I have been in treatment for about 18 months for depression and GAD.  The depression improved slightly.  About 2 months ago my psychiatrist had me tested for ADHD.  At the time, I thought he was wrong.  It turns out he was right.

I have worked for the federal government my entire life.  I am an analyst.  I am worried about getting fired.  I have been working every other day for a year to accommodate my medical conditions.  Soon I will run out of leave and will not get paid for the days I am not at work.  At this time I think my health is more important than a paycheck.

What I agonize over is that my boss is trying to fire me.  She went to HRO and had them write a letter to my psychiatrist about my medical conditions and the affect on my work.  I also have a mild cognitive disorder.  HRO told her that I provided good documentation and that a reasonable accommodation was to let me work every other day.  She then tried to have me fired because I received a rating of 2 on the NSPS job performance.  Again, HRO told her no.

I cannot work as fast as other analyst and am expected to work as efficiently.  I sometimes forget how to perform routine jobs.  What is really scary is ,y written reports, which is almost the most important job aspect of an analyst.  I am grammar and spelling errors and I do not see them when I proofread my reports.  I also have trouble putting my thoughts down on paper.  I miss the good old days (about 8 years ago) when just about every office had at least one office automation assistant to make reports smooth, make travel arrangements, perform the travel claim paperwork, and do your time.   

I do not know what to do about my poor job performance.  I try to focus on one task at a time but our office priorities change so usually this is not accomplished.  I get distracted by people stopping by my desk for information they need for their urgent project.  My reports are good but sloppy.  I feel like a loser and my self esteem is non-existence.  I have weekly talk therapy sessions and they are not helping.  My therapist does not specialize in adult ADHD.  He thinks if I gain back my self-estem, all my work ussues will go away.