I FELT SO BAD! | ADHD Information

thankyou for your replies, i still feel bad but what makes me mad is that no matter how much i tell people im sorry and that i didnt mean it they dont give a damm, its like they think im just some nutter and even as an adult i should act my age. they dont understand me at all.i wouldnt ever dreamed of sl*gging off a person in a wheelchair or what i would call disabled disable but that guy whom has this phobia of going out isnt what i would call disabled,yeh he might be disabled from going out but isnt a phobia what you bring on to yourself?, mind over matter and all that?

well thats what i think anyway, us with adhd have some kind of brain prob chemicals or something and thats not our fault.

what do you all think?

sorry to go on but im very confuddled and no matter how much my hubby explains this to me im still lost, i keep telling him to tell me in english lol

I've jumped down pples throats more times than I'd like to admit and usually I regret doing it before I shut my mouth! Maybe once in a while that person deserved it. Like when I was rear-ended, I wasn't at fault and this guy gets REAL arragent b/c he was late for work. I ripped him a new assh**e. The cop said he never heard a woman use almost every cuss word there is and actually make sense! The ass got a ticket for careless driving, than ran from me as fast as he could. The cop laughed Now that was a time I actually felt good!

Now my worse case of as I like to call it "unleashing the evil" was in walmart. A lady in a wheelchair was blocking the isle. Her daughter was with her and made no attempt to move her even when I said "excuse me, I just have to grab something off the shelf". The daughter got right in my face and said "NO". Ok, now my brain shuts down and my mouth takes over. I told her to get her crippled old mother out of the isle, that big-ass chair dosn't belong in stores! OMG! The mother was deaf, so she heard nothing,but her daughter started crying, telling me she does the best she can, feels like a failure,can't do anything right.....she just went on and on.I said I was sorry, but didn't wait for a reply. That night, all I did was cry and felt so bad for saying such horrible things That was beyond bich. It took me days to get over it. I wish they made muzzles that would automatically close our mouths for times like these! 

I get ahead of myself when I get mas too. No filter  from my brain to my mouth. I  apologize to a friend or co worker  for jumping down their throat at least once a month. If you are like me  it leaves you exhausted after you fire up and feeling ashamed =( sorrry about your daybeen there!  mostly during pms.  i get "overstimulated" and impulsively snap at someone.  i then feel guilty and cry about it.  I've read it is very common in women and ADD. 

i done a bad thing yesterday i was in a group and someone emailed and sounded like a right arse with an attiude saying he wanted to leave now!, so me being me replied tutt tutt someone has an attiude and he emailed me back sl*gging me off, i did say to him that if he wanted to leave then why email the whole group with an arse attiude?, well as you are all like me you would know i went mad, said some bad things, he said all i do is sit on my fat arse at the pc, which started it off, i emailed him back saying not everyone on the pc is fat you know, i later find out his got a phobia of going out so i emailed him back saying" do you sit on your fat arse on pc as your too scared to go out?, well that was it wasnt it he replied that i used his disabiltly to get at him, well im my eyes it worked but i felt really bad, tried all night to say sorry but he didnt want to hear about it, i explained that i too have a disabilty and that if someone starts me off i cant stop and say hurtful things, i got told by his sister whom has a 10yr child with adhd that adults with adhd meant to act there ages at all times and not childish!, is it just me or is everyone like this?, i can act older but when someone starts me off i say hurtful things then regret it all?, i cried all night over this as i didnt mean it?, i did ask her what does she do when her child goes off on one, she replied ignore her so i replied well then lol

is anyone with me on this or was i really just a bitch?