I think sometimes ADD makes it possible for me to make inappropriate comments without intending to. I have found that it is very easy for me to make what are viewed as rude comments in an attempt at humor.
Many people tease and joke with each other. But somehow I often do it at the wrong time. I guess this is due to my "checking in and out" and not always being able to follow the tone of conversations from beginning to end. I am never sure when it is okay to be funny or not. Maybe this is related to ADD and maybe not.Remember the story I told you about the message that I left for P on his machine...and how I meant it when I said it, but by the next day I felt horrible. The comment was about my own insecurities...P as you know proved them all incorrect...Well, I agree that those comments are coming from low
As for your first question, I'm not really sure what you mean. I definitely think they're unintentional but it probably is their true feelings.
As for the second question, I'd say no, that is not ADHD behavior. They usually have remorse when they discover what they said hurt someone. (I do). What you're describing sounds more like a personality disorder or someone who is just plain mean.
For example (a rude comment):
In regards to having dinner together:
#1: What else would you be doing anyway?
#2: You hang out with me because you have no friends and you can't get a boyfriend.
I do not think the behavior you described has anything to do with ADD. Rude is rude, period. Statements such as the ones you mentioned are generally indicative of someone with a low self esteem who feels that if they put you down and make you feel pitiful and insecure, then they will somehow feel better about themselves. They often use such tactics to reduce your self esteem so that you will need them more, and feel like your options in life are limited....These are just general observations.
Are the rude, uncalled for and sometimes hurtfull comments ADHD's (non treated) make actually their true emotions?
Once they have discovered other peoples (family, friends, lovers) insecurities, do they like to use them against them?
I have read all of your posts and it appears that you have it together. This is not meant to be a punch in the stomach but a wake up call. You can only put so much time into a one way relationship. If he does not realize that he has the partner that comes along once in a lifetime than abandon ship before you sink with him. Do not make excuses for yourself, get up and grow as your own person anyone such as yourself will find truelove elsewhere. In the mean time is there anyone weather at home or work that has truly proved to you that they are a friend? This is the time to turn to them for friendship to heal the wound. You will be OK just be strong and if he truly loves you he will come looking for you.
Best of luck to you
Well I think we all have an evil side . When I was younger and less empathetic/compassionate, I would get a cheap thrill out of using my wits and manipulative abilities to really hurt people. But karma comes to all of us and I have had it threefold back.
The lack of learning from our mistakes, I believe is a choice. Some people choose not to look at their faults and misgivings and choose to be blamers and never achieve anything. Others say, geez I was a bitch or a rotten scoundrel, I feel really bad about that what can I do to be a better person.
Let your past mistakes go if you have failed in the past, forgive yourself and believe you can be a better person. Dont allow that little devil on your shoulder to get the better of you, perhaps even flicking the little begger off when you hear his whispers might be a good idea
I remember when I first started meds I had these unbearable peaks and valleys. I also noticed that my emotions were like a roller coaster.
My wife was talking to me about something and I thought she was attacking me for being ADHD. I was really sensitive about it then, and I said "Look, just because you don't have to take meds to think like a 'normal' human being, does not mean that I am stupid, so get off my back!"
Looking back now, I still feel guilty about saying that. I noticed back then, not only was I trying to grapple with having to learn how to do everything in life a different way, I still had to go through the normal peaks and valleys of that specific medication. It was a tough road. Maybe the person did not mean to say it at all. Maybe they were internalizing something else. Maybe they were in one of the valleys that resulted from some type of medication.
There are soooo many reasons, it's really hard to pinpoint just one. Personally my largest battles were emotional completely. I felt ashamed for what I was, and only wanted people to see me for who I wanted to be. That was a major reason why I was so sensitive...
Who knows, maybe they will work through it, maybe not. All I can say is that there is not a day that goes by NOW, where I am not loving that iddy-biddy-little-white-pill and saying thank you for changing my life.
I have not heard back from you so I would asume that things are much better. Thats great.
Take careSomething (maybe ADD, maybe some other thing) makes me blurt out what ever is on my mind. Often times I don't realize how it might be hurtful until I hear myself say it - other times I never figure it out. Over time that caused me to become a loner - I just got so down on myself and frustrated that I was always hurting people that I just withdrew. Now I'm older I'm still a loner, but I've gotten used to it but it's all a bit sad. But, it's no excuse. I've become an expert at apologizing.
Thank you all so much for your thoughts regarding my posted topic. I haven't been psoting lately b/c I want to sort things out on my own. I have been receivng positive and negative feedback and it makes it all more confusng for me to sort out.
To answer Out There, I'm still hanging in there. It may be a one way relationship but, he has ADHD and he's worth it! This is not an excuse, it's a fact. I'm learing to set my own boundaries and he's learning how his actions effect other people. Let me add, he's learning slowly. I think, I'm not pushing the issue.........only time will tell.
Now that I'm here, I'd like to address my post again. I notice that after a rude comment has been made a few days later if I were to bring it up his first reaction is to deny ever saying it? Can anyone explain that?
Denying ever saying it: I think it's very natural to forget