Job Anxieties
Back in February, we had several job cuts and mandatory pay cuts across the board. Today, there were two more job cuts and other jobs were shifted around to other people and most managers will be taking additional pay cuts. I'm very concerned about my job security.Lately, I've been so anxious about my job and stressed about different things. I wanted an opportunity and I learned the other day that it was given to a manager. :( I can't help but wonder/worry if my job is next on the chopping block. Maybe it's just survivor's guilt, I don't know. But I ask for more responsibility and they just haven't given it to me. Lots of worries about my job that I have no control over. I'm trying to remember that I have no control over this and the job cuts and anything else that they do. I just worry that my ADHD is going to get in the way and I'll be eliminated next. I worry that I'm going to have to (very reluctantly) go into the sales department, if I want a job, and I totally DON'T want to do sales. I know I'm jumping all over the place with thoughts. And I'm sure I'm not alone in my anxieties.
I just need to get this out. I was talking to a friend and I was just projecting all over. If I lose my job, then I'll have to move back to Indiana and I'd rather kill myself than move back there, yada, yada, yada, blah, blah, blah. I haven't lost my job, so I just need to quit those thoughts. But in the evenings when my meds have worn off, my mind just goes spinning. You all know the drill.
Thanks for listening. If anyone else has words of comfort or would care to share your experience, I would appreciate it. It may help calm my anxieties.
One guy had beein with a comany for a long time, therough many changes, and someone asked him how he had lasted so long.
His repy was that he never applied for, or accepted a promotion.
Ihave seen people get promoted, and there are problems with the company, and the guy who was recently promoted, gets blamed.
Is ther some way you can do better at the job you have now?
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After talking with another co-worker, I realized that perhaps I really DON'T want the added responsibilities. I mean, I really DON'T want to have to go to the bank every day to make the deposit. That'd get old real quick. And as long as they aren't piling on the work load or taking anything away from me, I really need to just do my current job to the best of my abilities. I just wanted extra responsibilities to make myself more of a valued employee. In essence, to assure my job security. But I know there's never such a thing.
Yeah, the bosses always have to take the blame. And if I'm in a position of higher authority, I might have to take the blame. Something I don't necessarily want.
Thanks for writing, Otter.
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