Why can’t it work the fist time? | ADHD Information

I am just feeling so today.

I want to know why our kids are going through this? I want to know why, since they are going through this, why is so hard to control their meds?

I feel heart broken everyday that my ds has a bad day. He was doing so good his first few weeks on vyvanse and that seems to be fading away now. I prayed and prayed that the first time would work.

Why does my handsome, smart, sweet little boy hate himself so badly at times? Why does he think his life is not worth living and he doesn't deserve anything?

Do our poor kids get better from all of this and how long does it take? I know Michael Phelps is a great example but he's not the only example I'm sure. I would love to hear from some of you that have been at this for what seems forever...it already seems like forever for me. I have been dealing with the behavioral issues since he was 2.

Thank you everyone. I know I will get past this feeling today, I just feel helpless for him and I just want to make it all better, like kissing the booboo to make it go away. 

Ok...so I am at work crying now after reading that. I feel like those are my words in your post because I have been there and know just how hard it is and how very much it hurts to see your child suffering that way. I am not familiar with the Vyvanse or how long it takes but I do know that it takes time to find the right medication or combination in our case. My son voiced the same thoughts of “I don’t deserve to live”, “I just want to die” and at times even begged me to kill him. So believe me when I say you have my deepest sympathy as I truly know how it feels. My ds psych attributed these behaviors to an anxiety disorder (which is rampant in my family) and viewed that treatment as a priority over the ADHD. You may want to as your dr about that as it can be common in ADHD kids. Although my ds is currently “stable” since we changed his meds we still have our days where he thinks he is stupid. But it is thankfully not an every moment thing like it once was and he no longer wants to die. My ds has little self confidence in himself especially when it comes to school work and I think this adds to the “I am dumb” talk and we are working on it. Just yesterday I created a “Kudos to you” notebook. I wrote down everything that I thought he did a great job at that day and then read it to him before he went to bed. I praise him when I see him doing it and acknowledge it at that time too. I also get a daily note from his teacher so I include the good things from his school day in it too. I thought that revisiting all the good things at the end of the day would let him see the whole picture of what a good job he does. I hope that this will help him to see how great he really is. Even if we have a bad day I know I will have to find something good in it. It could even be something as little as putting the cap back on the toothpaste. Maybe your little guy would benefit from something like this too as well.