my f... up life | ADHD Information

Don't give up!! Keep goin...As some ppl tell me don't give up until u actually get tired..but anyways if u ever want to let off steam u can always email me...I have been told that I am a good listener....ur pal neldyprivate message me anytime to chat okI'm not... my case is not so bad that I need anything they say. But it doesen't help me much at all just to know something is wrong. I still need to do something about it, and I can't do that on my own. And I really have a problem asking for more help
Today I've just been inside smoking and writing on my computer, I have tons of things to do and to read. I really try, but I can't!!! I have no concentration what so ever! I have some paperworks that has to finish tomorro afternoon, and there is no way I can do that before tomorrow morning! I try over and over again to do things different, but it just doesen't work! I'm not very stupid or anything, even if I did absolutely nothing through elementary school and high school, I ended up with good grades, and that got me in to a good university, but it seems I can not get out of here
I was supposed to finish three years ago!
I get so fu.... angry about everything!!!! I have so much energy inside, but I can't really use it for any good!
My life is just such a mess, and everybody is asking me when I'm supposed to get a organized life, and they are telling me I'm too old to keep in this track, but I don't se any solutions at all

AAAARRRGGHHHHH , , GRRRRRRRRRR, AAARRRGGH .  Aaah.

Dont blame you, it can be a loneyly existance. .

Are you on meds?

My life is just f... up! I have been studying for ever now and I never finish. I can not consentrate at all. Every time I try to read or write something that has to do with my studies I find myself lost in another place. Nobody belives it to be a problem for me, they just think I'm lazy and to occupied with doing everything else. I really try! All my friends are finishing, and I'm still here. I don't get any money for studying anymore, so I'm in deep trouble when it comes to the economical thing.
I read so many of your stories in this forum and I feel I can really relate to so much of it. The pot smoking and money problems, and above all problems with relationships. I'm very lucky because I have a lot of friends, but I can not see myself with a boyfriend on long term. I just get so easily bored of persons who I am in a relationship with.
But the worst thing is that nobody around understand that I actually have a huge problem, and I don't know what to do about it, and I see no end of it. I can not focus on anything at all. I get aggressive and start breaking things around me (and that is kind of embarrising because I'm too old to react like that now) I feel like a small baby some times. And I can not control my feelings at all. I get so easily frustrated and angry I don't know what to do.

By the way, I hope you understand my english (I'm not english)

I just had to get all of this off my mind (but it didn't help very much )

thank's anyway for "listening"