Well I'm never sure what to say in these things, which for the most part is why I don't write them.
I am pretty sure I have ADD. I'm 33 years old and all my life I struggled but never knew why. This past month I discovered the book driven to distraction. ( a very good book by the way..I bought the other two and will read them shorty)
I thought my problem was anxiety and although went on meds for two years the anxiety part went away but the rest of "what was wrong" enver did. I thought it was me...and that I couldn't change. My low self esteem , self image le me to believe I just wasn't any better.
I day dream constantly have been called lazy, have been overweight all my life. I often feel restless. I have like 1000 differen't things are going through my mind in a given moment, I have trouble reading a page from a book on some days and other days I can absorb an entire novel. I have trouble even following conversations.
I never thought there was a condition for me, I adjusted my whole life to try to make it through, including picking up traits and skills that the book recommended. I guess survival instints came into play here. I managed to get through school although I never did complete a degree. (my big regret in life)
I have not been offcially diagnosed with add as of yet. I see my doctor this afternoon to discuss it. I wonder what reaction she will have....probably just another no big deal thing and take two aspirins and hope it goes away.
I'm just so sure because of the case studies and symptoms and how I felt my whole life.
I'm both excited and also afraid. Perhaps there is hope, perhaps there is another dead end. My life has been pretty hard mostly do to what I have done with my own hands, gambling was my vice although I never understood why I gambled. While others tried to make money I don't know if that was my true intention. there was just a variety of feelings and emotions that I felt when I laid down the big bets.
I've recovered these last 4 years, although I occasionally fall now and again, I set up safe gaurds so that I would get angry myself and recover in 2-3 months as opposed to years.
right now I'm thinking about what I will discuss with my doc today.
Medication is one issues I find myself thinking about. Wether , when/if it comes down to it...do I got with ritalin or with a natural solution from the homeopathic store.
this is all new to me, and I have no idea where I'm heading.
Over the course of the next few days i'll go over the messages on this board, and look forward to contributing to this community.
bigbear38810.3371064815Hi Bigbear,