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Go have a visit with a shrink or therapist - ones that deal with adhd and other issues are pretty good at spotting what is happening.  I am the queen of procrastination if it is something I don't like doing or dread.  Paying bills has always been a challenge - I luckily have the money, but get 3 months behind all the time.  I could tell you a ton of stories, but won't, cause you can just read everyone else's posts. 

Frazzled is also a word I used to explain how I felt at time and frustrated.  This day and age, in my mind, there is not reason to feel bad all the time.  Modern medicine is great and can ease your static to help you sort it all out.

Take it one step at a time.

Get a referral from one of your friends or contact a local clinic that deals with ADD/ADHD.

Pick up the phone.

Make an appointment.

I can't tell you to keep your mind from going bonkers with anxiety about the appointment but remember that they have seen it all before and then some.

 

You are not alone. I wish I knew at 22 what I do now.

So i am not diagnosed or anything. But I am sick of having trouble and want to be sure this is worth going to a psych doc  for because docs make me extremely anxious, I tend to say all the wrong things and jack it up and end up with no luck/proper help for any given thing I go to the doctor for. So I really don't want to waste the bloody time getting this checked out if there are other possible causes or if its closer to normal, because they terrify me and waste my time and probably think i'm just going in there to score drugs to abuse or something.
My mom yelled at me for years for being so 'extreme.' I'd be really frustrated and withdrawn a lot then really really super hyper when I was finally able to feel alright. And yelled at for years because I could never sit still for anything, up to this very day at age 22 (and anyways, how the heck does she think after screaming at me to start sitting still at church, etc, to work, when it clearly hasn't for years...like more than a dozen!!!) Duh. Anyways.
Went through grade three with constant problems because I would never ever pay attention but I don't recall having teachers/parents on my butt for school stuff any other time. I did well in the things I liked and not too badly in school overall, but I had a huge drive to learn and was very socially awkward so didn't bother putting energy into a social life, just school, which no doubt helped.
Anyways....i don't know...there's a bunch of crap i could go on with but I guess what matters now is that I have been through 5 years of university, and its been stress and crisis after stress and crisis and I always just barely make it, but it nearly kills me each time and I still don't have a degree and I want to make my last year count.
My two best friends have been telling me for the last four years that there is no doubt in their minds that I am ADD. One of them is ADD and says that she doesn't get along with a single person in the world who isn't, so I must be, so maybe that's just her perception..dunno.
But I am going nuts and have had troubles for far too long now and dread doing the things I love because things never happen like they should. And I know I'm smart enough, its something else getting in the way....and all this anxiety. I seriously have lost the capacity to enjoy all my interests now that I do them in a school setting and I feel dead and I have breakdowns all the time and I am so sick of it I get nauseated here thinking of it to type about it.  But maybe its some kind of anxiety, that could make a person restless right? Or see, I don't know, i just don't want to go to the doc, it makes me feel really stressed to think of making the apt and going and everything else.  I guess either way I should, but I was just curious if anyone knows if there are other possibilities other than ADD, anyways. Kind of a ridiculous amount of information and yabber for a small question like that..
Whatever, if anyone could endure to read through it all, I'd appreciate feedback.
Take care, all.

It sounds like ADHD to me, and probably anxiety disorder as well.  It doesn't matter what label goes on your problems, the pdoc can help with any of it.  Going to a psych appointment is the best thing you can do for yourself, no matter how hard it is. 

Getting the right medication can and will make each day better and less stressful.  You can do it, one step leads to the next.  If you are really stuck, can you ask a friend can go with you to keep you company?  We all need encouragement and support sometimes. 

It is still hard for me to grasp the huge changes I have made in my life since getting diagnosed and treated.  Every incredibly hard thing that I went through to get to this point in my life was worth it.

Best wishes, keep us posted!

Yeh....my boyfriend gently 'required' that I do something this summer about it all because he has seen how I am and describes my school years starting out hopeful and ok then suddenly the clutter and imbalance hitting like a 'frieght train' in his words...so we are finally living in the same town and he keeps trying to get me to do something, but it just makes me quake...to get started. But almost anything to get started I dread at first and procrastinate and am stressed before I even know what I'm actually dealing with. So i've been fighting him on it and forgetting conveniently to call doctors...I keep thinking I will just wait til I have the courage to do it, whatever that means anymore. I mean this could change a lot in my life...maybe?? But I guess I need to try and go into robot mode and just call and make a darned appointment and not let myself feel any ways about it until i can't hold back anymore, but then it'll be done, that first step...or something. Brainstorming, god does this make any sense, who knows.
My mom is extremely hyperactive. She's worse than the worst little class clown boys I went to elementary school with. I've never met anyone so hyper, ever, in my life as her. My dad has an IQ of something like 180 but they took him out of school a few times when he was little because everyone seriously believed he was mentally retarded. I am not kidding...he's doing amazingly these days, as long as he's involved in what he's interested in he can put all of himself into it. I can't seem to be like that. And my two brothers were both diagnosed with learning disabilities and 'borderline' ADD. I was never a concern because my mom had too much to deal with for them, and they definately showed more problems so I don't blame her. But I guess I'm pretty dull for questioning whether I should get some help, my whole family is absolutely wonky.

I have no structure, no balance...and yet I'm perfectionistic in my mind, I see how good those things could be, and how satisfying it could be if I could peacefully work in the things I know I love but just can't focus in on the way I want.  Went through a lot of depression and suicidal stuff related to this. I have a different perspective now, I don't get nearly as easily depressed like I used to, but the problems are still there just the same.

I'm just frazzled having to think of the steps to go through now, my thoughts get consumed, cuz one part of me is like "something has to change NOW, I'm going to snap for good" and the other is just the clutter and noise related to what I have to do and trying to avoid it all in order to reduce the anxiety, cuz i got enough of that...
Gah. Rambling. Whatever, I guess it's stupidly obvious and I'm wasting my time, this is just me going through a little portion of what races through my head about the matter on a daily basis and I'm repeating myself rather than going out and figuring out what is wrong and helping myself.