or i can build showers for a builder friend of mine,
no phone calls to owners vendors etc
sounds relaxing
hi guys
havent been on in a while ..
well went through my first year (work year) medicated.. i build custom inground pools.
what a difference between behavior management & meds (concerta 54mg) havent lost my keys in a year everything gets paid done on time, bills paid till june(fixed anyway) house is up to snuff... my concern is winter when i have nothing to do am i going to fall apart?
i look back what a mess i was for my whole life and cant belive it..
but on the other side of the coin i am me, is this act together stuff a front? have i even tricked myself?.. i suspect if i go off meds and doc visits i will regress to old me..
just want to repeat i havent lost my keys in a year!!!! (yeah BFD im 33 yrs old, lol) well if you know what i mean u know what i mean
ray
Well rayray, if you're concerned about falling apart during winter when you have nothing to do, I'm assuming you get a check during that time. If so, there are a lot of cold, hungry people out there and maybe you could volunteer some time to help feed the homeless or take meals to the elderly or any of a number of things out there that charities are looking for help with.
You know what its like to not have your life all together. I don't know how low you have actually been, but just the fact that you needed meds to help you control your life would give you a lot of empathy for people who are still struggling.
Congratulations on having a year of being in control. Even with meds, that is an achievement! Way to go!
Yeah, just stay busy...you could hit the gym everyday and get that killer bod. you've always wanted. 
The meds. aren't a cure but I wouldn't say they're a "front" either..maybe a temporary cure. You are you with or without them. They just clear the fog so more of you can come out..think clearly, plan, organize, start, follow through... Why would you want to stop that?!
Congratulations on your 1 year of no key hunting!
thanks!
still medicated, no plans or stopping.
concerta 54 mg & espresso