Uninsured
I am a 22 year old recent college graduate. I am a miserable unemloyed loser with no health insurance. I am almost positive I have adhd. Some of my friends and professors have expressed concern and suggested that I get tested. I think my life would be so much better if I got tested and got the proper help and guidance. The problem is I have no health insurance. I'm in a catch 22. I don't have the attention span to get a freaking job but I need a full time job so I can get some f-ing health insurance and get tested. It takes me days to write just one cover letter. So I don't know what to do. Can I by my own insurance? How do I do that? I really really need help but my family isn't doing anything to help.
College was miserable for me. I've never read a book unless you count kid books. I have boxes of books that I've bought but never read. I think I've read about 4-10 pages of a million different books. I go to book stores all the time hoping that, "This time I will be able to read a book" but nothing ever gets better. I want soooooooo badly to enjoy a book but I can sit there for hours and hours and read only two pages. It's really frustrating that my brother who hates reading can read a required book for class. My brother can read a book he doesn't even want to read and I can't even read a book that I want to read. It's so unfair. I know I would have LOVED college if I had just had an attention span. Even after years of failure I still have a love for learning. I'm interested in politics and history. I wish I could pursue my love of learning but I can't so I am miserable and BORED. I have all this energy that's being stifled.
I hate my mother. I have spent my whole life listening to my mother yelling at me about how lazy and apathetic I am but I am the total opposite. I'm interested in so many things but I can't focus myself. I am ambitious and energetic but I can't seem to focus my energy. My aunt thinks I'm not the brightest crayon in the box. She tried to comfort me by saying, "You're not cut out to be a career woman but it's okay." I used to think I was stupid but now I'm beginning to think that maybe I am not so dumb. I managed to make it through college at least. That's not so bad for someone who can't concentrate on anything. However, I probably wouldn't have made it through college without the kindness of my professors. They were the ones who let me turn in my papers late. I always turned in my papers several weeks late. No matter how hard I tried I was always daydreaming in class, even when I was very interested in the material. Taking notes was always a disaster. My classmates would always have pages of notes while I only had a few lines. One of my profs described me as "going in eight different directions at once." Oddly enough, a lot of my professors absolutely loved me despite my terrible academic habits. I like to think it's maybe because they saw something in me. Maybe my professors loved my enthusiasm or maybe they saw some potential in me. I don't want to keep believing that I am stupid. I know I could have done a lot better in school if I had had an attention span. I feel like I was ripped off. I could have been happy but it was robbed from me.
So is there any way I can buy my own insurance? I'm thinking once I get tested and get help I will be able to find a job more easily. I can't afford the testing and medication on my own. I can't concentrate on anything. Even writing this simple message was a hard task. My mind was drifting when I was writing this. I have low self-esteem and I am very unhappy. Can someone please give me advice on health insurance, getting tested, coping with these problems, etc.? I am desperate and it would be nice to talk to someone who is in or has been in a similar situation.
I am in a very similar situation, like yourself i have not found very promissing answers.
I am 25 and still trying to graduate college. However since starting medication (Adderall) a year ago, i am on a much faster path to graduation. However i do not have any insurance and even my generic meds cost me about 65 dollars a month.
What i am mostly worried about is what i am going to do after graduation. Right now i have free service for seeing the Dr through my University. Becuase Adderall is such a highly controlled substance there are no refils on perscriptions and i have to have an office visit every month. Once i graduate i do not know where to go where i can afford a doctors visit on top of perscriptrion costs. I have looked into it and social services for mental heath seems to sadly be non-existant. If anyone knows of a solution i would also be very glad to hear it.
I feel your pain!
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