Dear Punkhorse, your concern: "I'm afraid that if I stop taking it that things will never be how they were before the drug." is very understandable and I'm sure very strong in you.
When you see the doctor, tell him or her all that you've shared with us, especially this concern. I expect you will be greatly relieved to find that the doctor wants to work along with you to find something that helps you feel better and won't simply stop all your medication. Dropping you from Adderall with no "parachute" may be the greatest fear in your mind right now and may be keeping you from seeking help--but I'm sure you're going to find that this is not the case.
I am 16 and adderall has basically taken over my life. I don't like the person that I have become because of it. I'm miserable while I am on it but even more miserable when I'm off it. I know I need to quit but I'm addicted and the withdrawls are bad enough to make me suicidal. I need help but I don't know who to go to or what to do. Is anyone else having this problem?
Tell your parents. Call your doctor. Right now. The med is obviously not the one for you, and apparently not doing its intended purpose any longer.
I have had those problems, not with Adderall, but with other stuff. Firstly, if you are miserable while using it, it must not be what you need. And if you find you can't stop using it without becoming so depressed that suicide seems like a solution, your probably an addict. I am. I'm also ADHD and take an addictive substance to control it... as perscribed, and it works well for me. I have also spent some time in mental wards before I quit drinking and taking drugs because I was suicidal. I got help there, and when I got out the last time I started going to AA/NA meetings. You may want to go to a few meetings and check it out. And if your down this low that a peminent solution to a temporary problem sounds like the only way to go {suicide}, get ahold of the mental health agency in your community, only you can can do this for yourself. Its good that you've reached out, don't wait too long to grab a hand, there will be pleanty to grab onto. good luck punk
Thanks for the quick replies. I guess I'm just lost because it worked so well in the beginning and I always took it as directed and never abused it ever. After things started to get bad I took myself off of it thinking things would get better and everything just got worse. I blamed it on stress and lack of willpower but then two weeks later when I started back up things got a little better. When I'm on it I'm not happy at all, but at least I get myself to class and to the barn to see my horse and little things like that. When I'm off it I am completley miserable and I feel like I can't do anything and don't even bother going to class because I know I wont get anything out of it. Horses used to be my life but recently I've just lost any motivation I had previously. I know I should probably tell my parents and get myself off the drug, but I'm afraid that if I stop taking it that things will never be how they were before the drug.
But a good doctor can help you find the right med or meds to help you feel like you should. You could probably do with some counseling as well. If you can't talk to your parents, try to talk to a teacher or school counselor. It sounds like depression, which often co exists with ADHD. Please keep us posted, ok?