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I cross posted in Women with ADHD but would appreciate anyone's
response...

Did you go through anything similar to this?

I posted an intro already but here is a brief summary. I took an online
screening on a whim, because I KNOW I have horrid organizational skills
and have stress about not getting things done. I took several online
assessments as well, ALL came back with high scores for add/adhd, to be
honest I am not sure what type I supposedly have. My family dr gave me a
confirmation very quickly by barely browsing the assessments. He has
ADD himself. Really, he didn't ask me a single question and this was my
first appt with him, though we have met before (my kids go to him).

So, it has not even been a full week since I took that first screening. Now I
am on Wellbutrin, only my second day of a 150 mg dose. I am to increase
to 300 mg after 7 days. Yesterday I thought it was GREAT. I swear I was
more clear, calm and focused immediately.

Today, I think I am freaking crazy. I go back and forth between:
1. I am just depressed.

2. I am lazy.

3. My 3 year old is just really irritating and it makes me crazy.

4. I am stressed because my husband has his own issues which have
taken a bigger toll on me than I realized.

5. I am just looking for an excuse for any failures in my life. For example,
I got A's, B's, C's or even D's all through school, depending on my
interest. Yet my sister, she got straight A's and became a brain surgeon,
then wrote a book!!! Why the huge difference?!

6. Yes, I do have add/adhd. Just accept it and go from there. Relax, you
are only a day into meds.

7. No, I am just a loser.

8. Yes, I have add.

9. No, I don't.

10 Yes, I do.

Do you get what I am saying?? Is this normal? Did you go through this and
finally realize you did have an accurate diagnosis and things got better?
How long before I can understand if I do or do not have ADD??

How much should I worry about my dr's quick diagnosis? Should I just be
happy I didn't have to go through rigorous and expensive testing?

Thank you so much for any replies. Thanks to both of you. I am trying to just relax and see how the meds work
for a few weeks. For crying out loud, it has only been a day and a half!

Thanks!

Doctors have different ways of diagnosing patients. My kid's psychiatrist would let me start a trial of treatment if I wanted, just from his interactions with me during visits for the kids, etc. Stress makes the brain less efficient and can make ADHD symptoms worse, or make the meds not work as well. Antidepressants are used as a 3rd line treatment for ADHD and can be very effective, especially if there is concern of anxiety or depression.

Second guessing is normal. You seem to be torn between realizing you need help and the drive to be independent and "strong" and not need help. Take the help; take care of yourself; it will help you be a better parent (there are studies supporting this).

Good luck on this journey, you will find help and support on these forums.

Hey there, me again!  I saw where they gave you the Wellbutrin, watch your symptoms, if you continue to feel the anxiety that you were describing, it may not be the med for you.  The side effects of the wellbutrin can cause heightened anxiety and depression.  I know, great thanks for telling me that my wonder drug might be putting me over the edge!!  I felt great for the first few weeks, then it seemed like my body was over it.  My dr. raised my dose, I did that for another month, felt ok, but a little over anxious at times of stress with my "wonderful" husband as well..I had to wean off the meds due to hair loss and when I came off of it, I was really really tired. 

The best person to evaluate ADD/ADHD is a Psychiatrist.  I personally am not fond of the stigma attached with seeing one, but on the other hand, I don't like to be depressed, feeling that I'm a looser, inadequate, etc.....I completely understand where you are coming from.  Watch the meds see how they go, it usually takes a few weeks for them to fully work.  If you are still feeling a sense of hopelessness, I would definitely address it with your dr.

Best wishes to you!!!

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<FONT face="Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif" size=2>gridley,
yeah, you compressed into two days the same questions, uncertainty and
misgivings I had over the course of 6 months.  I, too, got a "quicky"
diagnosis by a psychiatrist, started meds, saw improvement and all, but
still wasn't able to leave the lingering questions alone as to whether I
really, really had it.  So I did the neuropsych testing thing, which came to
same positive conclusion.  That pretty much settled things for me, even
though I don't think the current neuropsych tests use are worth a dime in
diagnosing adults for adhd.

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Thanks for the comments. I am still struggling with "Do I or Don't I??" I
just posted in the women with ADD section about being a stay at home
mom and how incredibly frustrating it is.. because everything takes so
long to do. I wonder if I get so frustrated with my kids and my life
because I have ADD; or if I just fit the characteristics of ADD right now in
my life because I happen to be home with kids which is frustrating to lots
of people!

Thanks again for the comment though!

 

gridley, yeah, you compressed into two days the same questions, uncertainty and misgivings I had over the course of 6 months.  I, too, got a "quicky" diagnosis by a psychiatrist, started meds, saw improvement and all, but still wasn't able to leave the lingering questions alone as to whether I really, really had it.  So I did the neuropsych testing thing, which came to same positive conclusion.  That pretty much settled things for me, even though I don't think the current neuropsych tests use are worth a dime in diagnosing adults for adhd.

I saw a therapist for awhile after being diagnosed.  The dx brough on so many mixed emotions, and while I was elated to finally learn exactly what was wrong with me, and my whole life, I knew there was something different going on with me, I was extremely depressed to realize that I wasn't going to one day wake up and have it all "together", like everyone else.  After several sessions, I realized that I'm there, with just a little different twist on it.  Now,  I wake up, take a pill, and in about an hour, I'm just together as everyone else.