Some people know that for along time i been feeling fat inside and still feel i am fat, and it upsets me when people call me fat and i found out on july 11,2007 how much i weigh and i was at doc. office i weigh now 165 pounds.

I feel my clothes don't fit me that good.

I feel so so so down about myself.

in 2004 i was weighing 108 -133 pounds i felt better about myself when i weighed like that.

But now i feel so so bad about myself and makes me depressed about my weight and makes me want to cry because it is so depressing.
I wish i was never on the paxil cr, it made me gain weight and now it left effects on me from that and zoloft is better for me.

Most of you know about how the paxil cr was making me have electric shocking in my head and body, and that was really dangerous i feel that was, and caused me to have seizures. I am doing okay. I am not have many problems with that kind of stuff like seizures.

I wrote this a while back on a board somewhere else on a site .

I found out on November 8,2007 , I weigh now 180 pounds.  This is worrying me what is wrong or what you all think of this. I know it is not normal i been on zoloft since July 18,2006.

I take now only ritalin 3 times a day and 20 mgs for my combined type adhd.

I take 100 mgs of zoloft for my post traumatic stress disorder,depression,panic disorder. I take 0.5 mgs of risperdal for my nightmares and it helps alot and all my meds i take are helping me.