yes I get way focused on little errors .so focused the rest of my environment is fogged . well if someone disses me i stress then my mind is amiss with a flood of memories. I self diagnosed my add . maybe i better have it checked agian- i was given meds based on memory problems.
im not as forgetful as i just cant recall quickly. I do rember alot compared to nters
all human brains are more busy forgetting unimportant things.like how many lines do you see in the middle of the road today. can you evenactually remeber one at all or is it a thought trying to acknowlege that know what im talking about , savants can tell you how many there were sometimes.
IMO IN MY OPINION
I believe adders are more cognitivly mis qued .listening skills are key factorswhen trying be self disiplined.
one of my problems is not understanding cognitivly what someone wants me to understand . then when they come back with thier hands in the air saying why didnt you. I have to reprocess the whole conversation and formulate all the paralles of what they were trying to say and listen to this new info with stress.
Ive learned to jump ahead and not focus on my ill conversation.but to start working out a tangent accomodation.i think most nters multi task in step with eachother But i a have adapted to work outside nters conventional methods.
you know one step back two steps forward.
As a guard i think i could excel unless the boss is nter conservitive. you know his way or no way.
dam my life is calling g2go
man am i out on the limb today . i dicovered this just about the time that my carrers has folded up into a start over. my wife is using it to point me down and pin me. stress stress stress
My wife totally fdismisses my add tendencies , i live with a woman that compounds my probles with stress , isolation and clutter dominance.
I put everthing i post here in a text outline view on a mind map . give me great ability to put everything in perspective
damn i just couldnt leave the post alone , i had to ADD more to what was already too much.I may need to get back on meds. thanks everyone for tolerating my long shift posts.
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yea im all over the place and sometimes is how i talk only not so clearly.
I just found this site just when my life is in turmoil so im a little shaken up.
I once heard an expert say that when people keep interupting you they are seeking your approval.
i think adders get caught up in the i gotta say it before i forget it conversations that are similar conversations.
I sometimes talk to my family like im taking my turn to speak even though its nothing at all to do with the conversation they are having with me. I sometimes dont even pay attention to what they are saying but thinking while their talking so i can be ready to say more when they pause. more over i was thinking as my vigor for posting raw unedited thoughts here sudsides as the newness wears off . i see this site as nearly an obsession for now . I know im going to back on meds soon its been nearly 4 years . that i can reinvent the wheel - rewrite my responses and compare them . I dont know what that will be exposed for me but it may help me to see some of my difficuties while off meds. I know what the doctors think but i need to know it for myself too. while i was on meds i would try to talk to pharmacy techs at 333 in the morning and they would annoying tolerate my presence and unloading of opinions. I remember saying i cant tell im on the meds but i can tell when im off them --.
Sammo39156.493275463Ok i got a job . 3rd shift keeping teen sex offenders inline with thier treatments from 12-8am . sort of a guard . I definatly got to get back on meds.
I made a list of one hundred places one night while driving around droping off resumes.The ones i thought suited me and had a third shift first. i enterd them in the computer so i could keep track of submitted applilications person to talk to and my call logand make notes during calls without having to create them during the call being mis focused .
I spent a second night going up to the business at nght and just having a chat with whomever was there . getting info like what are they looking for what qualifications do the jobs require.Money. just to be picky i would notice the cars in the parking lot if they are all crap mobile then a good chance ill be in a crap mobile too.
I got out five application out fits and two interview out fits .
1 because if i were all laid the night before i wouldnt wonder around all moring cleaning and getting distractedand maybe not even goingat all.
so a shower the night before and clothes ready to go . Made me feel very confident just getting out the door.
resumes ready to go all my references in check *I didnt go to my most wanted job until tuesday at 10 am. but practiced with the other interviewers to gain confidense. firm hand shake and a idea of what i could do for them.
I would look up on line what they do . think about the entire workforce there and go interogate similar companies that are out of my commute range .pretend to be a customer and get familar with thier products . I picke one a week to focus on.i ve accepted the position at the facilitybut i think i would be better off in a group home as the third shift staff.but this would be a good entry point for that type of career. I get to be home with my little girl after her morning preschool .
I just canyt help not noticing my reliance on other people to build up my confidence to be ready for an interview. I emerse myself in the whole process until it feels natural. I know chance favors those whom are prepared. so i prepare myself for that one place and drop off resumes at - at least two businesses next to the one im applying for.
did i mention ive been clean and sober since 11:59:59 /12/ 31/1999
I had a hard time giving up some vices FOREVER! so i allowed myself to go out every other new years with the old gang.
submitting a drug test is not a problem.
while im on the subject i truly believe that with well achievable dreams we dont need liesure drugs at all. just think about your passion dreams and similar emotions are evoked. emotions are like bottles of feeling. alcohol feels like forgetting. hemp feels like wOw . Music feels like whaterever you want.
well sammi is demanding paint box computer time got to go
Sammo39156.4998263889I see alot of people here with some of same problems.I would like some help finding a job . Or at least hear some stories about getting jobs.
I've lost my job after 18 years , I have to start over , im depressed . I have no money - im not asking for money nor would accept it. I need to work and support a small family . any bit of advice would help. Even if its sarcastic . I live in indianapolis, indiana, usa. I want to work on third shift. as a guard. but seems a little funny when i think about it .
an ADD guard. LAM (laughing at myself).
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