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After years of searching for something that works against ADHD I have now finally found it. I’m almost “cured” out of ADHD. An entire new world opens before me. I’m actually living my life now! The medications I took triggered a “crash”. A dysphoric feeling that is sometimes accompagnied by anxiety. Also this triggered the parasympathetic (rest and digest) nervous system to dominate. But on the long term this has triggered sensitisation/ upregulation to take place causing long term improvements with ADD/ADHD symptoms. It took 8-10 years before I saw drastic improvement. Don’t ask me if I’m sure if I am cured and if I have proof. I’m completely sure I’m cured or almost cured. You will understand if you read this completely.
Now that I am almost cured out of ADHD there are a lot of things that I have learned about. First ADHD seems to impair thinking in an extensive way. I previously had severe thinking further problems. This is why I also caused a lot of damage. It’s completely 100% true if I tell you that my entire life exists of causing damage. To be honest I never did others anything good, I only caused a lot of damage until now. The damage caused was caused by not thinking further and building incomplete systems. I never did anything productive until now even when I thought I did. Now everything changes.
If you understand what I do now you will be 100% astound, frightened and shocked at the same time. I never realised that I did a lot of damage (indirectly) to others until now. I only understood directly done damage and I frequently only realised about indirect damage if the damage went back to me (other people’s revenge for example). I also never realised that you can even do damage by saying the wrong stuff at the wrong moment! There are a lot of things I did not realise that was happening around me when I had ADHD. ADHD actually limits your thoughts so that you cannot discover what happens further following an action. I have helped society a great deal by curing my ADHD because the damage I did to others was tremendous.
What happens is this: For example I leave my skateboard somewhere on the floor. Someone walks and trips on it and falls on the floor. I never realised that this is my fault. I mean it’s the person that trips on it who should have been more careful that is what I would think. Now everything changes. It’s me who should never have put the skateboard there.
My ADHD or ADD (inattentive type) made me very sluggish and unable to go on with my life. I failed to be productive at work and school and everywhere else. Instead I spent endless times daydreaming and if I tried to be productive I was contraproductive instead (I did more harm then any good). I also felt a fog around me, I was very absent minded. I missed my clarity of mind. I also behaved very careless, sometimes I said things that I should not have said seeing the circumstances. For example saying that a certain kind of treatment is bad, while you are in an environment where everybody uses this treatment.
I also missed a very important ability while I had ADHD: The ability to think and feel deeper. Without this ability you are an absent minded person who is flying with his head on other planets and you miss a lot of life. It’s a very special ability that is related to clarity of mind.
Now that I have almost cured my ADHD I also see improved cognitive skills. Reading and understanding books becomes so much easier. Even time seems to go slower. This is 100% special. In order to explain to you all the different things I have discovered I have made this text. Please read it entirely because it’s very important. It may save your life or save your way to jail.
Please spread the word around. Send this document to everyone you know who has ADHD or knows someone who does have ADHD.
You can always email me as well: adhdcured@gmail.com
Seeing the consequences of your actions
ADHD or ADD as I found out is a completely different way of thinking and feeling the world. Instead of being with the world and doing things that other people do like going out I spent endless times daydreaming while listening to music. While doing so thousands of thoughts went throught my head. I felt so scattered all the time. I sometimes discussed this problem with others but they often ignored my problem. On the long term I even started to believe that nothing was wrong with me, but in fact 100% everything was wrong. I never made any friends because I could not follow the conversation to the end and I could not keep a job. I was also very sluggish and spent a lot of time daydreaming. While daydreaming everybody else got married, got children and got rich while I’m still with living with parents because I’m unable find the necessary financial resources to move out.
I always had a really short attention span and I had thinking thorought problems. For example I’m not an arrogant person and I would never say that I am smart. Instead I said I had the best grades of the class, which is actually the same as saying that I am very smart.
