hello there.......

Hey!

I really hate it when people assume they have a medical condition/disorder by self diagnosing and I can understand it must be reeeeally annoying to be diagnosed and have some person who has just read a few internet pages(ok.....maybe 200 or so......I tend to occasionally get obsessed and engrossed with surfing the internet....) comeonto your support forum and start going "OMGGG I THINK I HAVE IT!!!!!!!) but.......

I can sort of really get what you are all saying apart from a few aspects.

The bits which aren't me would be that as a kid I wouldn't say I was that hyperactive, not really a troublemaker at school. I tended to speak non stop at home though, I used to drive my brother insane. I was however extremely sensitive and shy so that could explain my quietness.

The only things that were my trouble at school were disorganisation(chronic), daydreaming, lateness(work and in the mornings........although i never really did the homework unless i really liked the topic.......i got 50 out of 50 in an art project which consisted of the poem the lady of shalott rewritten in modern english and illustrated....which i obsessively worked on when i was 13.....pointless detail....)

um.....my lack of ability to reach my true potential and apply myself, the occasional talking in class when i was in my hyperactive moods. I got good grades despite my lack of work and last minute efforts. This got harder as I went through school......probably because it is pretty tricky to do well in a chemistry A level (from the uk, exam you take at 18ish) without paying attention all year or doing anywork. I did well in Art and managed an A despite my awful organisation skills, although the teacher took me asside and told me how i could have done better and how dissapointed she was. That really upset me.

I've seen a psychiatrist therapist etc before for depression/anxiety and selfharming. I was on antidepressants whichdidn't help but made me so tired and the withdrawal was awfullllllll.......(effexor is evil........) They would slow down my thoughts for the first few weeks maybe but that was it.

My depression isn't so bad these days although sometimes the tiniest thing sets me off and I will literally get suicidal. I don't act on it because I wouldn't want to ruin my mum's life. The main reason I get depressed is my social anxiety, I can't help but be the kooky weird one. I'm either quiet or I'm coming out with quite inappropriate comments.

Currently studying for a degree

I find lectures...actually I have no idea about lectures as 80-90% of thetime I'm off in my own world. Usually doodling......or there is this rather nice guy....hmm...

Seminars I find quite boring most of the time .... i feel awful saying this but people always seem a little slow. My focus is awful but I've always been good at getting to the point without all the middle crap. The middle crap isgreat for making the point mind you.

I'm crap at socialising with new people. I think I must lack some basic social skills as I never know what to say. There are a very minor few I click with.

I hate myself for being such a loner, and how bad I am at doing work and how sensitive I am. University was meant to be a new start....... I've always had awful selfesteem... I'm trying to work on it though. I don't know. I've no idea why I've posted. I'm kinda hyperactive tonight.....ok most nights, I amzingly managedwhat should have two hours work in 15minutes....it's a rare thing but at least it happens otherwise I'd be doomed.

I've always had the worst sleep patterns too, i'd lay awake at night ,my mind racing, tapping the walls...... but during the day i've always been falling asleep. No matter how may times i've attempted to readjust my sleep pattern... i swear it's  impossible...

anyway, even if i get no replies (i don't seriously expect anyone to read this all)

I'd just like to say hello......and oh yeah do you think it'spossible despite certain areas that I might be ADD.?I know I shouldn't ask that considering you aren't trained health professional (well some of you might be) but you have experience even if it is highly subjective.

Hi! I never considered ADHD until my son was diagnosed.  He behaves very well but can't pay attention to save his life.  I read a book  titled "Driven to Distraction" by Edward Hallowell M.D.  I tell you the story of the lady who seriously procrastinated sounded exactly like me.  I have never been diagnosed by a Dr. but from reading this book and taking a test online I'm pretty sure I have ADHD and I also have depression.

I will at times fall asleep in the daytime and can not fall asleep at night.  I usually rub my feet together until I fall asleep.  People will talk to me and then all of a sudden I realize I was notpaying attention Etc.

Welcome!

Sorry! I meant to give you links.

Amenclinic.com or brainplace.com

borntoexplore.com

It only took me 15 minutes to read your post I kept loosing my place  LOL!

From what you were saying you sound a lot like me and I am ADHD! I was diagnosed in my early twenties I always knew I had something. It made such a big change in my life I was put on meds I can actually finish the projects I started, held a job for longer than 6 months. Although not everyone is successful with medication.

Tamara