Did ADHD and Addy XR make me depressed? | ADHD Information

good luck. good luck. you have a great attitude and determination to succeed so i know that will pay off.

i am sorry your school couldn't give you a break --- because you sorta sound like you need it. but i think the change in may with the job might be just the break you need --- you know "a change is as good as a holiday" thing.

i hope you can find a lot of support here and whatever you need to get by! sometimes it is always darkest before the dawn and this just might be the last hurdle - so you could well be right not to stop now but push on and get through it - no matter what.

then you can fall back a bit and take some time.... afterward!

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now its a year and 4 months later. I'm still at that damn job, getting up at 5 in the morning to practice my stenograph (school for court reporting) for an hour, going to work, getting to school at 6, getting home at 10.

we are broke, so our weekends consist of hanging at home with the cats. Which used to drive me nuts. Now I'm ok with it. all my friends live at least an hour away. But, my issue(finally) is that now I just don't feel like doing anything. literally, I don't want to call friends or family, i don't want to go to the movies, i don't want to go to the store, i don't want to go for a walk outside, I dont' want to go visit family that lives 20 min or even 5 min away. whats my deal??

and if i need antidepressants, what will my husband say? He thinks i take too much as it is. when in reality, i'm on adderal XR 30mg twice a day, B.C. cyclobenzaprine (temp while in physical therapy for neck) and trazadone(small dose to aid in sleep)

thx guys. i might not be able to read your repiles for a few days but i'll be back on.

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ok lemme get this straight --- you get up at 5, work all day in a job you don't like, go to school, come home at 10 and wonder why you are exhausted and possibly depressed???

i'd be amazed if that didn't depress and exhaust any single other human in the entire planet! look how hard you are trying! look how much you are doing! for the amount of effort you are expending you should be a multi-billionnaire...

i am so, so, sorry. i feel like whisking you away to a normal world where there is such a thing as a life/work balance.

it's not right. and it is not you that is wrong either. it's the set-up. don't feel you have to take anti-depressants to help you cope - it's an uncopable situation and probably the only way you have managed to carry on this long is because you aren't ADD and are simply using the adderall as a stimulant/crutch to keep you going for far longer than is natural.

i know that all sounds negative --- and i know a lot of people will come with far better and more practical advice.

if you think you need the anti-depressants to get you through until you get your stenography course --- then i guess you could do that but if that means two more years!!!! it's too long.

go, move - get in the car - pack up your stuff - drive to the mountains, get a job as a waitress in a ski resort, rent a little place - take a break, take some time for yourself. just put everything else on hold and take some time for yourself or something. you only have one life.

maybe that's not good advice.

i don't know. whatever you do - good luck with it. you seem sensible and together and i am sure you will be able to achieve your goals too.

Thanks cjhones. Adderal HAS helped me. I definitly would not still be in school right now and probably would have been fired from my job if i didn't discover it. It's not like I'm the only one with it in my family. There are others. I am not addicted to it despite every single person you know who has been on it (againstadderal). I am happy with it. But i've figured the reason why i feel this way is b/c of my job. as soon as i am vested (5 yr is in may) w/ my pension, i am looking for a new job. I really know it is my job. Its just sometimes sitting there answering the phones all day talking to all those negative people all day brings me down.

I've heard that people reciprocate the personalities they hang out or talk to the most. Since i can hardly talk to my co-workers i talk to people calling about their bank accts and every single one of them is so negative (speaking and literally)

But right now I am in a superb mood but i haven't gone to work yet. Once I graduate and get settled in the court reporting field, I plan to start taking back my dosage very slowly. I'm sure once I've gotten into the grove i can keep the grove w/out addy. I just have to be patient and realize lots of adults never get the chance to go to school at my age. a lot of the folks i have night class with are over the age of 40. So i learn from them to do it now before kids. But i definitly can not drop anything and go somewhere. this school is year round, if i miss a semester i might as well start all over or never come back. i'm not taking that risk.

oh and the adderal does not keep me up at night. you might question why i am taking a small dose of something for a sleep aid but I've always had mild insomnia since i was a child. and have been taking the aid for 5 years. So it isn't the adderal. I sleep just fine, and my personality is basically the same. in fact it probably is better b/c now i've grown up. now i just need out of that childish atmosphere of a job.

thanks!