When communicating with others I found out that it’s not only about what you say, it’s about the consequence of what you say to others. For example one day a new ceo comes to your company. And he’s discussing new plans for your company. Suddenly you stand up and you yell “are you psychotic??????”. The day after you receive the message that you are fired. You ask why? I only said “are you psychotic??????”. Well it’s not only about what you exactly yelled, it’s more about the consequence of what you yelled. What you yelled actually triggered a lot of things that followed next. “are you psychotic??????” actually means “all your ideas are worth nothing” and also means “you are a bad ceo”.
Not seeing the consequences of what you say and do can be extremely troublesome. You can cause damage, hurt feelings and more. This is the reason I got fired from every job I tried. You are like blind, walking somewhere and colliding with everything. You aren’t colliding with real objects; instead you are colliding with objects that you cannot see (thinking world objects).
It’s like the world consists of a matrix: A logical world where everything is connected with each other. If I say or do something the consequences go to somewhere else. Everything you do or say creates something like waves that go somewhere else.
For example the major comes to you because there is a problem and he needs advice. The city has too little space to build houses on. Luckily there is a large open space to build houses on but there is an old windmill standing there. Let’s say you tell the major: “Just destroy the old windmill and build new houses there”. Unfortunately the major and a lot of people really like the old windmill that stood there for 200 years. Dismayed at your disrespectfulness the major now seeks another advisor.
What happened was this: When I said that the old windmill should be destroyed this has triggered certain consequences. These consequences were not noticed by me. Not seeing these consequences means that I do stuff without seeing the consequences. Which means I can’t function well because I can’t see what the things that I do or say have for consequences. Not seeing the consequences is like being blind, you do stuff but you can’t see what comes next.
Frequently I only saw what I did but I could not see what the consequence of what I did. And not seeing the consequences of what you did means you can’t act accordingly.
I also frequently used vague sentences such as “the world is good”, “I am tall”. These vague sentences are irritating when used often because they have a wide scope. Vague sentences can be hurtful as well: Saying that company A is bad is hurtful, but saying that a specific part of company A is much better. Vague sentences are like rockets shot everywhere. There is no limitation with vague sentences.
For example saying that you are “very good with programming” without a limitation and/ or specification this sounds arrogant but if you say “But I’m not as good as my collegue” (limitation) or “I’ve got 2 years of experience” (specification) this does not sound arrogant.
Vague sentences have a very wide scope. They are like rockets shot everywhere. There is no guidance to a specific target, which means vague sentences are very inaccurate. Using vague sentences can be very irritating for others because they are not very specific. Using vague sentences that contradict each other (saying I’m smart and then saying I’m stupid) can be irritating as well because these sentences are interpreted very extensive by other people. Vague sentences can also prevent people from doing stuff: tell a chemist that his or her mix will explode and he or she will throw this thing away.
When I had ADHD I could not see the consequences of what I said and did. This caused a lot of communication problems. One time I said that I was very good with programming. Other people found this sounding very arrogant, but I am not an arrogant person. The consequences of what you say and do are very important. For example a friend of yours uses a particular kind of medication that he needs to control his blood pressure. If you say that he should not take his medication this is not very good idea, but if you say that this medication has severe side effects this isn’t a very good idea either because this might indirectly cause your friend not to take his medication.
Building incomplete systems
I previously had absurt ideas such as selling supplements on the street. A lot of these stupid ideas when I tried to carry them out they caused the biggest damage ever to other people. Selling supplements on the street looks like a drug deal. If you get caught, the police will investigate you, find out that you are doing legal things, yet you wasted the police officer a lot of time. One other time I handed over leaflets with strong words that are considered prohibited to show others in public. But because I never even thought about it I handed over 1.000 leaflets and got the government chasing me. I also had ideas which I spent a lot of time thinking about, but they were in fact 100% ways of mass destruction for others. I never saw what the particular thing did to others, I could only saw what it did for me.
