight seemed clearer and my pain (I have chronic pain) seemed better too. That was at first and not so much now but I'm still working on adjustments with meds. Over all I think I'm better too.

Yay! There IS hope! Woohoo!

I'm there, too, but without the therapy or meds.

Hi everyone!

I've only been dignosed with ADHD and on meds for a couple months so I'm still working on getting the balance right but yesterday I had a total freak out! I lost myself!

I've read enough on the boards to see now how important therapy is along with meds, which I'm not doing, but what in the world happened to me?

Is this sudden change something that happens to everyone with treatment? Are we learning how to think THAT differently? Am I coming back or do I need to learn how to sell on Ebay?

It's kind of scary! Thanks in advance for any response!

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