[QUOTE=againstadderall]I feel very sorry for anyone who is on adderall. I almost think I would rather have ADHD. My boyfriend of 2 1/2 years was on it for that amount of time. He has not been on it for 1 year now. You know there is a reason its been taken off the market in Canada. It changes your personality completely, is very addictive. As a result of those two things he lost a great job because he could not wake up in the morning b/c the adderall kept him up at night. I cannot say enough horrible things about it. It nearly ruined his life and I know many others who were all adderall or same type drugs and all had same experience. DONT TOUCH IT WITH A TEN FOOT POLE!!![/QUOTE] if your boyfriend was up all night, he probably taking it too late or taking too much, i just started 3 months ago with mixed results. as soon as i feel the dosage is right, i start building a tolerance to it. i really can't see this being a long term answer for adhd. but i have ordered omega 3 mood online. i hear it supposed to be a natural alternative for adhd treatment, maybe he should try that. I feel very sorry for anyone who is on adderall. I almost think I would rather have ADHD. My boyfriend of 2 1/2 years was on it for that amount of time. He has not been on it for 1 year now. You know there is a reason its been taken off the market in Canada. It changes your personality completely, is very addictive. As a result of those two things he lost a great job because he could not wake up in the morning b/c the adderall kept him up at night. I cannot say enough horrible things about it. It nearly ruined his life and I know many others who were all adderall or same type drugs and all had same experience. DONT TOUCH IT WITH A TEN FOOT POLE!!!

Please read all of this if you can, if you do, give me whatever advice you have. I appreciate anything said.

Ok, once upon a time a girl was easliy frustrated, short tempered, antsy, and random. She had always suspected ADD but didn't think about it more until she got older and had a job that kept her at her desk 8 hours a day answer the phones (call center). She couldn't figure out how everyone else was able to sit still all day while she had to get up every 5 min to do something, ANYTHING! talk, clean her desk over and over, draw, talk, walk around, talk. blah blah. She was a generally happy person, never though she was depressed. Except during the time period when she couldn't sleep. Started taking light dose of sleep aid and that was cured. After 3 years of getting way to upset over everything, getting frustrated over nothing, slamming doors and crying at work her doc. diagnosed her with ADHD. cool, its in the family, sounds about right.

Since when am I so lazy? Why don't I even want to walk to get the mail unless it's dark outside? I used to be able to smile at everyone in passing. Now i look at the ground! Why can't I stop that? I used to be very bubbly talkative person. I can't even go to the grocery store by myself w/out feeling flustered and lost. I avoid my home town (15 min away) b/c i don't want to run into people i know. I've procrastinated calling my step sis whom i haven't seen in 6 years when she was 11 and is now 17! I'm excited to have found her but anxious of calling and meeting. I feel i'm in a never end loop. School has been 2 years and could be another 3. I know my goals will be complete at some point, but I'm running out of steam. I'm out of optimisim, out of drive, out of motivation. I want a family. but must finish school. '

i'm sorry this is long. i haven't been on in a long while and forgot how soothing this site is b/c no one thinks any different of me when i post. I skimmed through and didn't see anything regarding this. But i'm positive its there, i just don't have the energy to read it all. I'm not suicidal or anything. I don't feel like the world is ending. I just feel like i don't care about things anymore. nothing. its weird. I've tried antidepressants a few years ago when i thought i was depressed but it was lack of sleep. the meds gave me panic attacks. so i'm terrified if this is what it is.

thx guys. i might not be able to read your repiles for a few days but i'll be back on.