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Yeah, when youve been asleep and in so much pain for so long, waking up can cause mania in anyone. 

What you've experienced is a beginning. You know the Truth, but there is still someone in you who does not.  Now is the time to realize that on one level you know all the answers, but in another you are still human.  Jesus put it this way "Lesser is the one in in the Kingdom who knows, Greater is the one in the Kingdom who knows and does."   You have entered the Kingdom, and now it's time to live and grow in in this Kingdom.  You have the Ideals, now its time to remember to be practical.   The spirit cannot work through ideals, but only the practical where our brothers and sisters live.  Let the your spriit work through you not in savinging the world, but in a practical way in your current circumstances.

You definitely need to find people who understand.  Remember what the Jesus said, "narrow is the way."  Society is a blinder that obscures the Truth, and you can't expect most people to understand you, especially since its probably difficult right now for you to verbalize your experienec.   For Christians look at the Unity Church, for Eastern religion look at Buddhism, for secular look at ACIM (A Course In Miracles).  These three represent the Mystical path, which simply means that the Truth is an inside experience.  PM me if you want some links.

Thanks openyoureyes, you are right.  I did have a spiritual awakening.  The only problem was I have been manic the whole time, and just wasn't aware of it.  I was always going to do something, or had something to proove.  I understand what has happened, it's bad though when that's the only thing you can think of.  I couldn't get any of it out of my head.  I tried to write a book, thought I was a genius, I was trying to fix everyone.  When I failed I got depressed and thought I was crazy.  My spiritual awakening allowed me to be aware of my pain, not hide behind it

JonathZf,
OpenYourEyes is spot on I think and i would encourage you to enjoy the journey too.
I will say this to you make a journal of your journey, it should be an inspiration to read. Let it be your words and positive heart that comes thru. I am 54 and have
not found a path to stay on. I am diagnosed ADHD and on meds. I have lived, no
survived thus far with chaos as my only real friend. I was only diagnosed this past
july and am getting into my new self. I am alone with no back up services where
the workers understand the workings of ADHD. Your post was good for me to read.
good luck on the journey. Love the title of that book, OpenYourEyes told you to
have a read of, "A Course in Miracles" now that is catchy eh?

You experienced a spiritual awakening, something those people in the church are almost completely incapable of experiencing because they are so blinded by the intellectual theology and structure of the church.  It is all about forgiveness and living without guilt.  Read "A Course In Miracles" if you want read something that relates to your experience. Your experience has nothing do with mania or bi-polar, which have to do with delusion.  What youve experienced is a gift, simlar to what Jesus himself experienced.  Enjoy the journey.

Jon that is truely a wonderful story.  Thank you for sharing that with us.

Hello everyone, I hope you are having a good day.  I wanted to let everyone in on a little secret I found over the past two weeks or so.

Thanksgiving, November 25th 2004.  For the past five years or so I haden't taken part in my family occasions.  My mother's ex husband was always there.  He abused me as a child.  I decided to go this year.  I was doing well, ADHD treatment was working.  So I went, he was there as expected.  Something happened to me, looking at him, I realized he was miserable.  He had no love in his life.  Right then and there I knew what forgivness was really all about.  I could place myself in anyone's position and understand that it wasn't their fault.  People only know what they have been taught.  I think he was probably abused as a child.  I was just glad that I could have love and understanding finally in my life. 

With this new awareness, some strange things started happening.  I haven't read the bible since I was a kid. I did not believe in such supernatural phenomena.  I stopped associating people's actions with love.  I stopped associations peopel's actions with materialistic things. 

I was feeling strange.  I was crying all the time.  I really thought god was sending me a message or something.  I didn't know what to think.  I could see why the world was being torn apart.  I could also see why I didn't want anything to do with religion/christianity to begin with.  I didn't see love from them, all I saw were a whole bunch of people that thought they had the answers to unexplainable things.  They fight because of their judgements.  They all know what God has planned.  Clearly none of them were understanding the bible, if they did they would be incapable of such judgement.  I finally figured out that God has a plan for each of us.  There is no book or man that knows these answers.  The answers have to come from god and you, and they are in the best interest's of love.  No one knows what happened 2000 years ago.  They have heard stories of what people think happened, but none of them know.  I kept going on and on and on.  I couldn't get any of this out of my head, but I was calm. Unable to work, or do anything, but calm.

Finally I called my doctor.  I was wondering what the hell was going on.  At first he told me to drop the medicaiton.  So I tried.  No effect, I just wouldn't or couldn't shut up.  So he gave me some adavan, he thought it might be related to anxiety.  I tried that, it worked for a few days, but I was always tired.  I never really stopped talking to myself either.  My friends were thinking I was going insane.  Finally I heard the words manic from my doctor.  I new instantly that was what it was.  I convinced my old doctor that I was bipolar.  I tried that treatment for a few months.  It seemed to help, but I was still making the same old mistakes.  Unmotivated, disorganized, late, etc. . . so i got off the medicine and started treatment for ADHD again.

Just to test the theory he gave me some lexapro.  This is an ssri that helps with anxiety.  Immeadietly the thoughts came back.  I was then sure, I was bipolar.  I realized that the whole time I was being treated on stimulants I was talking to myself. I realized what forgivness was and overninght I was aware.  I started treatmet again for the bipolar (depakote 1000) almost immeadietly I stopped living in tomarrow and focused on today.  I introduced the Adderall, and now I am just a totally different person.

The moral I have found from the story.  All the answers you have ever been looking for come from yourself, and god.  Search yourself, and you will find happiness.  Love yourself and you will find love.  What we accept for truth, is only true if we look at it with an open and loving mind. 

Thanks for listening

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