Kinda Nervous | ADHD Information
Well, it must have done something because the last half hour or so I've been super spacey and tired. And I wasn't spacey or tired before that. Just felt like I was having a decent day. (other than some pretty major back pain, but that's a different issue altogether!) I think I read that that's called rebound? So something's happening anyway!The fear of losing you (your personality) when taking meds is common and not at all unreasonable, since we know that most drug problems stem from people who don't like themselves trying to become someone else through chemistry.
However, Ritalin does not change, cover up, tone down, mute or otherwise affect your personality. Think of it like your mind is a movie projector that is just slightly out of focus. There is light and color and motion, but the image isn't clear. Bringing it into focus does not change the scene. It just makes it easier for the real picture to come through.
If anything, you could think of it as if right now, your ADD is blocking people from seeing the real you. Take your Ritalin and enjoy letting the real you shine through!
OK, I took it this morning.
Really not feeling any different. I'm on a really low dose tho' (10mg) But nothing bad happened so I'm not so much nervous anymore! I'll definately keep taking it and we'll see what happens.
30 minutes after I took ritalin it was like the sun had been in my eyes 43 yrs and someone had just given me raybans. The changes have been dramatic and all good.
I found these boards a few months ago, and thought it'd be a good support thing. Then I went and did my "If I ignore my problems they'll go away" thing and haven't been back!
I've been having to go to a psychiatrist for the past couple months to deal with my depression issues and being in a new city and needing a new doctor to take care of my meds (such a collosal pain in the butt!) and he finally agreed to let me get tested for ADD after me bugging him three months in a row. On Wednesday I got my prescription for Ritalin, since the tester people think I "may" have ADD. In my head... "duh! that's what I've been telling you!"
So now there's a bottle of 10mg pills in my kitchen next to my Paxil, but I'm kinda nervous about taking them. Which I know is dumb, but the feeling is there anyway. I was the same way the first year or two taking depression meds. Took me a long time to deal with the fact that I need them. It's like there's a little part of me that doesn't want to change how my brain works. Scared of losing me I think.
And now it's Friday and I haven't tried the stuff yet. But I happened to see my link to these boards on my links page and figured I'd come here and talk a little. That always seems to help. So maybe tomorrow will be the day.
Thanks for listening to me babble 