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If what I feel I should do is me adjusting to what I know is true or if what I feel I should do is merely an excuse to not have to do something uncomfrotable?

What I want to do is stay unemployed b/c the job that I have been given has a 3pm to 11pm shift and only makes about 10.75 an hour.  I have a degree from one of the best colleges in the country and I will be working hourly ( I quit a job as a teacher b/c I hated my boss -- each time she entered the room I would feel my pulse begin to race ... and for no good reason -- i'm an amazing teacher!).  The bad part isn't necessarily the pay it's the hours.  I cannot deal with waiting!  I feel like I will NEVER have any time to relax.  This is especially true b/c I won't really get weekends off.  I will work 7 days on, 2 off, 8 on, 4 off.  I don't know what to do.  I need money, but I don't know if I can handle the stress.  I have been crying all day!  I have actually beeing crying off an on for a month since I learned that they might want me for the job (paperwork takes a long time).  I hvae alwyas been bad w/ waiting -- I like getting the crappy things done first (e.g. I eat my veggies firstr and then move onto the good foods ... I get the harder work done first and then move onto easy things -- I cannot do it the other way!  I even eat my cake first and then save all of my frosting!  This is a way of life for me!).  Does anyone have any suggestions?  I cannot change shifts b/c there aren't any open.  Should I take the job and accept that this is who I am -- a person who cannot wait (not to mention the fact that I will NEVER see my significant other once i take this job) to go to work or deal with it?  My mother is on disability b/c she cannot work and i'm only 23 ... I don't want that for myself.  But, I don't know what to do!  help, please!

~Liz

If I were you I'd take it and keep looking for something else.  What kind of work is it and how badly do you need the money?  I personally get really anxious just thinking about being unemployed- heck, I got anxious and depressed when I tried to be a stay- at- home mom after the 2nd kid was born because I kept thinking something would happen to my dh and we'd have no income at all.

What did you teach?  I hear teachers are in high demand, but I know this is not usually the time of year teaching jobs open up.

In the mean time, here's a trick I use when I have to do something boring or unpleasant.  I'm constantly daydreaming anyway, so I make up little stories and pretend I'm someone else and that what I'm doing is hugely important and fascinating in my fantasy world- a little juvenile, sure, but it's gotten me through many long, boring tasks and jobs.