I found that when I got diagnosed, I really questioned it to the point of not believeing, but I've since noticed a chance in myself since I've researched and worked towards coping with ADHD. I've really come on leaps and bounds and I really think you can too.
For the record, I am so lucky, I think I've done the washing up no more than ten times in my house (lived with my boyf for over a year) because when I see it i too becone so overwhelmed, I become enraged. Last month I smashed up my hoover because I had to hoover the whole house and it wasn't working as well as I wanted it too.
I also do anything to get out of anything. I spend hours dreaming about being able to sit in the garden and watch the world go by. When I get to a time that I can go out, I waste a lot of time making sure everything is in the right place and I won't have to move, but I enevitably move after about 5 minutes!
Getting depressed is a part of ADHD. Its a build up of frustration which really gets you down.
I described it to a friend of mine the other day and I told her it was like being in a maze, blindfolded, with no entrance and no exit. You bump into a lot of walls and sonetimes you hit a good long run up (new job, fresh hobby, new house etc) if you are lucky, but you will enevitably hit another frustrating wall again once things become regulated.
When you get overwhelmed by never being able to find your way out, you get very down. once you learn that the walls aren't going to shift, you get used to them and work your way around them, but nobody said it was going to be easy.
Over time, you will learn that you can move around like other people, but you have to take it slow and learn your path.
If you're anything like me, none of that will have sunk in as the post was too long and a bit of my wondering mind! hehe!
eatmytry39603.2195949074 What you said is so much like me. Your description screams ADHD. So i would say no you are not crazy, rest assured. (lol in a way, at least you know what it is)hey, vinton, try not to bug/freak out. It's weird how what you describe sounds exactly like me on too much cocaine, which frankly would be anything more than a very small line & this was all decades ago but how very uncomfortable that must be--I feel for you. That was back before I knew I had ADHD & was self-medicating: I would do a very small amount & be so excited to go home & go to bed, LOL--all my friends thought I was insane.
I'm curious if you're on meds. Adderall has helped me to focus a lot. I never had a problem hyperfocusing (I used to write for days straight w/o the interruption of even using the bathroom as a child) but being able to say choose the three most important tasks & do them is quite another thing altogether. I will be very honest in saying that I still must clear my distractions to be productive. That means doing my bills in the car where there are no children/laundry/cell phone, etc. When I become so buried at my law firm I simply have to literally slide all my sh*t from one edge of the desk to the other side so my space is clear & I'm not exascerbated by the clutter & then I can comb my way through the pile one task at a time, until the basics are done, but with a position that is MADE of interruptions, I confess to often waiting until most have left (or at home until all are asleep) to complete my chores in a peaceful non-distracting setting, w/only the "white noise" of Law & Order to keep me company/awake.
Also, I would never DREAM of trying to go to sleep w/o the television on--my mind would be everywhere--no thank you--TV on w/some mindless drivel I think I'm focusing on (my first choice is a McMillan & Wife episode I play repeatedly w/train noises in the background, or the beginning of a Hitchcock--Psycho/The Birds/Rope/Rear Window/Dial 'M')to go to sleep to. No commercials--too jarring. I'm always asleep (especially after staying up till 4 or 5am, LOL) w/in 5 minutes.
terrie39605.8510648148I was diagnosed with ADHD 6 months ago. I've tried concerta but my tics get worse..
No ! tell me if this ADHD..
A tipical day: I have problems to sleep.my mind dont shut down so hard to fall asleep and wake up often.. The worse is to deal with the anxiety to go to bed the next night.
This afternoon I have to reinstall the programs in my computer. I sit there and get jittery while they load and look at the list to go like I cant wait to finish.. I go in the kitchen and see the dishes and it annoys me.
The computer freezes so I call my friend who is a tech. e finally comes and while he is checking I'm nervous . He decides to bring it with him..Hum! I can finish the job..Coming out I see my neighbor so I decide to chat with him but all the time I'm thinking of the chores I have to do.
I'de like to just go on the patio with a coffee and look at the sky but!
I just cant stay in place..
I've lived like this for years and when I have good days I feel good but a day like today is depressing.
I'm impulsive and bought so much stuff that I'd get ride of and now I feel so guilt for the money I could have saved..Hey! I'm 61 years old..
I feel bad and always compare myself to other and envy them for being so stable.
Am I going crasy or its ADHD?
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