All the things I did when I had ADHD worked contraproductive. For example I tried to earn money but instead of earning money I lost money and I caused damage to others as well. I can explain why I only lost money and why I caused damage to others as well. This is because I failed to build complete systems. I made a pie that is half finished, bike without a steer, car without wheels. These systems are not ready for usage. If you do use them they can cause the biggest damage ever. For example ride a bike without a steer and you will fall underneath a car.
What happened is this:
You are having your birthday, I’m giving you a bike as a present. The bike does not have a steer that is attached well.
You are riding the newly given bike on your birthday, get hit by a car and now you are in the hospital on your birthday.
Angry you come back to me. In order to make everything well I spend 700 dollars for making a new bike. I give you this bike and say here friend. I give you this for free. Unfortunately the breaks don’t work well.
So now you ride on this newly given bicycle and you smash on a tree at high speed.
I could not go deeper with my work and make it complete. I made a website consisting out of 1 page, which is worth exactly
The situation was so unfair because some of my messages were seen as spam and I was blocked by the people who I wanted to show my website to but other people who send messages containing valuable, complete information are instead praised for sending the messages.
One another example of my ADHD limiting my functioning is this. I always wanted to tell others that ADHD limits thinking and causes you to live in a fog. I approached other people in the forums on the internet. But these people didn’t even listen to me or they did but they didn’t do anything with the information. Novadays I have made this paper completely describing my problems. The entire product has a certain amount of value which means I don’t have to tell others about ADHD limiting thinking anymore, people will see this information that has some value and so they will spread the word themselves by sending this document to others. If you haven’t done so, please send this document to everyone you know, especially people who are affected with ADHD.
Another example of an incomplete system is telling someone is autistic for example, but not based on all the facts that are presented to you. You are causing hurt feelings because nobody wants to hear that he or she is autistic but you said this because you heard that this person doesn’t go along well with friends or something like that. You need to say this only based on all the facts and you need to rule everything out first. This way you have something complete and you can say this person is autistic without causing harm or if there is harm it’s done in a controlled way.
A very good example of an incomplete system that causes much harm is incomplete information: There is a party this Saterday in this city. You only forgot to tell people that this party was previous saterday and not this saterday. Now everyone goes to this party saterday and finds out that this party is long passed.
Not only did I build incomplete systems, I also used incomplete logic.
Using incomplete logic
Because I could not finish thinking processes completely I developed solutions for problems that worked the other way: Instead of fixing something it made it worse. It’s very sad; I’ve tried to help others a lot of times in my life but it usually worked out the other way. I did damage to others instead. What happened was this: I tried to help someone by lifting him out of the water, but I did not have something to hold on to so I fell in the water as well and now others had to save 2 people instead. I should have hold on to something but I did not rule out all problems that could happen.
I used incomplete logic:
The specific logical thinking problem I suffered from is incomplete logical reasoning. For example this:
90% of all african people have dark skin.
You have light skin but you are telling me you are African.
I think you are lying, but I am not sure.
Complete logical reasoning is this:
90% of all african people have dark skin. If you are African and you have light skin your mother has dark skin.
You have light skin but you are telling me you are African. Your mother has light skin.
I'm completely sure that you are lying.
I could never completely finish a thinking process so that I am completely sure to do something. I could not make a 100% complete logical foundation.
A 100% complete logical foundation means you take a look at all variables and you make a decision based on everything. Because I could not make these kind of foundations I could not take decisions well. So I was never completely sure to take action A or action B. Not making 100% complete logical foundations means you want to build a building, but instead you build the tower of Pisa. You can’t take a look at everything and make a decision based on everything. Which means you aren’t very reliable because sometimes you are taking the right decision and sometimes you are taking the wrong decision. Sometimes you are correct and sometimes you are wrong.
Not making 100% complete logical foundations means that you cannot rule everthing out so that you are completely sure to do this or to do that. It also means that you develop solutions for problems that work the other way: Instead of making something better you make something worse. Which happened all the time when I had ADHD, but I never realised it. What happens is that you design a building for example but you didn’t rule everything out so when the building is built you get a tower of Pisa. Or an airplane that crashes after flying 100 km. This ability is very important. Bill Gates would not have made Microsoft and Larry Page would not have made google if these people did not have this ability. Instead Larry Page would have made uooooooooooooooooogle instead (non stable version of google).
