Are you passionate about something? | ADHD Information
This is a daily meditation book I'm writing, mArkY's mUmbLinGs. I've got about 60 more days to fill.
December 31st Shattering The Illusion Of Integrity Through Humility Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to other alcoholics and to practice these principles in all our affairs. (Step 12) Looking back at my days of looking ahead when I came to Alcoholics Anonymous, I see I was only looking out for myself by adhering to the code of behavior the court laid out for me. I didn't like it, and I felt the humiliation I suffered through being forced to show my face in a room full of drunks took away every ounce of my integrity. Oh, I thought integrity was given to me by what others thought of me, just as I thought humility was a shorter term for the humiliation you gave me if you saw me go into those AA meetings. I learned later on that the humiliation I felt coming from the eye of the beholder was because I had no humility. My pride would not have it... what will become of my integrity! Or in other words because of my misconception or illusion of what integrity is, what will people think of me. The true definition of integrity is; Rigid adherence to a code of behavior. Today, integrity to me is somthing achieved by setting my standards high, and doing my best to live by them. I fall short of these standards more than I like to admit, and my pride steps in to pinch-hit for my integrity with; we claim spiritual progress, not spiritual perfection, to justify my defects of character. This was ok by me until I read a statement Jesus made.....Be ye therfore perfect, even as your Father in heaven is perfect. And perfect to me doesn't mean flawless outcomes in all I attempt, it means I attempted to give it my best shot, and thats as close to perfect as I can get, and humbly knowing and admitting that gives me some integrity and peace of mind. Oh Dear God, Please free me from the bondage of my pre-concieved ideas, that I may be a man of integrity through humility, not a man of humiliation through forced integration.note
msn is having problems so none of the pictures I posted are visible. thats where I store my online pics. when it clears up they should appear.
You is funny !!
We should all have web-photos of us like that.
That's my story too Vickie. I get fired up about something, have all sorts of awesome, passionate ideas, and then move on before I've accomplished anything significant. I usually last about six months in any given job/career path. It stinks, but there have been lots of great mini-successes along the way so it's not all that bad.
It is common for those with ADHD to hyperfocus in one area and they move on to something else. My husband's hobbies have not changed much in the34 years that I have known him, while I get involved deeply in one thing after another (leaving a trail of unfinished things behind me).
I am inspired by your story, Kidd. Thank you for sharing it.
If you become unable to focus on what is presented to your senses, you cannot develope a passion for it, and things you did have a passion for become un-important.
I grew up with a passion for music and from age 12 to age 32, a guitar became a part of me, allowing me to communicate many feelings, ideas and emotions that I found difficult to express by speaking. I was shy and quiet, but put a guitar in my hand(s) and all reservations would melt away as I began sliding my soul through the strings, the sweet vibrance of the strings would fill my ears and words I could never say in conversation would slide effortlessly from my lips via the magic that happened when the guitar was in my hand. Don't tell anyone, but its a feeling like the one you get when your making love, you just don't want to stop, and couldn't even if you wanted to.
Then in 1986, I had an aotomobile accident in which I lost my left hand. For the next ten years my guitar laid dead in its case like a casket holding a loved one who would no longer be there to comfort or give support. In 1996 after 10 years of mental anguish fueled by self pity and alcohol, I was directed to Alcoloics Anonymous by a kindly judge with his panties all in a wad over drunken dorks. While attending AA meetings I met a few musicians, and while wathing them jam, I was captivated by a sound that startled my passion center. It was the sound of a guitar being played with a steel slide bar...sweeeeeeeet! I looked down at the steel hook that replaced my left hand and I could not get home quick enough to try, the passion was already back. No words can describe the feeling that washed over me as the strings that had been silent for ten years began sending back to me the things I'd held in for 10 years. Then, almost like magic I reached over and grabbed a deep-drive socket I had forgotten to put back in my tool box and was able to attach it to my hook. I live immersed in pasion today, passion for my music, passion for the love of the people who continued to go to AA and help others for nothing more than love, a passion for writing I never had before. Yes Trashman, there is passion after ADHD. peace, mark
Hi trashman, I ask myself that very question all the time.
