kind of freaked out, need advise | ADHD Information

I am currently on 40mg red. adderall in morning and I take 1 20mg at night as prescribed by my doctor about 1 year ago.  I was diagnosed with ADD (inattentive type) at that time.  I was doing great with medication.  I felt clear headed, confident and way more organized than I had ever been before.  At the beginning I started out on Adderall XR 40mg per day  and for 8 months everything fine.  Then started wearing off a bit.  Took a holiday for a week.  Back to fine again.  Anyway, I decided then to change to regular adderal at 40mg w/ 1 20mg in afternoon. (what I am currently taking).  I changed because it is so much cheaper.  It has been a couple of months on the regular and eh, so. so.  Don't notice any bad side effects etc.  Well about a week ago I started feeling really depressed.  I mean really depressed.  I noticed that I wasn't snapping out of my "funk" too easily so I scheduled an appointment w/ therapist.  I didn't make the connection of depression and adderall but the therapist knew that I was taking the medication.   He was actually the one who diagnosed me with ADD.  Anyway, my point is.  I increasingly got worse...Yesterday, I had a full blown panic attack.  I was histerical at the therapists office.  Crying and really getting upset.  Anxiety to the max.  Not trying to make a joke here, but I was on the verge of being psycotic.  Now.  I understand that I am a sensitive person who may have some minor depression symptoms from time to time, but this was way more extreme than I had ever experienced.  My question is what the hell happed here?? I didn't take my afternoon dose today and I don't want to.  I feel "normal" now.  I think I am going to stop taking it all together.  Is this medication safe for me?  Has anyone else had this experience.  If I am prone to anxiety and I take stimulants for ADD-that will only increase the anxiety even more and then I am screwed.  Also,  I do not abuse adderall at all or take any other medications.  I am a mother of two who can't afford to get crazy!! If anyone has any advise, I would greatly appreciate it. Thanks.

I took Adderall for a year and a half and it wore off for me too.  I wasn't taking as high a dose as you, and I didnt' have the depression thing going.  I tried herbal supplements which worked for a while. Then I tried Concerta which made me feel down right away, so I quit that in one week.

I found the book Stopping ADHD and it has helped me so very much.  I am ADD inattentive also.  I feel like my symptoms are washing away the more I crawl with these exercises. 

I don't want to give anyone false hopes.  I suppose it may not work for everyone, but it really has helped me.  It might help you too.  Check out the "crawler's unite" thread on the alternative thread on this board and you can get more information if you are interested.

I am sorry you are going through struggles with your meds.

Check with your dr for sure.