Prayer:
May you find a path to contributing your talents, that minimizes your weaknesses, and accentuates your abilities. May you find peace in walking the path, as ther are varying degrees of rewards and challenges presented to you.
I answered your post with some suggestions in the Men's section also.
Hello, my ADD family...
I haven't posted in a while, but tonight I had to...My self esteem is taking an a**whooping today, so i gotta get this out...
I have been under-employed(or unemployed) for months now...We have an infant & My wife has had to shoulder a lot of the financial burden lately & it is affecting her as much as me...
I'm college educated but have had to resort to taking a lowly job that doesn't even pay an hr...I have emailed & submitted resumes for HOURS @ a time for months now...And still haven't landed anything significant.
Tonight was ESPECIALLY gut-wrenching...I literally had to FORCE myself to keep going...
Now, don't misunderstand...I am NOT lazy or afraid of work...I just KILLS me to have to do work that should mainly be for Teenagers...I don't feel dignified & let's not even get into the whole "manhood as it relates to income" issue...My wife knows I'm trying, but like I said, i know it's affecting her as well, which REALLY Stabs my pride in the heart...
It HURTS knowing you are meant for BIGGER BETTER things & feeling TRAPPED in mediocrity...I want to CRY but can't find the tears...
I have SO MANY talents & skills & picture myself daily as a millionaire...Like many of you, I have all the attributes needed to be a "Success", yet the sometimes crippling symptoms of my ADD(along w/my damaged self esteem) seem to sabotage any seeds of hope...I try & keep myself motivated by reading THINK YOURSELF RICH by Joseph Murphy, THINK & GROW RICH by Napoleon Hill, & PSYCHO-CYBERNETICS 2000 by Maxwell Maltz( I'd recommend all these books to everyone).
I've watched YEARS of my life go by...bouncing from Mediocre Job to mediocre job(Just got home from the latest about 3 hrs ago)...NONE of them getting me any closer to my dreams(of being a screenwriter, of being Financially INDEPENDENT ONCE & FOR ALL)...While I toil away at a job where I am criminally underpaid & WAY, OVERQualified, I die a little more inside everyday...Wish to HEAVEN I could quit, But I have a wife, a kid, & a mortgage...Imagine Kevin Spacey in AMERICAN BEAUTY except w/out the career or better yet, Peter from OFFICE SPACE(minus the humor) & You get My Life...I am SO miserable. When will I ever get off the merry-go round?
Please everyone, PRAY 4 me...I need your collective energies...I will pray 4 u all as well...
Peace & thanks for "listening".