The people who said that having ADD or ADHD wasn’t a bad thing got punished often by me when I did damage to them (for example by forgetting very important stuff or causing hurt feelings). My thinking problems were masqueraded often so people thought there was nothing wrong. What happened frequently was that I used incomplete logic but people could not find out about it. Something like this happened: We are pilots. Now we are leaving to another country, but before we can depart we need to check if the plane is ready for take off. So I checked the fuel and found out that our plane has enough fuel. So I said we are ready to go! Unfortunately I did not checked all the other stuff (fuel cooling for example). Other people thought well it’s okey to take off because this person says so and he must have checked everything. And every normal person would have checked everything but not me. My inability to think something completely throught was very bad with everything I did.
Because I could not find the optimal solution for a problem trail and error was the only way to find a solution for a problem. This means you have to try everything before you reach to the solution. But every time you try something you can cause damage. If you can find the optimal solution for a problem you can take 100% the right decision right away.
Due to using incomplete logic all my life I have been frequently finding solutions to problems that worked the other way. It’s so sad: instead of fixing something I made it worse. And I never even knew about it until now. I had times when I wanted to help others but instead I did harm. It’s because I had a logical thinking problem.
I also suffered from wishful thinking. This means that I am trying to reach a state that is seeing from the current state unreachable or almost unreachable. For example trying to earn money with shares without having decent education in economy. Trying to get to this state you might see that you can’t earn money, but you might lose money instead for example. Wishful thinking means that you stick to your believes and you keep trying to earn money with shares which is impossible or almost impossible if you think about it completely. Basically you are like a horse running after a carrot but this carrot is attached to your neck with a stick so that every time you run to this carrot the distance between you and the carrot stays the same.
The ability to think and feel deeper
This special ability is something I was looking for all my life. It’s a very special ability and living without the ability to think and feel deeper is like being deaf or blind. This ability feels and is very special, without this ability it’s like you haven’t lived your life 100%. Without this ability you are an absent minded person who misses all the beautiful things that life has to offer. This ability feels like listening to a beautiful song and not having this ability it’s like listening to a beautiful song but everytime the high tunes (the beautiful tunes) are sung you hear a dull sound. Yes it’s that ability!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DLahQ3qBdX4
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LVOiUHo3WSE
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VRUxgGVcmzg
It feels like going deeper into something beautiful. This ability is so important that if god asked you if you want to be a billionaire or a normal person with this ability it’s better to be a normal person with this ability because all this money isn’t worth anything without the ability to think and feel deeper. I’ve been looking for it all my life ever since I found out that I could not connect with reality and I felt I was dreamy and foggy all the time.
It means that you have to the ability to think deeper and feel deeper. Instead of staying above the water you dive into it. Without this ability you see the world flat and there is no depth. You can see that words such as asshole are hurtful for others but saying that the work someone has done is just as bad but you can’t sense this.
Previously, when someone asked me “what does friendship mean to you?” my response was “finding someone that you can get along with.”. I could not think deeper about this question and feel deeper. If I did my best my answer would be: “Well you find someone you can get along with and become friends with this person.”. Even if my answer was good it’s like I could not feel my answer. Just like I’m saying something but not meaning it. Like saying bungy jumping and parachute jumping are funny things to do but you have never done it before.
Because I lacked this ability I did the most silly things such as going to an important organisation and then saying stuff that are hurtful for that particular organisation such as going to the labour party and then saying that labour is bad for our society. This is hurtful for others because people have fought 50 years for this. I never felt this hurting others. It’s like I could not think and feel deeper. This is why I caused a lot of hurt feelings. Did you know if someone hurts your feelings it’s like your heart hurts? It’s a very pure feeling and it feels very special but I never felt it before because I could not think and feel deeper.