I tell myself all the time how much I USED to be passionate about - so many things, but as I get older I feel like I am losing that part of me just dealing with day to day necessary activities. It is so frustrating. I just don't have time to be passionate about anything anymore. At least that's how I feel.
That said, there are times when I do feel it come back, and I have found that I've been able to combine an necessary everyday activity, cooking, with my need to be creative. I've unexpectedly become quite good at it (my husband is very grateful!) and am thinking of hopefully being able in the near future to somehow use this in my career. Who knows when that will be, with my scatter-brain!
thanks for a good thread start trashman and good posts posters...i feel passion coming back as i dici[line myself to have fun! does that sound like an oxymoran?
let me explain i used not feel any passion except to have orgaism. the books i like all say to have fun and spend more andmore time doing things around that. ideally find a way to support yurself invloving that activity.
for myself...i am useing the dicipline in the sense that i keep trying different avenues till get it right. so many things have come up and been dropped. small boat sailing is something i've always enjoyed an am now getting to do it in an affordable wayl. allowing my self to be less than perfect...tho secretely, i'd still like ohter to see me as an expert. lol
its great thrash that you are getting an early start. have you read hollowell/ratey book "delivered from distraction"? he is very specific about this topic and many others. the book is also avail on cd and mp3 keep posting trashman
I got into small boat sailing, but I had to give it up. They kept scuffing the the sides of the bathtub.Did I mention my passion to be owner/writer/editor for a great metropolitan comic book publishing company?
Pirate Hook Comics
Comics For The Happy, Joyous & Free Since 2003
"True laughter warms both the heart of the laugher and those who may hear them laughing." [Some Anonymous Nut]
Near the end of 2002 and a little over a year sober, I looked at an old photograph of AA founders Bill Wilson & Dr Bob Smith and they seemed to be saying something to me. So I pulled up my art program on the computer and gave them word balloons and began writing what they seemed to say. They made me laugh, and before long a stream of assorted characters began to show up... Bruiser, then Saddamit, even Floyd the barber from Mayberry who went insane and thinks his name is The Beaver appears from time to time. Soon, the idea of recording these happy moments into comic books to share with others became a reality.... because today I’m a do’er.
I hope you enjoy this book. It is in no way intended to be disrespectful towards AA, for it is only through the miracle of recovery through AA that I am here to laugh... that I am here at all. Thank You
In Loving Service, KIDD
I am PASSIONATE about MOVIES...I have an almost encyclopedia-like mind for movies, but the motivation comes & goes...Sometimes, esp. when seeing movie trailers, or reading Script sales news or the annual 100 Most Powerful People in Hollywood issue of Entertainment weekly...I get stoked about finishing ALL my screenplays...
Unfortunately, I get Bogged the #%&@* down again in day to day mediocrity and Bull#$@% and the energy & focus goes out the window...
Sad part is that at least once a day, I daydream that some millionaire/movie mogul will overhear me talk about my ideas for movies & say, "Here...I'll pay all your bills for a year & all you have to do is JUST WRITE."
Sad, huh?
The other thing I am passionate about is Music...specifically Old School Funk/Soul/R&B...(did I mention I'm a hell of a Songwriter too?)
That's me Jack of all trades, ADD-Master of None...
hey all
great thread trashman!
what an amazing thread kiddrock ur an inspiration
my passion is golf always has been. its like sex when its perfect and god it takes all your talents for it to be perfect, but it doesnt stay for long.
breedlowe , i reckon u could be a frustrated writer, just start writing something.
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Hello, I am 32 male with unDx ADD. I am seeing the Dr. on monday. Anyway I had a question for all you adults. Because of jumping around from one interest to another I have a hard time answering this question: "Am I passionate about anything?" Do you have the same problem? I always get bored with my job or business ventures. I thought if I could find something that I was passionate about maybe I could feel successful.
Eager to read your responses!
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I want to see the image and I can't.
uh... make fun...
travel and seeing other cultures.
I love science.
And cooking is another one.
And I love nature and love being outdoors.That's when I feel at peace.
And I love computer gaming too,when indoors.
And I love exotic music and flamenco and belly dancing.
I guess I'm passionate about alot of things.
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