got adderal! yea!

omg! I went to the doctor today and the appointment went sooooooooo much better than the last time.  I told him everything that I did with my meds.  (weaning off the w.b. a week earlier than instructed, taking my old zoloft instead of new samples of effexor, etc.)  He was very understanding.  I was able to talk so much calmer and less "high strung" without that STUFF in my system.  I expressed concerned about the mention of bi-polar from the last visit.  He agreed that we could rule that out.  Can you say relief?!?!

He asked me what I would like to try.  I told him that if I could have things my way, I would like to keep a low dose of Zoloft (pms) and try Adderal.  Well what do you know, he said, "OK."   I'm a little concerned that the starting dose might be high after re-reading some of your posts.  It seems that most of you started on 10mg of the XR.  He is starting me on 20mgs.  Anyone else start that high?

I can't start until Wednesday.  I went to the pharm. only to find out that I need prior plan approval and it was too late to make the chain of phone calls.  I should be able to pick it up tomorrow.  They said that it shouldn't be a problem to get plan approval.  It sounds stupid, but I feel as if a dream has come true.  I've been wanting to try this for so long only to keep getting treated for depression.  I hope this works.  I told the doctor that if it didn't, I would resolve to being scattered on zoloft.  I also feel like I can let go of my "self-centered"phase that someone suggested I was in on this board.  I got what I wanted.  I get to try it for a month, it's time to get on with life. 

I need to change my screen name.  Not crazy seems a little critical of myself and everyone else.  I have to forgive myself as my body was poisoned when I joined the forum.  Any suggestions.