The ability to think and feel deeper is very important because it means that you can feel stuff deeper. Like you aren’t just drifting away with your mind, but you are really there. You can think about stuff deeper; You can really feel it.
This ability can be demonstrated like this:
This text is soooooooooo good. Never seen something as good as this one before. It’s the best on this planet.
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWWW……..
If you have enough deeper thinking ability you will feel something like waves or your heart “pounding” when you read this. It’s a magical kind of feeling.
If you lack this ability you will get “don’t you realise” questions. Don’t you realise what labour means for the labour party? It’s all about respect. The right response to these questions requires you to go deeper with your thoughts: “Sorry I did not know what labour meant for the labour party. Now I know, you had a demonstration recently and it was a big one… etc.”. If you give the wrong answer such as: “Well it isn’t that bad right?” you can make people very angry because it actually hits them in a deeper way. It feels very pure.
Fragmented thinking
I previously suffered from fragmented thinking. This means there is not 1 thought process, but many. Like some kind of reset button pressed every time. This explains why I always switched from one thing to another. And also my working memory problems. Also the text I wrote did not have a logical sequence; it frequently consisted of a lot of logical flaws, usually in the form of incomplete logic such as: Elementary schools are bad. We must abolish all elementary schools. If elementary schools are bad this does not mean that you must abolish all elementary schools.
Sometimes people thought that I was crazy because the texts I wrote were logically incorrect or impossible. Such as elementary schools are great ways to accelerate children. This is impossible if you think further. You cannot accelerate children.
You could easily see that the texts I wrote consisted of many short fragments. For example sometimes I repeated specific words such as “I”. Also fragmented thinking caused me to think this way: When you see a yellow sign turn left, red sign turn around, orange sign turn right. But when I followed all instructions in the end I was at the start again. If you saw the whole then you should have walked an entire other way. Fragmented thinking means you don’t look at the whole, but you only see the world in pieces. You don’t think further.
Now that I see this fragmented thinking reducing I see improved cognitive functioning. I always wondered how other people could be doctors 40 hours a week for example. If I was a doctor I would be fired after 2 hours of work for sure. I would probably forget to connect certain stuff causing the biggest damage ever. Luckily this treatment against ADHD has caused my brain to function better. Now I finally understand how other people function.
I now see that my thinking was way different from the way other people think. It actually consisted of many tiny fragments. There was no integration into 1 whole thinking process. This is why I wrote texts that really did not had any logical sequence in them. People often did not understand what I wrote. Often I wrote words that are the center of everything and then if you think further it has a certain meaning. Sometimes I projected something to other people: For example saying that you are “very quick with everything” seeing the circumstances this may mean that “you are very smart”. This projection is archieved because other people think further.
Superbrain?
I always thought there was something behind this ADD. While I spent so much time daydreaming while other people were productive, thousands of thoughts ran throught my head. Maybe it did train my brain a littlebit giving me more “brainpower” on the long term. Why do I think this? Because I always noticed that my ability to concentrate was very bad, but my ability to understand complex texts for example was good. And why did I daydream for 10 years long anyway?
What has happened to my life?
The problems I previously had were so extreme that the best thing I could do was do nothing and treat ADHD and find a solution for it as soon as possible. Everything else I did worked contraproductive and/ or caused damage to others. Luckily making an appointment with a doctor did not worked contraproductive (I did reached the doctors office luckily).
If I think back about my life I feel ashamed because I suddenly realise all the damage I did to others. I damaged so many things indirectly.
