Ahh!!! feeling stuck!(warning: Long post) | ADHD Information

I don't know what to do! I'm living with my aunt, and I drive her crazy. She
tries to be paatient but she isn't patient by nature so it is really hard for
her. It's hard for her to keep her temper and sometimes she says things
that hurts or slaps me. She doesn't mean to but her extreme frustration
gets to her.
I really want to move out and take care of myself b/c there is always
something to get in trouble and always something to cry about. There's
so much pain aand sadness in my heart I feel so lonely. I don't think she
can understand, she can't stand to see me crying it actually makes her
more angry like she doesn't think I have a right to cry.
I tried to tell her about ADD being a chemical inbalance and she thought
it was BS. "If you just try hard, but you don't try!" She loves to say that. I
have to fight not to scream when she makes that stupid comment. It's
like, I do try but have so little success it looks like I'm not trying! Does
that make any sense? I hope so.
I don't even have a bank account, she has my money. Money that I got
from working outside and money i got from working at her store. I don't
even know how much I have. She's reluctant to let me put it in the bank.
OMG I don't know what to do! I can't move out w/o money, w/o a bank
account or credit history! I can't pay for the treatment I so desparately
need and I wish I could find a way to get access to my own money.
I don't know why saying this personal stuff here but I'm so frustrated and
have no one to talk to about this ADD stuff. I feel so alone I'm glad this
board exists.

How old are you?  I find it very constrictive for someone to take all that control and your cash from you.  That must be very frustrating indeed.

Who is treating your ADHD?  It might be helpful to bring your aunt to meet your MD or therapist who is treating you so she can find out it's not just willpower.  That's totally false but I know a lot of people think we are just impulsive and lazy.  If it were that simple I'd have felt better about myself rather than feeling so helpless and nearly crazy when I tried and failed to get control.

If you are much younger than 19 you may need to become emancipated.  That would mean you'd be your own guardian and able to move out and get a job.  If you are near or over 19 then I say take that leap!  You have nothing so there is nothing to lose right?!?  I know it's scary but the best things in life for us usually are.

If you have other relatives that can give you a boost or a place to stay temporarily then I'd talk to them as you talked here.  You made your point very well and I commend you.  Just repeat what you posted to your family if you have others to talk to .

Be patient otherwise.  19 will come soon I'm sure and if you wait and get yourself ready you can probably get a scholarship and help and move to university/college.

I wish you luck.