The tale of a single mom | ADHD Information

From time to time I like to write thoughts and reflections of what I am feeling. Currently I have been dealing with loneliness. It's not at like I feel like I have to have a man in my life, but I miss having someone to tell me it's going to be okay. I am not sure if anyone else is going through this, but I felt like sharing a little. I deal with anxiety and depression myself. I often wonder if I will ever find anyone that would be a right match for me. It would have to be a real special person. Not only to deal with me, but to be a good influence and support to my children. I am scared often that I may never find a mate that will truly understand my dd situation. Not many people would willing take on the trials and tribulations of having a special needs child. Just feeling a little discouraged. Thanks for letting me share.

Alone in her room...she pours out her heart

So afraid of this new life she must start,

Crying, praying , hoping, wishing,

She closes her eyes

Drifting away to sleep she sighs

Here they come, here they come!  The dreams from afar

Carrying her to the depths of her heart

It is broken and weary, but it beats...it beats

It beats for her children so innocent and sweet,

It beats to protect them from pain and grief

Lonely, she is lonely

sad and alone

she has no one to turn to, no comfort

no mate waiting at home

She yearns for arms to hold her and ease her weary soul

She is scared for the future for she knows not what it holds

She wakes in the morning full of doubt and wonder

she glances at her children while they still slumber

Her heart still beats...it beats

It beats for her children so innocent and sweet

It beats to protect them from pain and grief



Wonderwoman





Wonderwoman39173.8582407407thanks for sharing... it sounds like you have found a way to express your thoughts  

That was a beautiful Pome. Thanks for sharing!!

You will find some one who loves you for you and dd for just being her self. Make sure you take time to make your self feel special. Thats when I feel I have to most controll over my situation Is when I feel at my best!! I will h=keep your heart in my prayers!!

Wow! Thanks for sharing.  Definately sounds like you found a way to express your feelings. 

((hugs))

I really relate to your poem.  Thank you for sharing it with us.  I used to write poems a long time ago.  It has been a very long time since I have.

I am in a bad situation with my husband (he lives 4 states away from us).  I just want you to know that you are not alone.  I share many of the same feelings.  Especially when my son is throwing one of his tantrums, I keep thinking, no one is going to ever understand this, no one will ever put up with this, sad to say, not even his father does.

Thanks for opening up and sharing your wonderful poem.  You are wonderful!!

I am married and feel like this at times!  Having a ADHD in the family is a battle for us all.  If the world could accept these kids as people who just think in another way, how much better we all would be.  We are forever having to shoulder this guilt and apologise.  We shouldn't have to. 

Trust and believe that life will improve.   Be open and the puzzle piece you are searching for will appear!

Be strong and remember that you are valuable and worthy of love.

Hi Wonderwoman! I just wanted to let you know that you aren't alone in this although I know it seems like it sometimes. I'm 29 now, had my son at 18. His behavior was always so bad that I never thought anyone would want to deal with me...or him. When I first met my boyfriend, I thought he would never want to see me again the way my son was acting and treating him. At one point, he went in the room having a tantrum over something silly screaming "I hate you-you idiot" blah blah at 8 yrs. old. I was so embarrassed and like oh great, there goes this one. The funny thing is, he was the one telling me to be patient, he's adjusting, etc. Now after 2 1/2 yrs, things are a little better. I don't know if they'll ever have a great relationship but it is bearable. Plus me and my son don't have a great relationship, so I don't think I could expect too much more. Anyway, before my boyfriend came along (and still), I talk my grandmother's head off. Although she may not have dealt with a child like this before, she has been great support. Sometimes I call her more than once a day just to talk and have someone to listen who will always hear me out without judging. If you at least have that ONE person in this world you can talk to, that's all you need. The rest will come in it's due time. Hang in there.

p.s. Great poem. It almost made me cry.

Wonderful poem and a wonderful outlet for your feelings.  I used to write a lot of poems years ago, but have gotten away from it.  Thanks for everyone that commented.                                    

Sammo,

That is so beautiful!