WHEN YOUR AT THE LICSENCE BRANCH trying to get out of a late fee.
When you forget you're moms birthday.
When you spend youre spouses money on something you really want and try to play it off.
ommas39239.2758680556 But are those really excuses? OR did ADD actually play a big part in why these things happened?
well icant blame adhd for everything in my life so yes , but my mothers birthday is the day before christmas and i just didnt want to talk that day so i said adhd!
procrastinating beyond a deadline that i must pay every year- i thought well ill pay this last day before the deadline just to spend a few more hours with daughter having so much fun at the playground but still said ADHD like as if they knew what adhd is.
i ripped her off plain and simple 0 of my own part of our money that i simply blamed on adhd. i wanted an auger a bought one and said adhd
there are times i use adhd as an excuse ashamed but open to admit it.
but it does bring up a quote i just heard ten minutes ago ,
selective adhd syptoms i nearly fell over.
all this time and she thinks i choose my inattentivnesses. god thats got to be a mispelling . any way i think i choose my obsessions and with determination can use a reminder system to compensate, but i have to face the fact that even if i pull off being positive and in tune with my environment and peoples i cant sustain it past the get to know the real me phase. i get ackward and unconventional. im a sore thumb with others . from her point of view i see the path of her logic but selective i wish i could be in at least that much control.
ive lost it folks . i cant see any further into my adhd than this .
if i could select my deficits i would forget feeling like a loser. forget the times ive been laughed at as i turn my back and walk away from something poorly phrased.
i would select to forget the times ive burned my bridges over things i invited.
forget to mad when a raging motorist ups me out my lane.
. fact is i tried to map my life out in every detail down to ten minute periods. for thirteen weeks , shopping cleaning , studing
it made me very productive but impossible to live with and isolated in my own home. now i feel the same way only im completely opposite . lazy and unsupportive. except to my dd.
i would select to not interupt my bosses everytime they open up to me.
thing is , i cant seem to select what to remember or what to forget.
but i do know when its adhd and not simple oversighting as it occurs . and i feel like ive sunk a little deeper everytime. only the comment about being selective makes me think she thinks i have more control than i do. depression and adhd is making me ignore certain things that i should of let go of.
sigh
if could take a step everytime i experienced an attention defict i would select to go to adhd news where they actually are and thank them for allowing us-me to be open with eachother about adhd. i have a much clearer view of my tendencies other than just my personal traits.
sorry to leave this unfinished but i got to go to work now
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