Nick - firstly why are you taking vicodin??? Vicodin is for extreme physical pain - are you abusing it? Same with xanax - it's for severe anxiety not ADHD. Neither will help you but will plunge you down a road of inevitable addiction.
Get yourself off this stuff! If you aren't either capable or willing to take ADHD meds go cold turkey and get therapy instead. Since vicodin and xanax would cost more than any good ADHD med would I'd say you can afford it - or alternatively a weekly therapy would cost probably the same.
Honestly - get help. Maybe the reason you aren't doing so well at work is that you are unable to stay alert and focused enough to do the job?
I am worried about you - get help NOW please!
From my prev experiences, Xanax and work don't mix. Makes you sleepy and slow.[QUOTE=NickL28]Anyone else have these problems?? Jumping from job to job to job. The longest I have held a job since graduation from college in 2001 was 2.5 years. My last job I held for 16 months, and my current position for 13 months.
So 3 jobs since 2002 with 2 temp jobs that I don't put on my resume.
Once again, I am about to get fired. No matter how hard I try, I keep making mistakes. Disorganization, bad time management & this feeling of internal panic are what leads to my downfall.
My boss says that I always 'act without thinking'.
My field is accounting -- Mutual fund accounting which is very very detail oriented. One small mistake can have major repercussions.
these are your words
if i paid an accountant any money who was dissorganised bad time management etc they would be looking after my business for long
you say your field is accounting
i think you need to see a careers advisor or some form of personality type profiling so you may be guided into the RIGHT field
i am in the right field and i am still disorganised and anxious about my communication skills and all the things you say you experience
but in the right field it wont cost lives or livelyhoods andf when the ramifications are less you will find you get more job satisfaction.
hope this helps
I just quit a job shorty after getting another job.
[QUOTE=NickL28]Anyone else have these problems?? Jumping from job to job to job. The longest I have held a job since graduation from college in 2001 was 2.5 years. My last job I held for 16 months, and my current position for 13 months.
So 3 jobs since 2002 with 2 temp jobs that I don't put on my resume.
Once again, I am about to get fired. No matter how hard I try, I keep making mistakes. Disorganization, bad time management & this feeling of internal panic are what leads to my downfall. I am constantly getting yelled at, talked 'down to' in front of others by my boss.. Recently, I got put on a PIP (performance improvement plan). I am doing my darndest to improve because I am scared that if I become unemployed at my age of 29, I will never be able to find another job because of my unstable history.
I live in a constant state of fear, anxiety, extreme irritability. Take Xanax & Vicodin to calm myself and get thru the day.
I would love to pack up my car, quit my job, and and move out of the NYC to another part of the country and say good riddance to this field of work and industry. I have a BA in Accounting, MS in Finance and about a year of expenses saved..
My boss says that I always 'act without thinking'.
My field is accounting -- Mutual fund accounting which is very very detail oriented. One small mistake can have major repercussions.
There is high turnover in my company as well. Since I started about 50% of the department has turned over including 5 people in a two week period.
No, I haven't been officially diagnosed by likely have ADHD which I know that my mgrs. will laugh at. They are micromanaging, condescending a**holes where nothing is ever good enough or done exactly the way they want it..
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Even though Vicodin is used for pain. I will agree that it works wonders for the ADD person. I took it for 2 weeks, and I had never been so happy, calm and organized before in my life.
Too bad it's so damn addictive.
I loved it.
Mia
[QUOTE=NickL28]Hi Nick,
Well thank god I am not alone! Every problem you have decribed on the job is what I suffer from! I have been sacked twice, had 4 jobs in two years plus about another 4 temp positions that I don't mention on CV.
I am disorganised, impulsive and I make silly mistakes. I was always late and often called in sick cos I got so bored and the thought of going in would make me anxious!
So I have decided to go to Uni and do a degree and then I may consider becoming a teacher! It's motivating, fun, hard work but rewarding and you don't have to sit at a desk being watched all day!!!
I really think you should consider a career change. Accounting sounds good and I am sure it'svery well paid but is it really for you? If it requires attention to detail then you are going to struggle your whole life as you have ADD. I mean all jobs require some level of attention to detail but accounting seems to be serious and minor mistakes can cause major problems.
I know how you feel though, I have felt this way for some time now. I get so much grief from my family for not going to work, changing jobs etc... I think we need to find something we really love and want to get up for in the morning! We don't need to work with these arseholes who are judgemental and do not understand anything but their own job!!
Hope it all works out, please talk anytime you need to!
xx
Just a PS! To the assholes exist, but why do we with ADHD/ADD quit and "normals" stick to the job? I didn't say that they are not out there, but "we" often exagerate the problem so that it becomes unberable, others go out the door and forget about the asshole boss! Thats what I was saying even though not clearly!
Some things that help me but I struggle making myself do are: regular exercise, lay off sugar and caffeine, and get plenty of sleep. Yeah, I know, that involves self discipline and takes at least a week before you start feeling better. It's worth a try don't you think?
Something else: have you considered finding a government job? At a university or government agency? I used to work for a private sector financial institution and found the pressure, lack of flexibility, and pickiness to be unbearable. I found a job at a government agency and though it's not easy at least the pace and expectations are less. The deadlines are more reasonable and there is more flexibility and my coworkers are great. Job security is greater, too, especially if you have a health disability.
The problem with this job is the very reason it is great. Very little urgency and outside stimulus. In other words, no adrenaline stimulus. It's really hard to motivate yourself when you reach the boredom stage and have to push yourself anyway. Similar to what you are experiencing but without the bosses yelling at you, I guess.
I've been at my current position for a year now. I was at my previous position for two years. At my old job things were a mess. I had no organization what so ever and had frequent arguements with my boss. Why did he keep me? I was dependable.
I started this job that I have now and the people I work for were very detailed and organized and that made a difference in my life. The lady that is over me stays on me about specific things because she knows my weaknesses when it comes to organization. I do financial work such as payroll, taxes, etc., so I have to make sure that the check book is balanced properly and everything else is done properly. I was out for two weeks recently due to surgery and came in here with so much behind that I didn't know where to start.
I was finally diagnosed with ADD last week and the concerta has made a great difference. I've finally gotten caught up and am now running smoothly into the current week. Which is a huge step for me because I'm always lagging behind.
Before all of this, I jumped from job to job. I had a good career going once as a dental assistant but blew that because of my disorganization and my lack of focus. My boss was on my arse constantly there.
I guess you just have to find the method that works for you. If I didn't have such a great support system here I would be out on my arse again.
Ive been at the same job for what will be 2 years in March (if I make it that far) and I am on my SECOND PIP (performance improvement plan) and everyone is telling me I can do it and I will be fine. I know its easy for THEM to say because they arent in the same predicament. On my first one I did really well (BTW I work at in Ivestment Firm and Im not dealing with stocks and mutual funds DIRECTLY. Just a lot of other 398458934 things that of course either I have never done before, or just cant remember.
Im so afraid of losing my job, I also have stayed late to double check my work to make sure its been done correctly (not putting the extra time on my timesheet of course). What I decided to do now is take the updated manual (I printed all 156 pages) and Im going to go through it all today/tonight and all day tomorrow. I will also put tabs on each section that I tend to forget the answers to.
The upside? Is that my boss has been really lenient with me and even researched for info on ADHD/Manic Depression/and Bi-Polar disorder. Which amazed me. Most bosses (as clearly stated in this post) wouldnt give a sh*t and just want you to get your work done!
I have more to say but usually after I post, the post dies so RIP post!! 