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Jon is coming home this afternoon.

. That's wonderful.

Thats just wonderful Randy!!

 

 Keep us posted!!

It's a new day for all of you!! BPQW39549.4769212963How wonderful! So glad to hear this good news. Obviously this is great!  I'll confess that I've searched this board to find out what happened and can't find any info.  randyjim, I've been following what's going on with you guys as best I can with the limited time I can get here and am pulling for you!

Hi Y'all. Boy, it is so great to have Jon home. He is OK, a little quieter but still feisty. He went to bed with no problem tonight but still asked if I am going to stay up outside his room on the computer.

Once, he got upset because of something my 9 y/o said about playing outside. Then he asked me if I was going to send him back to the hospital. I told him the hospital wasnt punishment, it was because we loved him so much that we wanted to make sure he wouldn't hurt himself or kill himself. I believe he understood and tomorrow he is going to write all about his time there with me scribing.

I had a good meeting with the social worker. We get a lot of opportunities to utilize many of their services from now on. So Jon can go to counseling, the other children can go to group counseling, we can go also. Plus, I think there are art classes for self expression. I wish he weren't away but I am so glad that he was. He is not on any ADHD meds- they don't work well on him after a month or so. He is on depakote and he just started zoloft. I am weaning him from the clonidine per his doctor. I went and purchased some L-Arginine (an amino acid) and lavender oil and selenium supplements.

I will let you all read his slant on what happened to him in the hospital tomorrow.

Thanks for your support and prayers. I missed him so much I don't think I will ever look at him again the same way. I kept walking into his room when he wasn't here and it was sooo very empty. He completes us as a family.

After a rough night with Jon in my room complaining about everything, it is finally morning and he is in full swing- literally and figuratively. He is banging on walls, screaming, pulling faces and generally being a 'pita' (pain in the a...). I don't know whether he is testing to see whether he is sent back to the hospital or he is just still out of control but I fear it is that he is still out of control.

And, here's Jon. His words:

I feel superstar. My brain is feeling cuckoo. My brother and sister are annoying me too much. Vista is so stupid. They put me in seclusion and gave someone a shot. When they do it they tell us to go to our room. My first day was awesome because when I was crying for my mama they came and cheered me up. They had group and told us to go to bed. I am done. Big daddy is ugly. He is mean, when I gave him the basketball he hit me with it. I am glad to be home I don't want to go back.

Back to me, Randy... At least he is not voicing suicidal thoughts. But he is very oppositional, especially to his brother and sister and is teasing them, hitting and kicking them. Right now he is in his room having a tantrum.

oh randy jim!!!!!!!  i hope it is better for you all - i do.

i wrote a long extended ramble and then deleted it and then re-wrote it and am wondering about posting it even now but here it is.  you are SO strong and i wish you all the very best... 

 --- i understand the phrase "my brain is feeling cuckoo" if i had any better advice to give, i would give it.  but i don't know more than exercise, normality, and something re-affirming (doing some good to someone else somehow if possible) or something that has always brought out the best in him.  and then just constant supervision --- i guess.  he must be delighted to be back with his brother and sister - no doubt the reason for the hitting and kicking (in that backward way that those emotions can come out with adders.....)

if it helps to know of my personal experience???  i had a terrible, almost psychedelic depression (i don't know how to explain it well but time warped and colours were very different - despite having never been near a single drug at that time in my entire life) when i was about 19 years old.  i understood it was a depression on some levels but it was overwhelming with time distortions and tears and elations and what no-one TOLD me was that the rest of my life would not be like this.  i thought this was it - forever...  i had no clue that i would come out of it.  nobody explained that to me.
and i think of my brother-in-laws cousin who blew his brains out with a shot gun some months ago aged 21 and at university and very popular and bright and so on and i always think --- nobody told him (just like nobody told me) that you COME OUT OF IT.  you may go back in but after you have had it once and then you know it is just a matter of time then the corresponding depressions/manias are so much easier to deal with but the first one...  you cannot comprehend living on in that much illness, it's unbearable and you don't know that there is an end.  certain things take on so much vital importance and it is a matter of life and death significance - everything is distorted.  is this making any sense?  but there is an end --- your brain just comes out of it, it just does, i don't know why but it does.

i dealt with it with nothing, just time - and therefore i think that worked for me and so it would be the way i feel most comfortable (which is perhaps why i come across as slightly wary of meds) but i guess it was me and every individual is different.

maybe you check out some SSRI sites to try to get an understanding of how some of the SSRIs like Zoloft can make adults feel too???
  then you may be able to talk through it with Jon too?  the one that springs to mind is the about.com (panic disorder one) but that's only because it is one i know of - maybe it is a start.  (they are NOT btw at all, at all, at all anti-med they have a mass of positive feedbacks on how many of these SSRIs have changed their lives for the better and so on but there is also info on how it can also feel when it is not working rather like this forum - with no judgements and no trolls.)

you are both so strong....!!!  i hate the fact that the doctors just seem to have dumped you with it --- with no more info or help or support but perhaps i am reading it wrong and they are there for you. 

what a thing to have to go through at his age...  so tough.  so tough.  anything that is reassuring i think is a good thing and exercise (sounds as if he is getting it running around the house) but i LOVE swimming when i feel as if my brain is about to take over again (???).  it really helps me, grounds me.  doing things that make me feel better about myself (and by that i don't mean things i like - like the cinema or ice-cream).  i mean things that make me feel better on a deeper level (for me it is cleaning my church or something like that) when i walk out i feel like i have more to give - changes my mind set or something.  things that DEEPLY make me feel better and make me feel able to be a better person to those around me, just seems to happen automatically.  more loving, more whatever... 

don't hesitate to demand the help you need from your psych too...   i hope they are being as supportive as you need.

i don't know randyjim --- i can't imagine the misery i put my own mother through sometimes just by being useless (i was always a people-pleaser never troublesome/aggressive tho) it's so tricky..........  all the best.


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