I always had these creative ideas that I wanted to carry out but I never had the energy to make it happen. When I did carry out these creative ideas, these things were in fact incomplete systems that did damage to others. So instead of finding a way to earn money I lost money and I actually developed a way to cause damage to others as well. Some creative ideas I had which I spent a lot of time thinking about were actually ways of mass destruction for others. And I never knew until now, because I have been partially cured out of ADHD. While I was working on my idea and waiting for money that I should have earned others were counting the amount of damage that I had done to them. And no matter what I did in life I always caused damage. For example once I worked at the postal service. I only earned about an hour because I worked that slow while others earned an hour. Not only that, I also went to get a snack often which means I lost half of my earned money. I also had to pay for getting to work which means the money I earned that day with my work was about
I always seeked the center of stuff and did the most silly things there. What happened was something like this: Instead of destroying a restaurant from the outside (which would have been better because I could not do much harm anyway), I went working there and I forgot to turn the oven off and then the entire restaurant burned down. I always said or did the wrong things at the wrong moment. It’s so silly and it feels like you are cursed.
The only way to prevent doing damage is by building complete systems: So you don’t only build only half a car but a complete one instead. And you make sure that your car is safe to drive with (airbag). Don’t forget airbag or you will get problems.
What is even worse was that I never realised that I did damage to others until now. I didn’t realised a lot of things that were going on while I had ADHD. I was like bouncy; Jumping from one thing to another, leaving a trail of destruction (For example visiting someone, not cleaning up the mess I left there and then departing to somewhere else. The mess left behind includes an object for example that was left at the corridor, now someone trips on it and falls on the floor.). Please don’t be wrongly informed: I’m not particularily hyperactive; I got inattentive ADD which means I’m more sluggish and I don’t do damage to others directly. Instead the damage I did was done indirectly, using information, such as incomplete information.
Now that I realise all the damage I did in my life to others it’s like I feel great remorse. I now realise all the damage I did and it’s tremendous. There is no number that can express how much damage has been done.
I found my disability to cause me unable to earn any money at all. I could not hold a simple job. I wanted to make money in order to make a living, but I could not do it the normal way with a job just like every one. I always wanted to stay clean and I did everything to obay the laws and I always obayed the laws but in the process of doing so I developed the strangest things that did massive destruction to others. I kept waiting for money, the money that I had earned using my way. I kept losing money or earning very little, thinking that I must be incapable to earn more money. What happened in fact was that I wasn’t earning money, instead I did a lot of damage, but I was unable to see the damage that was done to others.
There was 100% no way to behave in such a way that I could prevent damage done to others and be productive when I had ADHD. The only thing that I could do is treat ADHD well and/ or do nothing the entire day. The situation is the same as being blind. One day you will collide with something you could not see. Having ADHD means that you are thinking world blind: You are colliding against thinking world objects. There was nothing I could do to be productive while having ADHD, because I did way more damage then being productive.
I always thought of clever ideas such as these creative ideas (selling supplements on the street for example) to earn money but these were all ways to create incomplete systems which did harm instead. I once made one creative idea which I spent 2 years on and it was like perfect to me. I thought about everything; If the thing was legal, everything that could happen if something did not work out. I also thought about if the thing was good for our society and I thought yes. I also thought about if I could earn a living with it and I also thought yes.
Spending a lot of time with this idea I earned nothing. But novadays when I think about this idea it was actually a way to cause a great deal of damage to others. Only the idea was very good and original. It was exacly the center point of everything. And the strange thing is that it caused damage on all ways. It caused so much damage and it did things that normally would never happen. The idea consisted only out of 1 website with 1 page. It was just information but it created damage. Like always it was an incomplete system. It was something like a car without airbag. Or giving financial advice to others without having decent education in economy.
When I had ADD or ADHD my brain functioning was completely 0%. My problems were so big that the best thing I could do is find a solution for my problem as soon as possible. Every other thing I did (trying to earn money with creative ideas or work) actually worked against me. Now that my ADD is almost cured I see everything changes. I can read books which I could not understand, do things I dreamed of all my life. ADD has made a very deep impact on my life.
Creative ideas
While I had ADD I made a lot of creative ideas. A lot of these ideas were the exact center point of everything (exactly the same thing that causes a lot of damage). Some of them are very good. Unfortunately I did not have the ability to go deeper with my work so I could never exploit these ideas. Sometimes other people took over my ideas and exploited them instead.