My current mood without adderall | ADHD Information

i sometimes get depressed thinking about how i need to take a pill in order to feel usefull but then i take my meds and i say to myself: "so what! many people take meds to live a normal life and i'm just one of them!"yeah i jusst think "alot of ppl would kill to have this pill!! and look at you your farting rainbows!!!!!!!"Yeah without adderall I am a complete homebody myself.   I feel really bored. Everything is boring. Nothing excites me. I am extremely tired and have been all day. I don't want to go anywhere or do anything but sit around and smoke. I don't even find guitar playing or music interesting right now. I really don't give a sh*t about anything that happens, because I know I'll feel unaffected by it. I feel dull, and blank, and very stupid. I can't think about anything complicated. I'm hungry as those people in Africa. I'm anti social and really wish I could just feel alive and human.*shudder*
wow the day after that i was asleep for 36 hours straight.
weirdYep, same symptoms here.  They tend to be even more dramatic/exacerbated when I go for longer periods of time without taking a couple days off the adderall, or after a few days of markedly increased doses (I tend to vary my doses as well).my mom thought i was drugged because i didnt even wake up to pee or eat....is that normal?i rarely take a day off but when i do i'm a useless piece of sh*t!! i used to smoke pot everyday all the time and i feel worse than the old jerry if i take a day off so i try not to take more than 40 a day but i might take 30 if i want to go to bed early.yeah I'm pretty much useless without it. Sunday I didn't take it either (I like to save up to take a lil extra at once) and I needed a damn cigarette to get energy to get up and walk across the room for something!!!